Thanks for Prayer, The Devil is desperate to make me fall, So I ask for more prayer.

Thanks for all that prayed for me. I just made a new thread to make it clear that I've never since I first became a Christian, seen more clearly how the devil work through people against me, to try to make me fall. The last two days I've felt it as if chains that have held me in place, have shattered, and after this even people that have jobs with healthcare have contacted me regarding drugs.

I'm trying my best to become totally clean from anything, and do get methadone daily since I'm an morphinist and where I live that's declared as an illness where there's such a low chance of ever getting off it, that's it's medically irresponsible to just treat people as criminals if they do use things like heroin, but still my worst addiction is things like Valium and similar, since I already have a serious anxiety disorder, and after I broke up with my former fiance and she and our son moved to another part of the country, and then got problems with the Child Protection, then I also was no longer allowed to be a parent, because of my bad mental health, and after that it became too much for me, and I've had problems with most types of drugs, but mainly the so-called benzodiazepines class of "medicine".

Now I've finally found a doctor willing to write me prescriptions on the least addictive type of benzo, and I'm promised him to stay clean from anything else, and as long as I keep this promise he is willing to help with prescriptions and the plan is when I'm stabilized on only what I get from him, then I will try to taper off them very slowly. But it's really difficult to hoping against all experience that tell me that I will eventually fail somehow, because if I for example visit my son, that's now soon 15 years old and living at my brothers place, or if he visits me a day and we can hang out together, have something to eat and play some computer game or watch a movie together, it's so nice to see him and my soul fall into rest and I'm able to feel happy and life feel normal for a little while, but then he have to go again, and I remain at home, where my life have become more and more isolated.

And specially with mostly the only people I know that also have life with problems, and since I also have the serious problems with mental health, where I end up in a category of people that simply don't have anywhere to turn to get help in the system, unless the doctors are not people that truly understand and truly have empathy and wish to help, I have to turn to drugs to try to keep sane, and give me a boost of intoxication and forgetfulness. Also since the pandemic started, empathy have been in a very short supply, and also drugs, so I've never felt as I've lived through a darker time in my life before, and I don't have place for much more trials, and can't keep carry a much more heavier burden then what I already have.

Anyway, since I asked for prayer, I really felt as though the fears have let go a bit, and I feel stronger, and I don't need much more strength, just a bit of it, and that make me stronger then most people will ever get, so now I got a fighting spirit, and that's all I need.

So God bless you in all things if you are one of the people that happen to notice this and happen to have a moment of time to turn to God, because God and the devil, and spirituality in general, is not something abstract for me, it's not something that belong inside a building, hidden in symbols and ceremony. It's more real then this world is. And I notice changes in the spirit world just as how others notice a rainy day. So I can assure you all that PRAYER DO WORK. It's a mighty force when a righteous soul with faith turn to God. Also I can just as much assure anyone that read, that you will not go unrewarded for the aid you give, if you pray. Every second of your time, every word in prayer, all of it will be remembered until the end of time.

These things I can say for sure, I know this are true, more then I can say if I am real or if the world we inhabit are true.

Thank you and bless you all. It's so good to feel so blessed, and I have no words that can properly describe how deeply thankful I am for this moment and these days where I've gradually felt more and more at ease. I know from experience though that we shouldn't ever take it for granted to be filled by the Holy Spirit, by this I mean that we don't need to fear, but also that it's very simple to see that Satan is walking around like a roaring lion, to see who he can devour. So the best thing we can do when someone have prayed for us is what I will do now, and return the prayer to all those that have had a moment to spare for me.

So then you all can step your heel at the head of the snake. Grow from strength to strength. Avoid everything that lead away from the faith, more then you would avoid the plague. Because the devil and all his demons, and the depths of hell is real, and if God can use us to save anyone from damnation, we should let Him do so. Amen.