Hi, thank you for being so patient. The question I asked is something I have wrestled with and I think you are saying yes in reply to that???
I think from what you've shared and God speaking through scripture you've shared that I can come back to faith. Do you think that may be the case?
Luther called Christ the bloodhound of heaven, being relentless in His pursuit of us by His love. I don't believe that there is anyone, anyone whatsoever, there is nobody that is outside of the reach of grace, that mercy is universal, God's love is incomprehensibly vast.
If having at one time believed, but now feel estranged from Christ, He is there at the door as we read in the Revelation. Notice that "See, I stand at the door and knock" is said to Christians. He stands and knocks, because He has never left. There is no such thing as falling too far, or being estranged for too long--there is always Christ, there, where He has always been.
He is right there in the Scriptures. He is right there in the Sacraments. He is there in the preaching of the Gospel. He is there. His word is consistent, He is faithful and He is true, and His word never falters.
Christ right from the beginning said, "Repent, for the kingdom of God is near, believe the good news!" Repent and believe. Very often this is treated like something that only applies to non-Christians as a target goal for proselytizing--but this is Christ's word to us that believe as well. The call on us to repentance is the call to a life of repentance, to carry our cross as disciples of Jesus in this world. The call to believe in the Gospel is the call to keep our eyes on Christ, who goes before us. It is this call of life that we read about in the Epistle to the Hebrews, who speaks of the many saints who have come before us who are as a great "cloud of witnesses", the cheering, encouraging crowds of saints and martyrs who have already fought the fight, who have ran the race before us. And they cheer for us, as we set our gaze upon the finish line, upon the goal, the prize set before us, Jesus Christ our Lord, who is the author and finisher of our faith. That is, He is our
archegos (translated often as "author" but meaning more like captain, chief prince, the leader) and the
teleiotes (translated as "finisher" or "perfecter", that is, that or the one that completes or makes perfect, that which makes full). Christ is our Captain, the team leader who has gone on ahead of us, the goal and the prize Himself, who commands and calls us to faith and makes that faith full and perfect with Himself as the goal. Christ our Captain and Goal.
However I also think I need to look at and learn from the reason(s) I fell away. I think some of it has been addressed here.....I had a shaky foundation being told I could have a relationship with God if I would say a prayer and get water baptised but without explaining what relationship really means when making a commitment to God. So I began with my own assumptions.
From the Lutheran perspective, placing the onus on the individual sinner to get things right with God is held as the chief theological error. We call it the
Opinio Legis in Latin, or "Opinion of the Law". This is the opinion, or the idea, that if we just try hard enough, if we just strive, or put in enough effort then we can, by our own abilities, make things right between us and God. It is called the Opinion of the Law because it is an idea based upon believing that by obedience to God's commands, by attaining a good legal standing (as it were) in relation to God's Law and commands, that we can therefore reach a place of harmony, peace, and justice in relation to God. That is, the Opinion of the Law boils down to me relating to God through the commandments and Law of God, and seeing my relationship with and toward God in the framework of my own obedience and my ability to be in some way just.
This Opinion of the Law is, as said, regarded as the chief theological error. By framing our relationship toward God as our own power and obedience to do, say, think, believe, or even feel all the right things. And then to regard God's relation toward us based upon our own performance, upon how well we get all our ducks in a row, or all our i's dotted properly, or t's crossed.
This will always shipwreck faith.
Through the Opinion of the Law we behold God wrongly, we behold God's face as though with a dark storm cloud veiled across, and He is hidden, and distant, and terrifyingly angry. This is why so many, when they operate from within this framework, see God as angry. They see God as an angry distant ruler who demands appeasement, and who will smite or strike down any who fail to meet the harsh demands of the Law.
Instead we argue that we must instead see God in faith, and to behold God in faith is to behold Jesus Christ who suffered death for our sakes. To behold God through the Gospel. To see God in Christ is to see the Fatherly, friendly heart of God as Christ has spoken about Him. For Christ says, "If you have seen Me, you have seen the Father" and "If you have known Me, you have known the Father". In Christ we encounter the One whom Christ calls "Father" and whom Christ extends to us the grace of adoption, that we also might call His Father our Father. And so He invites us to pray, "
Our Father who art in heaven"
This is the distinction between the false theologies of glory, and the true theology of the cross.
Theology of glory has man wishing to speak of the invisible things of God such as His power, glory, wisdom etc and looks to human efforts--believing that glory can reach glory, wisdom can reach wisdom, or some such. He says "If only I could be more wise" or "If only I could be more holy" then God, who is wise and holy might accept me.
But the theology of the cross speaks of the manifest, visible things of God, namely that He took on flesh, became humble, suffered the shameful death of the cross. God confounds the wise and the strong by choosing foolishness and weakness. It is not about attaining glory in this life, it is not about being the wisest, the strongest, or the "most spiritual"; it is about God Himself come down in Christ; Christ who though very God "did not consider equality with God something to be exploited, but instead emptied Himself, becoming a human slave" (Philippians 2:6-7).
I am not made right by my efforts; I am made right by God's loving kindness in Jesus Christ.
My relationship to and with God is not based upon my own power, my wisdom, my strength, my moral ability, by being "very spiritual", by being the "most moral" or any such thing. Rather my relationship to and with God is based upon His love for me and the whole world in Jesus Christ.
That is why when I speak of Word and Sacrament as the "place" where Christ is, where Christ speaks, etc, I am speaking of God-come-down. God in the weak, the humble, and the mundane. God is not distant waiting for us to go up to meet Him, He is down here with us through these humble, seemingly meager gifts of preaching, water, bread and wine. One does not look at the bread and wine of the Eucharist and think, "That is God in the flesh", that is an absurd notion. But it is precisely what it is, it is very Christ, His very flesh and His very blood. This is foolishness, it is weakness--and it is precisely in this weak, foolish, mundane, lowly things that God is active and present and giving us faith and sustaining us and making us holy.
When we receive the elements of the Eucharist we are literally eating God. I don't think we can get more personal than that. We are seated at Christ's Table, and Christ
literally gives Himself to us.
-CryptoLutheran