[MOVED] Severe depression / relationship let-down

my heart is breaking for you....firstly, at 26 you still have so much ahead of you.....26 is far from too late for marriage and kids

I sorry for the feeling of abandonment by them.....I am praying for you with all my heart

Thank you so much for your honest about how you are feeling


I don't know what to say except that you are so loved and know that God can use your life for his purposes


if you give him a Chance God can use all this pain and guide you by the hand towards a good and spacious path where all this is behind you

Psalm 103
He forgives all my sins
and heals all my diseases.
4 He keeps me from the grave
and blesses me with love and mercy.
5 He fills my life with good things,
so that I stay young and strong like an eagle.

6 The Lord judges in favor of the oppressed
and gives them their rights.

evita said:

Hi, all

I'm battling severe, life-threatening depression. I am on medication, but it's mainly because I'm laden with worry, guilt, fear, and angst that nothing seems to be helping. I'm praying a lot. I'm mentally ill and in no position to seek proper professional help.

I got romantically involved with a man earlier this year. Months down the line it's cost me all my money, several key relationships in my life, and now I'm still in love with him although he's likely moving on. I can't tell you how much it hurts... I made mistakes, he made mistakes. I'm in that awful "I can't live without him" mindset. I feel abandoned by my family and I'm terribly afraid of the future. I'm almost 26 years old and never married, no kids, my adoptive parents have passed on (only my biological dad is still alive, but due to mental troubles of his own and the new life he started after my mother's death, he can't be counted on), I have only two younger stepsisters who want nothing to do with me...

I feel all alone and worthless and like I can't go on anymore. Please pray for me... When it's so dark on the inside, one feels so far away from God... I don't know what or how to pray anymore. I'm hurt and lonely and I fit in nowhere... I say and do senseless things and it feels like I'm only a burden... Please pray for me for healing, help... Anything.

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evita said:

Hi, all

I'm battling severe, life-threatening depression. I am on medication, but it's mainly because I'm laden with worry, guilt, fear, and angst that nothing seems to be helping. I'm praying a lot. I'm mentally ill and in no position to seek proper professional help.

I got romantically involved with a man earlier this year. Months down the line it's cost me all my money, several key relationships in my life, and now I'm still in love with him although he's likely moving on. I can't tell you how much it hurts... I made mistakes, he made mistakes. I'm in that awful "I can't live without him" mindset. I feel abandoned by my family and I'm terribly afraid of the future. I'm almost 26 years old and never married, no kids, my adoptive parents have passed on (only my biological dad is still alive, but due to mental troubles of his own and the new life he started after my mother's death, he can't be counted on), I have only two younger stepsisters who want nothing to do with me...

I feel all alone and worthless and like I can't go on anymore. Please pray for me... When it's so dark on the inside, one feels so far away from God... I don't know what or how to pray anymore. I'm hurt and lonely and I fit in nowhere... I say and do senseless things and it feels like I'm only a burden... Please pray for me for healing, help... Anything.

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God really loves you and He will never leave you nor forsake you. You just need to know how much Jesus loves you.

evita said:

Hi, all

I'm battling severe, life-threatening depression. I am on medication, but it's mainly because I'm laden with worry, guilt, fear, and angst that nothing seems to be helping. I'm praying a lot. I'm mentally ill and in no position to seek proper professional help.

I got romantically involved with a man earlier this year. Months down the line it's cost me all my money, several key relationships in my life, and now I'm still in love with him although he's likely moving on. I can't tell you how much it hurts... I made mistakes, he made mistakes. I'm in that awful "I can't live without him" mindset. I feel abandoned by my family and I'm terribly afraid of the future. I'm almost 26 years old and never married, no kids, my adoptive parents have passed on (only my biological dad is still alive, but due to mental troubles of his own and the new life he started after my mother's death, he can't be counted on), I have only two younger stepsisters who want nothing to do with me...

I feel all alone and worthless and like I can't go on anymore. Please pray for me... When it's so dark on the inside, one feels so far away from God... I don't know what or how to pray anymore. I'm hurt and lonely and I fit in nowhere... I say and do senseless things and it feels like I'm only a burden... Please pray for me for healing, help... Anything.

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Sorry to hear of your pain. I know it hurts but have you considered that God removed this man from your life to make room for His will in your life, including your future husband? Thus, while your flesh is telling you to stay depressed, the Spirit seeks to give you joy and peace without the dependence on anyone but God. To help you overcome those harmful emotions, ask God for forgiveness for all the worry, guilt and any other feelings that try to make you less than the precious child of God that you are. God is going to give you a family. How do I know? Because this agrees with
Psalm 68:6 God sets the lonely in families, he leads out the prisoners with singing; but the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land.

I am reminded of this country song from the USA from Garth Brooks that may one day speak to you. Unanswered Prayers Lyrics
God bless

evita said:

Hi, all

I'm battling severe, life-threatening depression. I am on medication, but it's mainly because I'm laden with worry, guilt, fear, and angst that nothing seems to be helping. I'm praying a lot. I'm mentally ill and in no position to seek proper professional help.

I got romantically involved with a man earlier this year. Months down the line it's cost me all my money, several key relationships in my life, and now I'm still in love with him although he's likely moving on. I can't tell you how much it hurts... I made mistakes, he made mistakes. I'm in that awful "I can't live without him" mindset. I feel abandoned by my family and I'm terribly afraid of the future. I'm almost 26 years old and never married, no kids, my adoptive parents have passed on (only my biological dad is still alive, but due to mental troubles of his own and the new life he started after my mother's death, he can't be counted on), I have only two younger stepsisters who want nothing to do with me...

I feel all alone and worthless and like I can't go on anymore. Please pray for me... When it's so dark on the inside, one feels so far away from God... I don't know what or how to pray anymore. I'm hurt and lonely and I fit in nowhere... I say and do senseless things and it feels like I'm only a burden... Please pray for me for healing, help... Anything.

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Remember, God is in control of our destiny. Never forget he is there for you and this must be in his plan for you. On down the road everything will work out for your best as he has his best for you eventually. We get hurt in this life but the Lord is there with us. We never know for sure what he has in mind but it ends up to be for our good.
God bless and prayers for you.

I suggest that it is critical you find loving fellowship and be ministered to by His love through the Body of Christ.

Can you make moves in this direction ?

evita said:

I'm laden with worry, guilt, fear, and angst that nothing seems to be helping. I'

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Grief hurts, betrayal and abandonment hurts, it can be an impossible load of pain.
Do give your self permission to grieve, accept that that relationship is Dead and grief for what might have been.
Those are nasty, hurting words, but they are the truth and you will not get better untill you accept the truth.

Please talk to your minister of to his wife, you need people to cry with and who will be with you and pray with and for you.

People do care, you can rebuild your life, admitting to friends you were wrong and seeking to re-establish relationships will take time.

So grieve for what has ended, and face honestly the future.

Heavenly Father have mercy and take this young lady's life and renew it to the good whatever road it takes? Deliver her from depression and unrest and give her peace and a future she can depend on, In Jesus Name, Amen

[This is a prayer forum people. Not advice, suggestions, ramblings.]

Lord God see evita through as only you can. Help her take one step at a time out of this darkness. Give hope through your word. Give faith and purpose that better days are around the corner. Open ways to new purpose and value. May she find rest in you. In Jesus name, Amen.

105 Nun Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. [Psa 119:105 NIV]

12 When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." [Jhn 8:12 NIV]

28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. [Mat 11:28 NIV]

evita said:

Hi, all

I'm battling severe, life-threatening depression. I am on medication, but it's mainly because I'm laden with worry, guilt, fear, and angst that nothing seems to be helping. I'm praying a lot. I'm mentally ill and in no position to seek proper professional help.

I got romantically involved with a man earlier this year. Months down the line it's cost me all my money, several key relationships in my life, and now I'm still in love with him although he's likely moving on. I can't tell you how much it hurts... I made mistakes, he made mistakes. I'm in that awful "I can't live without him" mindset. I feel abandoned by my family and I'm terribly afraid of the future. I'm almost 26 years old and never married, no kids, my adoptive parents have passed on (only my biological dad is still alive, but due to mental troubles of his own and the new life he started after my mother's death, he can't be counted on), I have only two younger stepsisters who want nothing to do with me...

I feel all alone and worthless and like I can't go on anymore. Please pray for me... When it's so dark on the inside, one feels so far away from God... I don't know what or how to pray anymore. I'm hurt and lonely and I fit in nowhere... I say and do senseless things and it feels like I'm only a burden... Please pray for me for healing, help... Anything.

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Evita,

First off, you are NOT WORTHLESS! You are very preccious and loved. Please never lose sight of that fact that God loved you so much that he sent his sone to die on the cross to save you. Yes he includes everyone in that salvation, but if you were the only person ever saved, he still would have done it.

Secondly, you are not without brothers and sisters. The Bible teaches us that we are adopted into the family of God through faith in Jesus. There is literally not enough space in here to list all the verses, but YOU, yes YOU are my sister, every bit as much as if my own mother had born you. With all the benefits, and uh... less than benefits that come with that right? So please know you are not alone.

Third. I don't know, or really need to know the details. I don't know about South Africa. I can google search stuff, but more importantly, I am actively praying the Lord bring those that can help guide you to mental health services do so. I can say that a good, truly God following church body would be able to help you out. If nothing else start you off with some pastoral counseling.

Lastly, and just as an encouragement. Please don't give up, or give in. I know the pain you are in right now, my ex tore me soul deep and threw me into a nasty depression that had me thinking thoughts that horrify me to this day, as well as hitting a bottle way too much. Through recovery groups in my church, time, and Gods guidance, he saw me through to much better days that you too can see if you stick with him!

evita said:

Hi, all

I'm battling severe, life-threatening depression. I am on medication, but it's mainly because I'm laden with worry, guilt, fear, and angst that nothing seems to be helping. I'm praying a lot. I'm mentally ill and in no position to seek proper professional help.

I got romantically involved with a man earlier this year. Months down the line it's cost me all my money, several key relationships in my life, and now I'm still in love with him although he's likely moving on. I can't tell you how much it hurts... I made mistakes, he made mistakes. I'm in that awful "I can't live without him" mindset. I feel abandoned by my family and I'm terribly afraid of the future. I'm almost 26 years old and never married, no kids, my adoptive parents have passed on (only my biological dad is still alive, but due to mental troubles of his own and the new life he started after my mother's death, he can't be counted on), I have only two younger stepsisters who want nothing to do with me...

I feel all alone and worthless and like I can't go on anymore. Please pray for me... When it's so dark on the inside, one feels so far away from God... I don't know what or how to pray anymore. I'm hurt and lonely and I fit in nowhere... I say and do senseless things and it feels like I'm only a burden... Please pray for me for healing, help... Anything.

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Hi Evita,

I feel terribly saddened reading this and your predicament. I can so relate to you, but don't fear, use this time to draw closer to God. I pray that you have a future and I pray that God heals your broken heart & depression and most importantly I pray that God's love fills your heart to overflowing so that you have purpose. Give yourself time to heal and take it one day at a time dear Evita and try not to let your circumstances overwhelm you. I worry about you, may God be with you and give you hope!

Yours truly,

Victor.

Praying for you. I suffered severe depression for 18 years so I know how you feel. At the time you feel nobody is there for you, but all of us are here to help you. If you have a bible with you would you look up Jeremiah 29:11. This verse lets you know that God has a plan for you. You may not see it at the time but your future is going to be incredible because God is with you. If you ever want to talk you can message me on here.

G'day Evita i'm from Western Australia

i'm so sorry to hear you are suffering from severe depression, that is very hard to cope with, i know i often suffer from it myself, once 7 long years of it. That was the worst i have ever been through.

i realised that we build our bad life doing silly things as well as thinking silly things. Depression is all about thinking bad thoughts about God, ourselves and our neighbour. In this way, when long enough depressed, you created a bad place for yourself right within.

Jesus wants to save you from that place, by asking you to put your faith in His love, and to begin rebuilding yourself with positive truthful thoughts and actions instead of untruthful ones.

This is the kernel of it. The more you build your life with God and in His loving truth, the more ability you will have to escape your depression.

Honestly true God wrote my story though i suffer from a depressive illness and am down even now. i know He loves me, i know He has forgiven me my wrongs i know He has and is and will rebuild me into the word. Each day a bit more. He has given me the ability to fight suicidal ideation and so much more.

So please be of good courage and let Jesus take your bad life away and replace it with his Good life.

Peace.