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This is the deepest truth i found to be true within myself and that was that Jesus came and befriended me the suffering one. i had suffered myself in wicked deeds all my life. i had repented ten thousand times for the things i did when i was led by the wicked. i had always agonised them living in my heart. And in that self I hated hated myself in my suffering self a weakling.
True i had also self where I had feasted with the wicked in the past. In my big egocentric self I turned out to be the son of lawlessness in disguise. Jesus cut him out of me showing me my sins and misery for 7 years in the pit without any faith in His love. It was hell come true down there. I hated myself and condemned myself to death down there. In those selves I did not receive faith to get away from the power of the wicked. When sin was washed off me in such thinking and feeling I was washed off along with it. Time and again until the word preached its verdict over me.
Ezekiel 24:1-24
In the ninth year, in the tenth month on the tenth day, the word of the Lord came to me: “Son of man, record this date, this very date, because the king of Babylon has laid siege to Jerusalem this very day. Tell this rebellious people a parable and say to them: ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says:
“‘Put on the cooking pot; put it on
and pour water into it.
Put into it the pieces of meat,
all the choice pieces—the leg and the shoulder.
Fill it with the best of these bones;
take the pick of the flock.
Pile wood beneath it for the bones;
bring it to a boil
and cook the bones in it.
“‘For this is what the Sovereign Lord says:
“‘Woe to the city of bloodshed,
to the pot now encrusted,
whose deposit will not go away!
Take the meat out piece by piece
in whatever order it comes.
“‘For the blood she shed is in her midst:
She poured it on the bare rock;
she did not pour it on the ground,
where the dust would cover it.
To stir up wrath and take revenge
I put her blood on the bare rock,
so that it would not be covered.
“‘Therefore this is what the Sovereign Lord says:
“‘Woe to the city of bloodshed!
I, too, will pile the wood high.
So heap on the wood
and kindle the fire.
Cook the meat well,
mixing in the spices;
and let the bones be charred.
Then set the empty pot on the coals
till it becomes hot and its copper glows,
so that its impurities may be melted
and its deposit burned away.
It has frustrated all efforts;
its heavy deposit has not been removed,
not even by fire.
“‘Now your impurity is lewdness. Because I tried to cleanse you but you would not be cleansed from your impurity, you will not be clean again until my wrath against you has subsided.
“‘I the Lord have spoken. The time has come for me to act. I will not hold back; I will not have pity, nor will I relent. You will be judged according to your conduct and your actions, declares the Sovereign Lord.’”
i never realised that this is what would happen but I utterly perished in my dishonest, prideful, arrogant, selfish, doubting and unbelieving self. So when i saw those so strong in lies die like flies with the dragon ruling, i knew that Revelation was really coming true right inside my heart for i saw all the numbered died like flies! My oppressors. The very self I had been in sin. (Isaiah 57:3-4) That self in me in which I had caused me all my heart ache was destroyed by Jesus Christ in the desert of my desolation suicidally depressed. Who could have foretold that Jesus knew me that intimately and could punish that severely?
Who could have foretold He would come to my aid in such manner? Bringing me rock bottom and collecting me in my true self for such can withstand the battle of lies. True self is indestructible, Jesus made sure of that. Only in my untrue self i suffered death as penalty. Truly i had not realised a religious person that election is of the heart and not just of people.
This has been the best part of my walk with Jesus. How Scripture/truth comes alive inside my inner world of being because loving God and neighbour saves me from my sins like nothing else does.
Honest this is how my life used to be from righteous moments to unrighteous moments all day long. From having faith to not having any faith at all. From serving God with zeal to hating Him for forbidding me my fun. From loving true to stampeding all over love a loveless sinner.
However now can live united as one within myself and glory in God for untrue self has been sliced off, literally like that!
Hebrews 4:12-13 did warn me about that but i had forgotten to take note until it happened.
"For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account."
And so He set me free to love Him and neighbour and to grow stronger than my illness can throw at me. All praise to God for saving me out of my pit.
Peace.
True i had also self where I had feasted with the wicked in the past. In my big egocentric self I turned out to be the son of lawlessness in disguise. Jesus cut him out of me showing me my sins and misery for 7 years in the pit without any faith in His love. It was hell come true down there. I hated myself and condemned myself to death down there. In those selves I did not receive faith to get away from the power of the wicked. When sin was washed off me in such thinking and feeling I was washed off along with it. Time and again until the word preached its verdict over me.
Ezekiel 24:1-24
In the ninth year, in the tenth month on the tenth day, the word of the Lord came to me: “Son of man, record this date, this very date, because the king of Babylon has laid siege to Jerusalem this very day. Tell this rebellious people a parable and say to them: ‘This is what the Sovereign Lord says:
“‘Put on the cooking pot; put it on
and pour water into it.
Put into it the pieces of meat,
all the choice pieces—the leg and the shoulder.
Fill it with the best of these bones;
take the pick of the flock.
Pile wood beneath it for the bones;
bring it to a boil
and cook the bones in it.
“‘For this is what the Sovereign Lord says:
“‘Woe to the city of bloodshed,
to the pot now encrusted,
whose deposit will not go away!
Take the meat out piece by piece
in whatever order it comes.
“‘For the blood she shed is in her midst:
She poured it on the bare rock;
she did not pour it on the ground,
where the dust would cover it.
To stir up wrath and take revenge
I put her blood on the bare rock,
so that it would not be covered.
“‘Therefore this is what the Sovereign Lord says:
“‘Woe to the city of bloodshed!
I, too, will pile the wood high.
So heap on the wood
and kindle the fire.
Cook the meat well,
mixing in the spices;
and let the bones be charred.
Then set the empty pot on the coals
till it becomes hot and its copper glows,
so that its impurities may be melted
and its deposit burned away.
It has frustrated all efforts;
its heavy deposit has not been removed,
not even by fire.
“‘Now your impurity is lewdness. Because I tried to cleanse you but you would not be cleansed from your impurity, you will not be clean again until my wrath against you has subsided.
“‘I the Lord have spoken. The time has come for me to act. I will not hold back; I will not have pity, nor will I relent. You will be judged according to your conduct and your actions, declares the Sovereign Lord.’”
i never realised that this is what would happen but I utterly perished in my dishonest, prideful, arrogant, selfish, doubting and unbelieving self. So when i saw those so strong in lies die like flies with the dragon ruling, i knew that Revelation was really coming true right inside my heart for i saw all the numbered died like flies! My oppressors. The very self I had been in sin. (Isaiah 57:3-4) That self in me in which I had caused me all my heart ache was destroyed by Jesus Christ in the desert of my desolation suicidally depressed. Who could have foretold that Jesus knew me that intimately and could punish that severely?
Who could have foretold He would come to my aid in such manner? Bringing me rock bottom and collecting me in my true self for such can withstand the battle of lies. True self is indestructible, Jesus made sure of that. Only in my untrue self i suffered death as penalty. Truly i had not realised a religious person that election is of the heart and not just of people.
This has been the best part of my walk with Jesus. How Scripture/truth comes alive inside my inner world of being because loving God and neighbour saves me from my sins like nothing else does.
Honest this is how my life used to be from righteous moments to unrighteous moments all day long. From having faith to not having any faith at all. From serving God with zeal to hating Him for forbidding me my fun. From loving true to stampeding all over love a loveless sinner.
However now can live united as one within myself and glory in God for untrue self has been sliced off, literally like that!
Hebrews 4:12-13 did warn me about that but i had forgotten to take note until it happened.
"For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account."
And so He set me free to love Him and neighbour and to grow stronger than my illness can throw at me. All praise to God for saving me out of my pit.
Peace.
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