- Jan 4, 2017
- 30
- 30
- Country
- United Kingdom
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
I have been a born again Holy Spirit filled Christian all my life. A true child of the living God. I love Jesus and I always knew I was saved without a doubt, sealed by the Holy Spirit and full of hope, overflowing with His joy and life. I loved singing and dancing for the LORD.
I entered 2020 in a panic with having ocd thoughts. Talking in the head and not being able to stop. This opened me up to spiritual attacks happening, sleeplessness for weeks and it threatened my extremely close relationship to God and Holy Spirit.
What happened is, because I was going through this ocd, I felt weaker and so I thought Holy Spirit had left. I was starting to get warning signs from God about Holy Spirit leaving me which was my biggest fear.
Eventually I thought He already left, so I was losing hope. From March 26th-29th I got shot in the head by a demon and part of my head came out in the spirit, it just got busted. Also a spiritual drink, like a poison got poured into my spirit and destroyed the full weight of it, like 1 stone of weight. This was terrible. I left feeling empty and weightless. I can't speak in tongues anymore, it is just the leftover.
I feel spiritually dead now and lifeless. Hopeless, with no ability to receive from the well, to get just one drink, as isn't there anymore. People are trying to help me but there is nothing they can do about it. Am I just a hopeless case, to be thrown out as no use for God? I am also dreading going to hell, but it is not fair that I would have the same fate as a non-christian since I have lived a pure life loving Jesus and people. I am in shock and can hardly believe this has happened to me.
What do you think God did to prevent this attack?
I cannot live without God, so what is the point in my life now after this attack?
I entered 2020 in a panic with having ocd thoughts. Talking in the head and not being able to stop. This opened me up to spiritual attacks happening, sleeplessness for weeks and it threatened my extremely close relationship to God and Holy Spirit.
What happened is, because I was going through this ocd, I felt weaker and so I thought Holy Spirit had left. I was starting to get warning signs from God about Holy Spirit leaving me which was my biggest fear.
Eventually I thought He already left, so I was losing hope. From March 26th-29th I got shot in the head by a demon and part of my head came out in the spirit, it just got busted. Also a spiritual drink, like a poison got poured into my spirit and destroyed the full weight of it, like 1 stone of weight. This was terrible. I left feeling empty and weightless. I can't speak in tongues anymore, it is just the leftover.
I feel spiritually dead now and lifeless. Hopeless, with no ability to receive from the well, to get just one drink, as isn't there anymore. People are trying to help me but there is nothing they can do about it. Am I just a hopeless case, to be thrown out as no use for God? I am also dreading going to hell, but it is not fair that I would have the same fate as a non-christian since I have lived a pure life loving Jesus and people. I am in shock and can hardly believe this has happened to me.
What do you think God did to prevent this attack?
I cannot live without God, so what is the point in my life now after this attack?