This is something that absolutely no one would ever expect from me, but vaping almost became a reality for me today. I've had strong cravings for cigarettes since I was six years old for some reason, and now I am 24 years old and the cravings are starting to feel uncontrollable. The cravings for alcohol have also been present in my life too, even though no one in my immediate family ever really drank alcohol.
In order to control these cravings, I pretend to smoke using writing pens or do the smoking motion with my fingers, and for the alcohol I just drink a lot of water when I feel the need to drink. I wish I could make the cravings go away, but they won't no matter what I do. If I ignore it, it gets worse. If I do the motions, it still gets worse. No matter what, I struggle with this pre-disposition to get into these substances and get addicted to them. That's why I have been avoiding alcohol and cigarettes like the plague for years. But every time I feel triggered to get into them, it only feels that much more difficult to resist it.
I almost went out to buy my first vape pen today, but I thank God that I told my sister about it beforehand because she begged me not to do it. I almost didn't care, but with what little strength that I had left, I took it to heart and fought the urges to smoke. What I did instead was walk and run with my dog, then I went to the grocery store to get myself some coffee and snacks that I would enjoy. I feel much better now as opposed to if I had begun smoking today. If I had started, I know I would have started the painful road to substance addiction as yet another way to avoid my stress and psychological wounds.
I think I need some serious help with this. Though I'm still waiting for a specialized trauma therapist to speak to, I think I might seek out my church's AA program for assistance, if they'll let me in for my strong urges.
Please pray for me, everyone. I know I'll need the Lord's help on this one. I cannot do this alone, and I know that. I have to put this in Christ's hands.
How the Lord is going to help on this one ?
This is what we have heard:
My eyes are ever toward the LORD, for He will pluck my feet out of the net. -Psalms 25:15
If you want your feet to pluck out of the net of addictions, you need to set always your eyes on the Lord.
Why David believe that he always sets his eyes that the Lord will deliver him out of Saul’s addiction to kill him ?
It is because of God’s promise that David trust. Do you trust the Lord’s help like David ?
Perhaps, you may wonder, how?
Listen to THIS:
ALL SCRIPTURE is BREATHED OUT BY GOD and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, -2 Timothy 3:16
that the man of God may be COMPLETE, EQUIPPED FOR EVERY GOOD WORK. -2 Timothy 3:17
So what David have heard, he wrote according to what the Holy Spirit inspires and the Holy Spirit inspires to help David, you and all of us who believe.
If you want to have a complete life, that is, filled with good work, it is not impossible! For God corrects those whom He loves. If you are seeking God’s help, you need to accept His correction of His love.
What the Lord have said to David, after David set his eyes on the Lord :
Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. -Psalms 25:16
It can be really lonely and afflicted when trapped in this net but there is hope !
Ask the Lord to turn to you ! How, you may say !
David have said THIS:
For when I KEPT SILENT, my bones WASTED AWAY THROUGH MY GROANING all day long. -Psalms 32:3
For day and night YOUR HAND WAS HEAVY UPON me; my strength was DRIED UP as by the heat of summer. Selah -Psalms 32:4
So David have told of his spiritual experience, that when he keep silent, that is, not praying to God or silent towards God; David felt his life wasted away and groaned ! Can you identify what David experience ?
Moreover, David identify the hand of God that was heavy upon him and not the hand of the enemies! When God is against him, David knew ! He explained that his strength was dried up ! Don’t you feel helpless like David and had no strength?
Have heard David speak THIS :
You who have made me SEE MANY TROUBLES AND CALAMITIES will
revive me again; from the depths of the earth you will bring me up again. -Psalms 71:20
You will
increase my greatness and comfort me again. -Psalms 71:21
After the Lord have made you see many troubles, failures, weaknesses and calamities! Can you say that the Lord will revive you again and increase your greatness and comfort you again ? Don’t be silent ! You know what David experiences when he is silent. Say it and trust the Lord will revive you again !
How you are going to be revived?
The answer is in the same chapter when David kept silent, realized his mistake and David have done this :
I acknowledged my sin to you, and I did not cover my iniquity; I said, "I will confess my transgressions to the LORD," and you forgave the iniquity of my sin. Selah -Psalms 32:5
Why confess sin ? How will this help you ?
you desire the Lord for help and save you out of this addiction! Listen to THIS:
Behold, the LORD's HAND is not shortened, that it cannot SAVE, or his ear dull, that it cannot hear; -Isaiah 59:1
but your iniquities have made a separation between you and your God, and your sins have hidden his face from you so that HE DOES NOT HEAR. -Isaiah 59:2
If you want the Lord to hear asking for help ! If you want the Lord’s hand to save you !
You better pray daily acknowledging your sins in true contrition! Don’t conceal any guilt daily ! Start confessing your offenses !
What will that do or help ?
By acknowledging your offenses, you have humbled yourself before God. When you are humbled, the Lord gives His grace of repentance or the Lord gives strength for you to repent wholeheartedly or to save you out of your addiction and get back right in His relationship with Him !
As it is written in that same chapter :
Therefore let everyone who is godly offer prayer to you at a time when YOU MAY BE FOUND; surely in the rush of great waters, they shall NOT REACH him. -Psalms 32:6
Daily repentance brings you closer to God. Why ? You acknowledge His grace or that you trust in His steadfast love to rescue you !
As we have heard the Lord have spoken :
"Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him; I will protect him, because he knows my name. -Psalms 91:14
If you do not pray that you repent wholeheartedly! It means that you don’t submit to God’s will. Those who resist God’s will, you know what has been said in the rush of great troubles waters will reach them !
Don’t let happen to you!
Set your eyes on the Lord’s paths, that is, grace and truth to those who keep His covenant and instructions.
Then ask the Lord to turn to you after you have prayer of repentance, He will show His favor and the Lord will bring you out of distress.
Remember the Lord consider your afflictions and sufferings and take all your sins away !!!
After you repent, call the Lord and tell Him THIS:
Consider how many are my foes, and with what violent hatred they hate me.
May integrity and uprightness preserve me, for I wait for you.
Redeem me, O God, out of all my troubles.
Amen (taken from Psalms 25:19-22)
You see, the Lord is working to save you out of the enemies’ net. How great is His righteousness to bring you out of distress ! How great is His steadfast love and compassion that He redeem you out of all your troubles !
I hope you come to the same conclusion as David and me, that is,
I sought the LORD, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. -Psalms 34:4
God do helps ! Give thanks to Him. For He is good. His grace continues forever.
Blessed be God. Every day He bears our burdens.God is our salvation. Amen