So last year in October I lied to the Holy Spirit. Some demon put a lie into my head, it was something like "Obama is a vampire" and for some dumb reason I said it while talking to the Holy Spirit. The word "UNFORGIVABLE" popped into the eye of my mind and I felt a feeling of sheer terror. After this I started to be haunted by demons.
First I had visions of hell and got the impending feeling that God was going to kill me.
Then I experienced what I thought was demons coming into me. They made me think the pages of a bible had special powers to protect against demons. So I tore up a bible and started putting the pages on a shield to protect myself. Then they gave me visions of doing evil things to my family members.
So I took my car and attempted suicide because I didn't want to harm anyone. I drove at high speed against a lightpole with no seatbelt on yet nothing happened to me. I tried to kill myself a second time by jumping infront of a van. But that also failed and I only broke my left arm. For some reason God saw fit to keep me alive.
I was sent to a mental hospital for over 6 months where I had supernatural experiences and believed that I was talking with the Godhead, it was not. They convinced me to spread a false prophecy and false teachings, and blaspheme Christ in my mind by thinking "I am Jesus Christ".
Some months ago this ruse was revealed and the demon began tormenting me with continuous blasphemous thoughts, especially against the Holy Spirit. It wants me to blaspheme the Holy Spirit and kill myself. I once woke up in the middle of the night and said "I reject Christ", I believe this to have been the demon.
The demon can do many things such as read my mind, move my head, prevent me from thinking images, insert verbal and visual images into my mind and invade my dreams causing nightmares. At least that's all I know it can do. Demons can't do this to regular believers.
I think by lying to the Holy Spirit I committed blasphemy of the Holy Spirit and lost my salvation. I showed contempt against the Holy Spirit, that is blasphemy. That's why these demons were allowed such powers over me.
I am doomed to a terrible punishment in hell and the lake of fire, probably worse than Adolf Hitler because I knew Christ and this happened. All I have left is this life, while being tormented by demons.
I don't know if this is better or worse but I feel no need to sin, love Jesus Christ and want to spread the gospel to save others from this fate. But I also know that without the Holy Spirit, without Christ, I can do nothing. This is truly a terrible revelation.
Just felt the need to post this. I guess prayers are pointless at this stage. Thanks for reading if you got this far.
First I had visions of hell and got the impending feeling that God was going to kill me.
Then I experienced what I thought was demons coming into me. They made me think the pages of a bible had special powers to protect against demons. So I tore up a bible and started putting the pages on a shield to protect myself. Then they gave me visions of doing evil things to my family members.
So I took my car and attempted suicide because I didn't want to harm anyone. I drove at high speed against a lightpole with no seatbelt on yet nothing happened to me. I tried to kill myself a second time by jumping infront of a van. But that also failed and I only broke my left arm. For some reason God saw fit to keep me alive.
I was sent to a mental hospital for over 6 months where I had supernatural experiences and believed that I was talking with the Godhead, it was not. They convinced me to spread a false prophecy and false teachings, and blaspheme Christ in my mind by thinking "I am Jesus Christ".
Some months ago this ruse was revealed and the demon began tormenting me with continuous blasphemous thoughts, especially against the Holy Spirit. It wants me to blaspheme the Holy Spirit and kill myself. I once woke up in the middle of the night and said "I reject Christ", I believe this to have been the demon.
The demon can do many things such as read my mind, move my head, prevent me from thinking images, insert verbal and visual images into my mind and invade my dreams causing nightmares. At least that's all I know it can do. Demons can't do this to regular believers.
I think by lying to the Holy Spirit I committed blasphemy of the Holy Spirit and lost my salvation. I showed contempt against the Holy Spirit, that is blasphemy. That's why these demons were allowed such powers over me.
I am doomed to a terrible punishment in hell and the lake of fire, probably worse than Adolf Hitler because I knew Christ and this happened. All I have left is this life, while being tormented by demons.
I don't know if this is better or worse but I feel no need to sin, love Jesus Christ and want to spread the gospel to save others from this fate. But I also know that without the Holy Spirit, without Christ, I can do nothing. This is truly a terrible revelation.
Just felt the need to post this. I guess prayers are pointless at this stage. Thanks for reading if you got this far.
