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I am looking for spiritual help and guidance and answers to my questions. My request is for mature men and women of God only who have a true connection with Jesus Christ by the power of the Holy Spirit. This is spiritual "meat" I say this because what I have to say may require God to speak through you to answer. That's my only reason for saying this.

Let's get started. I was baptized with the Holy Spirit when the heavens opened up and the Holy Spirit came down as a dove into me. I saw the Holy Spirit face to face.

I did not grow up in a religious home. I found Jesus on my own without church.

I was 16 at the time, I am now 27 years old. I have seen Jesus Christ probably about 9 times since the age of 16.

The problem I am having right now is this... I havent seen him or been with him in the last probably 3 years. Did I fall into a curse? No. Did I go my own way into a world of sin? No.

Ok so its been 3 years. Whats the problem? My problem is is I only know how to have a relationship with God if we're together. I dont know anything else.

I feel like me and God are in this long distant relationship like hes in another state. I call his phone, he dont pick up. I send him text messages he dont reply. I write him letters and he doesnt write back. I felt like this for years and years. And I disnt give up but right now I feel like I'm about to give up.

I wish I could just be a normal Christian who is content with just prayer and reading the bible and going to church. And is happy with just "feeling" his presence and thats it. I tried so hard to be like that.

But I cant its like its not me or for me to live like that with God. And I hate that so much because I just wanna be happy with God.

Another thing is, dont get me wrong I am not a satanist or some new age person. I know very well the dangers in all those things. I understand spiritual warfare very well. I even seen Satan face to face. The beast himself. In full natural form. As unnatural as that sounds...

But riddle me this, why is it so dang easy to see demons? I'm not kidding give me 24 hours and I'll have a story to tell.

But seeing angels? Super hard.
Seeing Jesus? Super hard.
Seeing devils? Easy.

Why is this? I mean if God is so available. Why is it so difficult? Its funny hearing this from someone who seen God 9 times huh?

This is where i am. Please help me because I'm at a place where if i dont truly have God in my life. It's either i have him or i dont have him. No middle spot is open for me. I want him supernaturally not in any other way. I dont wanna read my bible alone, I want to be with him as he teaches me the bible. I dont want to pray alone and never hear from him. I want to pray and God speak back. I want a relationship that is alive. Not where i am the only one that is communicating with him in everyday. But hes not doing anything with me.
 

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Ok so its been 3 years. Whats the problem? My problem is is I only know how to have a relationship with God if we're together. I dont know anything else.

I feel like me and God are in this long distant relationship like hes in another state. I call his phone, he dont pick up. I send him text messages he dont reply. I write him letters and he doesnt write back. I felt like this for years and years. And I disnt give up but right now I feel like I'm about to give up.

I wish I could just be a normal Christian who is content with just prayer and reading the bible and going to church. And is happy with just "feeling" his presence and thats it. I tried so hard to be like that.
It's called walking by faith, not by sight or feeling or visions or...
His Word says, "He will neither leave or forsake you". So take Him at His Word.
 
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It's called walking by faith, not by sight or feeling or visions or...
His Word says, "He will neither leave or forsake you". So take Him at His Word.
This.

I'd also tell you that God is testing you. What happened to Jesus after His baptism? The Bible says that the Holy Spirit led Him in to the wilderness to be tested by the devil. Stay strong. You're in spiritual warfare.

Tales of Mel: 5 Reasons For Testings
 
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The Bible says that the Holy Spirit led Him in to the wilderness to be tested by the devil.
Paul spent time in the desert, too, after his encounter with Jesus.
 
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I want to pray and God speak back. I want a relationship that is alive. Not where i am the only one that is communicating with him in everyday. But hes not doing anything with me.

It's almost impossible to answer a question like this and all the other things you've said in your post for the reason none of us are with you 24/7 to see really to what measure you do pray and seek God, worship him and or how much WORD (that is word of God) you feed your spirit on a daily basis. What you're doing is making a claim that you're clear from anything you should have done I mean you've done all things right.....but have you.....none of us can know that and sorry but we can't just take your word that such is the case.
 
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I am looking for spiritual help and guidance and answers to my questions. My request is for mature men and women of God only who have a true connection with Jesus Christ by the power of the Holy Spirit. This is spiritual "meat" I say this because what I have to say may require God to speak through you to answer. That's my only reason for saying this.

Let's get started. I was baptized with the Holy Spirit when the heavens opened up and the Holy Spirit came down as a dove into me. I saw the Holy Spirit face to face.

I did not grow up in a religious home. I found Jesus on my own without church.

I was 16 at the time, I am now 27 years old. I have seen Jesus Christ probably about 9 times since the age of 16.

The problem I am having right now is this... I havent seen him or been with him in the last probably 3 years. Did I fall into a curse? No. Did I go my own way into a world of sin? No.

Ok so its been 3 years. Whats the problem? My problem is is I only know how to have a relationship with God if we're together. I dont know anything else.
Think of a baseline that is "normal." Then think of things that are nice to have, but above and beyond that baseline. The visions you are reporting are above and beyond that baseline. Therefore, if you're at the baseline, that is not indicative of a problem. You realize that you didn't fall into a curse, and you didn't rebel into sin to lose favor with God - so believe that he is there, and that he still is whom the Bible reports him to be, even in relative silence. If God is who the Bible says he is, then not having a vision of him in a long time doesn't matter. You just follow him, no matter what. If we relate a walk with God like riding a bike, new Christians will get "training wheels," so to speak. They'll get feelings to bolster their faith. When the feelings don't happen so much anymore, it's time for them to ride the bike on their own, to walk in true faith.

I feel like me and God are in this long distant relationship like hes in another state. I call his phone, he dont pick up. I send him text messages he dont reply. I write him letters and he doesnt write back. I felt like this for years and years. And I disnt give up but right now I feel like I'm about to give up.
If you've seen 9 visions of Christ the Son, and one vision of the Holy Spirit, why should you doubt at all?

But riddle me this, why is it so dang easy to see demons? I'm not kidding give me 24 hours and I'll have a story to tell.

But seeing angels? Super hard.
Seeing Jesus? Super hard.
Seeing devils? Easy.

Why is this? I mean if God is so available. Why is it so difficult? Its funny hearing this from someone who seen God 9 times huh?
I haven't seen a demon myself, nor have I seen an angel. Since demons are fallen angels according to the Bible, they probably look alike. Different classes of angels probably have demon equivalents.

Just so that we can get this out of the way, are you taking any recreational drugs, or are you on any prescription medication? Prescription medication, when properly used, is not bad of course, but some such drugs can produce hallucinogenic side effects.

This is where i am. Please help me because I'm at a place where if i dont truly have God in my life. It's either i have him or i dont have him. No middle spot is open for me. I want him supernaturally not in any other way. I dont wanna read my bible alone, I want to be with him as he teaches me the bible. I dont want to pray alone and never hear from him. I want to pray and God speak back. I want a relationship that is alive. Not where i am the only one that is communicating with him in everyday. But hes not doing anything with me.
God will often surprise people simply as they are going through life. He didn't audibly tell Paul that he would meet Priscilla and Aquila at Corinth, but it was a divine appointment that God made, and it bore much fruit for the church. Audibly speaking to someone is not the only way God operates, even to Christians that receive visions.
 
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I am looking for spiritual help and guidance and answers to my questions. My request is for mature men and women of God only who have a true connection with Jesus Christ by the power of the Holy Spirit. This is spiritual "meat" I say this because what I have to say may require God to speak through you to answer. That's my only reason for saying this.

Let's get started. I was baptized with the Holy Spirit when the heavens opened up and the Holy Spirit came down as a dove into me. I saw the Holy Spirit face to face.

I did not grow up in a religious home. I found Jesus on my own without church.

I was 16 at the time, I am now 27 years old. I have seen Jesus Christ probably about 9 times since the age of 16.

The problem I am having right now is this... I havent seen him or been with him in the last probably 3 years. Did I fall into a curse? No. Did I go my own way into a world of sin? No.

Ok so its been 3 years. Whats the problem? My problem is is I only know how to have a relationship with God if we're together. I dont know anything else.

I feel like me and God are in this long distant relationship like hes in another state. I call his phone, he dont pick up. I send him text messages he dont reply. I write him letters and he doesnt write back. I felt like this for years and years. And I disnt give up but right now I feel like I'm about to give up.

I wish I could just be a normal Christian who is content with just prayer and reading the bible and going to church. And is happy with just "feeling" his presence and thats it. I tried so hard to be like that.

But I cant its like its not me or for me to live like that with God. And I hate that so much because I just wanna be happy with God.

Another thing is, dont get me wrong I am not a satanist or some new age person. I know very well the dangers in all those things. I understand spiritual warfare very well. I even seen Satan face to face. The beast himself. In full natural form. As unnatural as that sounds...

But riddle me this, why is it so dang easy to see demons? I'm not kidding give me 24 hours and I'll have a story to tell.

But seeing angels? Super hard.
Seeing Jesus? Super hard.
Seeing devils? Easy.

Why is this? I mean if God is so available. Why is it so difficult? Its funny hearing this from someone who seen God 9 times huh?

This is where i am. Please help me because I'm at a place where if i dont truly have God in my life. It's either i have him or i dont have him. No middle spot is open for me. I want him supernaturally not in any other way. I dont wanna read my bible alone, I want to be with him as he teaches me the bible. I dont want to pray alone and never hear from him. I want to pray and God speak back. I want a relationship that is alive. Not where i am the only one that is communicating with him in everyday. But hes not doing anything with me.
No offense meant or intended at all friend, but maybe what you were experiencing/feeling, etc, before, etc, was the "milk", etc...?

You say you only want Him in a "supernatural way" or not at all, or in any other way, basically, etc, (and I'm paraphrasing a bit, if only to get you to think about it a bit, etc)...

What if all those kinds of things are the "milk" and are for babes at the start, etc, to only initiate the relationship, etc, to get you to a point of believing, etc...?

Next comes "the walk", etc, and there may not be as much supernatural going on and/or happening, etc, not as over-boardly, or as blatantly obvious maybe anyway, but there may not be as much going on or happening, and this is only to strengthen your faith, etc, for faith that is not forged or made strong or that is not tested in or by the fire, is not really faith at all, etc...?

I mean how is it really faith at all even, if it's all based on only supernatural happenings and lot's and lot's of proofs, and feelings that you get from it/them, and circumstances, etc...?

Now I'm not saying your not having any faith at all, just that maybe your just moving past the beginnings of it, etc, and into things that are more meant for mature people, who's faith has been tested by the fire, and/or then, but remained true after and through it all, etc...?

And I'm concerned about the whole "demons" thing, but maybe that is something your supposed to face or confront without all those other things right now as well, etc...?

And maybe even those things, those evil things can be stepping stones or building blocks or footstools for you, etc...

I'm also very concerned that you say you don't hear His voice, etc...? If anything, through all of this, that is the one thing that should have remained with you after, etc, for how can you truly do spiritual warfare without it/Him, etc, or hearing His voice, etc...?

So, I'm going to try and help you out, to hear from Him more and better, K...?

Try getting somewhere in the quiet or still, or peaceful, tranquil, etc, a place that really relaxes you and makes you feel very very comfortable and at complete peace to start, OK...? (and don't fall asleep, lol)...

Anyway, this can be whatever does this for you, etc, personally I find nature hikes or walks all by myself to be very helpful to give this kind of feeling/ambiance and effect, etc, but it can be just whatever does this for you, etc...

Then as you are in this kind of quote/unquote "place", etc, start asking yourself questions, just in your mind and heart and thoughts, etc, doesn't have to be aloud, etc, maybe about some things around you, etc, whatever your curious about in a place or state like this, in whatever kind(s) of place(s) gives you this, etc, just to start, etc...

I heard a counselor that I know describe the unique race of humans, etc, and she talked about the duality in all of us that sometimes throws her off, or confuses her, etc, and she said "When your asking yourself a question, who are you talking to, etc...?" "Who responds back to you, etc...?" She then explained that her kind of race does not have this "duality", etc, but that you/us humans do, etc, and she then asked "who are we/me/you asking, etc, or who we're you/me/we talking to, and who responds back to you, etc...?"

And I want you to strongly consider this very stongly, etc, cause it is actually the Spirit within us who responds, we're just not used to, or used to thinking of it/Him that way, etc, and therefore oftentimes just can't hear from Him, etc, and it is something that you have to get to somewhere where you can "practice" free from all other "noise" or confusion or distractions at first, etc, before you can then begin to do it when there are other things going on around you later on, etc, but that Spirit that is within you, that loves, absolutely loves all the very curious questions about things going on around you/me/we, etc, that humans ask, etc... for me it was nature at first, etc, but it can be other things, etc, and later on will extend to other things, etc, but that's later, etc, anyway, go around like an undistracted, unhindered "thinker", in your mind, etc, like some of the old ancient philosophers used to do, and just start asking yourself, or very much more appropriately, "the Spirit within you", etc, "curious questions", etc, at first, etc, like I said, it will move into other areas later, but for now, just do or try out what I'm saying for now, etc, K...

And doing this like a child will help as well at first, etc, as well, etc, be or get somewhere where you can be completely "clear", etc, totally comfortable and relaxed at first, etc, then just go around "observing" and talking (in your mind) (realizing who's on the other side of it, etc) and talking about your observations or asking questions like a child, etc, and then just see if you start getting some kind of "response" and/or "responses", etc, OK...?

These do not have to be "too deep" either, especially at first, etc, some of my questions were about the animals at first, etc, the birds, the squirrels, etc, even that ants on the ground at my feet, etc, the trees, the wind, the rivers and the earth, and curious questions about God's creation, etc, then later on it became simple observations or questions about people, etc, but that was a little bit later on, etc...

Anyway, after you have done this some, then, report back to me in this thread, or you can PM me privately, and you can tell me how it's going so far, etc, OK...?

Oh, and those "demons" and evil spirits and evil ones, etc, operate most strongly in all other circumstances that "are not this", etc, so hopefully, if you get into a "place/space like this", etc, they will not be so much as much present at the time, and this will also be able to help you to hear God and His voice more clearly also, etc... It will sound very much like you, etc, but will not be completely you, etc, but the other side, or another side of you, but it will not be you, etc...

After you have done this a few times or for a little while, it will then start to extend beyond questions, etc, and you also be able to begin to hear Him, and get His direction and counsel even in all the busyness and the noise, and confusion and distraction, etc, but that is "not yet", etc, so don't get ahead of yourself, etc, practice this a bit first, then let me know, OK...?

Hope this helps some...

Report back to me somehow after you have done this or practiced this a few times, OK...?

God Bless!
 
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This is spiritual "meat"

What's "spiritual meat" - the experiences you've had, or the guidance you're looking for?

You sound like you're trying to demand the relationship you want, and cannot be satisfied with what He may want for you.

As for "spiritual" and "meat" - read Heb5 and pay attention to the the end of the chapter and into the beginning of Heb6. Note how this instructs on what maturity is and the meat of His Word of Righteousness vs. the milk for infancy.

Read the first few verses of Galatians 6 and note how Paul mentions what "spiritual" Christians are capable of doing. In these verses, Paul uses the word "spiritual" to speak of the same ones Hebrews 5 speaks of as mature. Both of these words are speaking of the same thing: Christians who have become learned and skilled in the Word of God and understand righteousness vs. sin.

From what I'm reading, it may well be time for you to ask Him to help you do and become what He wants of you and this may be for you to become more learned in His Word.

I get your situation. Yours has not been mine, but I've gone through periods of growth that were painful & seeming like I could not get where He was taking me. But here I am and my reliance on Him has never failed me. It's called Faith.
 
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I don't think the quote/unquote "wilderness" is something to fear, etc, and while yes, some say there can be some "testing" involved in it some, etc, I also think it was where people had to go to also get trained in hearing from God and getting very close to God and very, very accustomed and use to hearing His voice, etc, to where it became known, or familiar enough, or so very familiar, to where they could go back into all the noise and busyness, or distraction and noise and confusion of the big bad world, but with it/Him after that, etc, and not lose it or lose sight of that ever, or ever lose sight of hearing His voice ever again after that again after that, etc...

I don't think any of them could have put down any would be temptations in the wilderness without God and God's voice also being there with them, or be able to ever be doing that without that or Him, etc...?

Do you, etc...?

God Bless!
 
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I am looking for spiritual help and guidance and answers to my questions. My request is for mature men and women of God only who have a true connection with Jesus Christ by the power of the Holy Spirit. This is spiritual "meat" I say this because what I have to say may require God to speak through you to answer. That's my only reason for saying this.

Let's get started. I was baptized with the Holy Spirit when the heavens opened up and the Holy Spirit came down as a dove into me. I saw the Holy Spirit face to face.

I did not grow up in a religious home. I found Jesus on my own without church.

I was 16 at the time, I am now 27 years old. I have seen Jesus Christ probably about 9 times since the age of 16.

The problem I am having right now is this... I havent seen him or been with him in the last probably 3 years. Did I fall into a curse? No. Did I go my own way into a world of sin? No.

Ok so its been 3 years. Whats the problem? My problem is is I only know how to have a relationship with God if we're together. I dont know anything else.

I feel like me and God are in this long distant relationship like hes in another state. I call his phone, he dont pick up. I send him text messages he dont reply. I write him letters and he doesnt write back. I felt like this for years and years. And I disnt give up but right now I feel like I'm about to give up.

I wish I could just be a normal Christian who is content with just prayer and reading the bible and going to church. And is happy with just "feeling" his presence and thats it. I tried so hard to be like that.

But I cant its like its not me or for me to live like that with God. And I hate that so much because I just wanna be happy with God.

Another thing is, dont get me wrong I am not a satanist or some new age person. I know very well the dangers in all those things. I understand spiritual warfare very well. I even seen Satan face to face. The beast himself. In full natural form. As unnatural as that sounds...

But riddle me this, why is it so dang easy to see demons? I'm not kidding give me 24 hours and I'll have a story to tell.

But seeing angels? Super hard.
Seeing Jesus? Super hard.
Seeing devils? Easy.

Why is this? I mean if God is so available. Why is it so difficult? Its funny hearing this from someone who seen God 9 times huh?

This is where i am. Please help me because I'm at a place where if i dont truly have God in my life. It's either i have him or i dont have him. No middle spot is open for me. I want him supernaturally not in any other way. I dont wanna read my bible alone, I want to be with him as he teaches me the bible. I dont want to pray alone and never hear from him. I want to pray and God speak back. I want a relationship that is alive. Not where i am the only one that is communicating with him in everyday. But hes not doing anything with me.
what you are experiencing was also experienced by others, such as Mother Teresa. Mother Teresas Long Dark Night
I hope this can be of some help. 3 Tips to help you get through spiritual desolation
 
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Think of a baseline that is "normal." Then think of things that are nice to have, but above and beyond that baseline. The visions you are reporting are above and beyond that baseline. Therefore, if you're at the baseline, that is not indicative of a problem. You realize that you didn't fall into a curse, and you didn't rebel into sin to lose favor with God - so believe that he is there, and that he still is whom the Bible reports him to be, even in relative silence. If God is who the Bible says he is, then not having a vision of him in a long time doesn't matter. You just follow him, no matter what. If we relate a walk with God like riding a bike, new Christians will get "training wheels," so to speak. They'll get feelings to bolster their faith. When the feelings don't happen so much anymore, it's time for them to ride the bike on their own, to walk in true faith.


If you've seen 9 visions of Christ the Son, and one vision of the Holy Spirit, why should you doubt at all?

I don't struggle with Gods existence its the relationship that I struggle with.

I haven't seen a demon myself, nor have I seen an angel. Since demons are fallen angels according to the Bible, they probably look alike. Different classes of angels probably have demon equivalents.

Just so that we can get this out of the way, are you taking any recreational drugs, or are you on any prescription medication? Prescription medication, when properly used, is not bad of course, but some such drugs can produce hallucinogenic side effects.

No I do not take drugs of any kind. I neither smoke nor have I ever in my entire life smoked anything.

God will often surprise people simply as they are going through life. He didn't audibly tell Paul that he would meet Priscilla and Aquila at Corinth, but it was a divine appointment that God made, and it bore much fruit for the church. Audibly speaking to someone is not the only way God operates, even to Christians that receive visions.
Think of a baseline that is "normal." Then think of things that are nice to have, but above and beyond that baseline. The visions you are reporting are above and beyond that baseline. Therefore, if you're at the baseline, that is not indicative of a problem. You realize that you didn't fall into a curse, and you didn't rebel into sin to lose favor with God - so believe that he is there, and that he still is whom the Bible reports him to be, even in relative silence. If God is who the Bible says he is, then not having a vision of him in a long time doesn't matter. You just follow him, no matter what. If we relate a walk with God like riding a bike, new Christians will get "training wheels," so to speak. They'll get feelings to bolster their faith. When the feelings don't happen so much anymore, it's time for them to ride the bike on their own, to walk in true faith.


If you've seen 9 visions of Christ the Son, and one vision of the Holy Spirit, why should you doubt at all?


I haven't seen a demon myself, nor have I seen an angel. Since demons are fallen angels according to the Bible, they probably look alike. Different classes of angels probably have demon equivalents.

Just so that we can get this out of the way, are you taking any recreational drugs, or are you on any prescription medication? Prescription medication, when properly used, is not bad of course, but some such drugs can produce hallucinogenic side effects.


God will often surprise people simply as they are going through life. He didn't audibly tell Paul that he would meet Priscilla and Aquila at Corinth, but it was a divine appointment that God made, and it bore much fruit for the church. Audibly speaking to someone is not the only way God operates, even to Christians that receive visions.
 
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It's almost impossible to answer a question like this and all the other things you've said in your post for the reason none of us are with you 24/7 to see really to what measure you do pray and seek God, worship him and or how much WORD (that is word of God) you feed your spirit on a daily basis. What you're doing is making a claim that you're clear from anything you should have done I mean you've done all things right.....but have you.....none of us can know that and sorry but we can't just take your word that such is the case.
ianything.

If you saw how much I pray, worship, study the word and fast without food and water for weeks.

Would it still be impossible to answer my questions? If the answer is yes. Then why would it matter so much to know how much i really seek God? Its a contradiction
 
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What's "spiritual meat" - the experiences you've had, or the guidance you're looking for?

You sound like you're trying to demand the relationship you want, and cannot be satisfied with what He may want for you.

As for "spiritual" and "meat" - read Heb5 and pay attention to the the end of the chapter and into the beginning of Heb6. Note how this instructs on what maturity is and the meat of His Word of Righteousness vs. the milk for infancy.

Read the first few verses of Galatians 6 and note how Paul mentions what "spiritual" Christians are capable of doing. In these verses, Paul uses the word "spiritual" to speak of the same ones Hebrews 5 speaks of as mature. Both of these words are speaking of the same thing: Christians who have become learned and skilled in the Word of God and understand righteousness vs. sin.

From what I'm reading, it may well be time for you to ask Him to help you do and become what He wants of you and this may be for you to become more learned in His Word.

I get your situation. Yours has not been mine, but I've gone through periods of growth that were painful & seeming like I could not get where He was taking me. But here I am and my reliance on Him has never failed me. It's called Faith.

Yes its true this could be milk for me. But I dont believe I'm in a milk stage, I mean someone just asked me if I was on druvs. I never don
It's almost impossible to answer a question like this and all the other things you've said in your post for the reason none of us are with you 24/7 to see really to what measure you do pray and seek God, worship him and or how much WORD (that is word of God) you feed your spirit on a daily basis. What you're doing is making a claim that you're clear from anything you should have done I mean you've done all things right.....but have you.....none of us can know that and sorry but we can't just take your word that such is the case.

This is kinda contradiction because even if you did know how much I seeked God, prayer time, bible time, worship time, fasting without food and water for weeks.

Would you still be able to answer any of these questions? If the answer is no then why does it matter to know those things?
 
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Tell us about your past...

Are you isolated from fellowship with mature believers?

If Jesus has met you as you claim, you are in for a rough ride and should not be surprised at the ordeal. I would expect your love for Jesus to be deep.

What did Jesus say during the face to face encounters?

While journeying through such times, a scripture that became significant was - Heaven and Earth will pass away but My Word will not pass away.

Losing everything should never shake the knowledge of Jesus Love in your spirit.

There is an old saying "it takes a steady hand to carry a full cup"

Think decades of preperation rather than years.
 
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No offense meant or intended at all friend, but maybe what you were experiencing/feeling, etc, before, etc, was the "milk", etc...?

You say you only want Him in a "supernatural way" or not at all, or in any other way, basically, etc, (and I'm paraphrasing a bit, if only to get you to think about it a bit, etc)...

What if all those kinds of things are the "milk" and are for babes at the start, etc, to only initiate the relationship, etc, to get you to a point of believing, etc...?

Next comes "the walk", etc, and there may not be as much supernatural going on and/or happening, etc, not as over-boardly, or as blatantly obvious maybe anyway, but there may not be as much going on or happening, and this is only to strengthen your faith, etc, for faith that is not forged or made strong or that is not tested in or by the fire, is not really faith at all, etc...?

I mean how is it really faith at all even, if it's all based on only supernatural happenings and lot's and lot's of proofs, and feelings that you get from it/them, and circumstances, etc...?

Now I'm not saying your not having any faith at all, just that maybe your just moving past the beginnings of it, etc, and into things that are more meant for mature people, who's faith has been tested by the fire, and/or then, but remained true after and through it all, etc...?

And I'm concerned about the whole "demons" thing, but maybe that is something your supposed to face or confront without all those other things right now as well, etc...?

And maybe even those things, those evil things can be stepping stones or building blocks or footstools for you, etc...

I'm also very concerned that you say you don't hear His voice, etc...? If anything, through all of this, that is the one thing that should have remained with you after, etc, for how can you truly do spiritual warfare without it/Him, etc, or hearing His voice, etc...?

So, I'm going to try and help you out, to hear from Him more and better, K...?

Try getting somewhere in the quiet or still, or peaceful, tranquil, etc, a place that really relaxes you and makes you feel very very comfortable and at complete peace to start, OK...? (and don't fall asleep, lol)...

Anyway, this can be whatever does this for you, etc, personally I find nature hikes or walks all by myself to be very helpful to give this kind of feeling/ambiance and effect, etc, but it can be just whatever does this for you, etc...

Then as you are in this kind of quote/unquote "place", etc, start asking yourself questions, just in your mind and heart and thoughts, etc, doesn't have to be aloud, etc, maybe about some things around you, etc, whatever your curious about in a place or state like this, in whatever kind(s) of place(s) gives you this, etc, just to start, etc...

I heard a counselor that I know describe the unique race of humans, etc, and she talked about the duality in all of us that sometimes throws her off, or confuses her, etc, and she said "When your asking yourself a question, who are you talking to, etc...?" "Who responds back to you, etc...?" She then explained that her kind of race does not have this "duality", etc, but that you/us humans do, etc, and she then asked "who are we/me/you asking, etc, or who we're you/me/we talking to, and who responds back to you, etc...?"

And I want you to strongly consider this very stongly, etc, cause it is actually the Spirit within us who responds, we're just not used to, or used to thinking of it/Him that way, etc, and therefore oftentimes just can't hear from Him, etc, and it is something that you have to get to somewhere where you can "practice" free from all other "noise" or confusion or distractions at first, etc, before you can then begin to do it when there are other things going on around you later on, etc, but that Spirit that is within you, that loves, absolutely loves all the very curious questions about things going on around you/me/we, etc, that humans ask, etc... for me it was nature at first, etc, but it can be other things, etc, and later on will extend to other things, etc, but that's later, etc, anyway, go around like an undistracted, unhindered "thinker", in your mind, etc, like some of the old ancient philosophers used to do, and just start asking yourself, or very much more appropriately, "the Spirit within you", etc, "curious questions", etc, at first, etc, like I said, it will move into other areas later, but for now, just do or try out what I'm saying for now, etc, K...

And doing this like a child will help as well at first, etc, as well, etc, be or get somewhere where you can be completely "clear", etc, totally comfortable and relaxed at first, etc, then just go around "observing" and talking (in your mind) (realizing who's on the other side of it, etc) and talking about your observations or asking questions like a child, etc, and then just see if you start getting some kind of "response" and/or "responses", etc, OK...?

These do not have to be "too deep" either, especially at first, etc, some of my questions were about the animals at first, etc, the birds, the squirrels, etc, even that ants on the ground at my feet, etc, the trees, the wind, the rivers and the earth, and curious questions about God's creation, etc, then later on it became simple observations or questions about people, etc, but that was a little bit later on, etc...

Anyway, after you have done this some, then, report back to me in this thread, or you can PM me privately, and you can tell me how it's going so far, etc, OK...?

Oh, and those "demons" and evil spirits and evil ones, etc, operate most strongly in all other circumstances that "are not this", etc, so hopefully, if you get into a "place/space like this", etc, they will not be so much as much present at the time, and this will also be able to help you to hear God and His voice more clearly also, etc... It will sound very much like you, etc, but will not be completely you, etc, but the other side, or another side of you, but it will not be you, etc...

After you have done this a few times or for a little while, it will then start to extend beyond questions, etc, and you also be able to begin to hear Him, and get His direction and counsel even in all the busyness and the noise, and confusion and distraction, etc, but that is "not yet", etc, so don't get ahead of yourself, etc, practice this a bit first, then let me know, OK...?

Hope this helps some...

Report back to me somehow after you have done this or practiced this a few times, OK...?

God Bless!


Thank you for taking the time to write to me, your post was a blessing. I tried to PM you, but I couldn't figure out how to do that. I would like to connect with you on a social platform, please let me know if you are willing to connect with me.

Yes! I struggle with my faith a lot, not in a sense of "Is God even real" because, I know God is real, Ive met him. My struggle is relationship based. Like i said in my original post I feel like I'm in a long distance relationship. I call him, no pick up. I leave voice mails, no call backs. I text him no replies. I send him letters, nothing back.

I'm just sitting here like, what is going on? Also keep in mind 3 years is a long time. To remain strong all this time and just now feel weak like i just wanna give up, and instead of giving up seeking help.

In response to demons, I don't go around looking for demons. All im saying is that it blows my mind how easy it is, to find darkness. VS Finding light, i.e Angels, God, Jesus, heaven ect..

There are countless scriptures about how readily available God is for us. Yet, when we seek him, hes not there. Yes it's easier to find darkness then it is to find God sad but true. and very contradiction to Gods word I know but thats the reality here. My reality has been the other way around. I wish it was the other way around.

In response to hearing Gods voice. I don't like to hear God in my thoughts, I used to practice this, but ive always been wrong about what I heard. I practiced this for years.

It's failed me so much, it has done more damage then good. To the point of no return. This is why I don't hear God, or why i say i dont hear God.

The only way im ever gonna trust something i hear, is if He shows up in a visitation whether it be in a vision or in person physically in my room. Because anytime hes ever talked to me like that I knew it was him speaking without doubt.

Think of it like this, your with your best friend at home, and hes talking to you about church on sunday. You dont have to doubt hes talking to you about church and you dont have to doubt the story. If we humans can communicate so well with each other, how much more should communication with God be more clear?
 
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Tell us about your past...

Are you isolated from fellowship with mature believers?

If Jesus has met you as you claim, you are in for a rough ride and should not be surprised at the ordeal. I would expect your love for Jesus to be deep.

What did Jesus say during the face to face encounters?

While journeying through such times, a scripture that became significant was - Heaven and Earth will pass away but My Word will not pass away.

Losing everything should never shake the knowledge of Jesus Love in your spirit.

There is an old saying "it takes a steady hand to carry a full cup"

Think decades of preperation rather than years.


I don't have friends in the faith, I don't attend church services. I look for friends in the faith a lot, and I pray to find those friends soon. I don't attend church because ive been hurt by church. I know not all churches are the same, but its the same belief that not all churches are the same that allowed me to give many churches a chance, and they still hurt me horribly.

I love Jesus Christ, that's why it pains me so much to be going through this. I don't care if i dont see heaven. If it could just be me and Jesus on a plain field, with a single tree forever. That would be enough, Jesus is my heaven.

It would take me a very long time to explain in detail the encounters ive had in detail.

I am going through a lot in my life, and I need him severely. I just want clarity in my life, direction guidance. Please believe me when i say ive prayed and fasted.
 
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I'm just sitting here like, what is going on? Also keep in mind 3 years is a long time. To remain strong all this time and just now feel weak like i just wanna give up, and instead of giving up seeking help.

Three years is not a long time if you are being prepared for a significant calling.

Seriously... try 40 years - that has been my preparation period.

The knowing of God in your Spirit is communication in itself - build on this rather than chasing the 'supernatural'

I feel like writing that three times in bold...
 
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I know not all churches are the same, but its the same belief that not all churches are the same that allowed me to give many churches a chance, and they still hurt me horribly.

Yes - He required me to stay in a church for 7 years that had little understanding of my walk. It hurts but He heals.

He is looking for believers with grit and it dont come easy.
 
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