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Hey, my name is Bekuta. I'm 20 years old, from Massachusetts.
I grew up Baptist, until I was about 10 years old. Out of the blue, my family stopped going to church, and religion just sort of stopped being a part of my life. Throughout my early to mid teens, I was a pretty militant atheist, and prided myself on "owning Christians". I still remember the open hostility I showed on the couple occasions I had to go to church for some family event. Looking back, it was just my way of feeling superior, even if I was just putting down other people for their beliefs.
That stopped after about 16; I opened up to religion a lot more and understood it was an important part of people's lives. Around that same time I had also dabbled in Paganism. It was mostly out of interest for my heritage, and it was nice feeling that sort of connection to nature. But those beliefs fell through around the time I turned 17, and I started to get drawn back towards Christ. For the past couple years I had been struggling in finding my footing, until very recently when I decided I needed to fully devote myself to the Lord. I try not to look back on any of my previous religious (or non-religious) phases, with disdain; I consider them integral steps that, in the end, lead me back to God.
I still feel myself struggling to find my foothold in my beliefs sometimes: sometimes wondering how much I actually believe, or if it's even worth it. But I know that God loves me, even on those days when I question myself, and I just have to find the will to keep moving forward.
I'm hoping that joining this forum will allow me to meet some new people, and will help me in my journey of making God a part of my life. I look forward to getting to meet you all, and I hope you're all doing great.
I grew up Baptist, until I was about 10 years old. Out of the blue, my family stopped going to church, and religion just sort of stopped being a part of my life. Throughout my early to mid teens, I was a pretty militant atheist, and prided myself on "owning Christians". I still remember the open hostility I showed on the couple occasions I had to go to church for some family event. Looking back, it was just my way of feeling superior, even if I was just putting down other people for their beliefs.
That stopped after about 16; I opened up to religion a lot more and understood it was an important part of people's lives. Around that same time I had also dabbled in Paganism. It was mostly out of interest for my heritage, and it was nice feeling that sort of connection to nature. But those beliefs fell through around the time I turned 17, and I started to get drawn back towards Christ. For the past couple years I had been struggling in finding my footing, until very recently when I decided I needed to fully devote myself to the Lord. I try not to look back on any of my previous religious (or non-religious) phases, with disdain; I consider them integral steps that, in the end, lead me back to God.
I still feel myself struggling to find my foothold in my beliefs sometimes: sometimes wondering how much I actually believe, or if it's even worth it. But I know that God loves me, even on those days when I question myself, and I just have to find the will to keep moving forward.
I'm hoping that joining this forum will allow me to meet some new people, and will help me in my journey of making God a part of my life. I look forward to getting to meet you all, and I hope you're all doing great.