Didn't Paul say he as an unbeliever was righteous according to the Law? Philippians 3:6-7 > he says that was a thing to count as
"loss"!! And his glorifying of that sort of righteousness had been a reason why he was
not qualified, I think he is saying. So, it is a foil of what has truly qualified him to be an apostle of Jesus, I consider.
In any case, another item is Jesus
"gave" apostleship (Ephesians 4:11) to the ones who are apostles. It is a gift, not earned, of His unmerited grace. And James says every gift from God is
"good" and
"perfect" > James 1:17. But having a perfectly good gift did not mean the individual is perfectly good like the Holy Spirit who is living the gift in a person.
Do we have evidence that Paul could mess up and act against his apostolic gift? I offer how Paul got in that fight . . . I now understand . . . with Barnabas, about whether or not to keep
"John called Mark" with them > Acts 15:36-41. What I personally get with this is Barnabas was more mature than Paul; Barnabas had been a disciple for some time before Paul got saved; and Barnabas was known for comforting the disciples. So, he could have hope with compassion for brothers and sisters who were not doing well > love
"hopes all things" we have in 1 Corinthians 13:7. So, here might be an example of how Paul still could be wrong and needed to mature better in how to love. He had his gift, though, to keep him doing things which are good. But that gift was going to change him to find out better how to love and not give up on anyone . . . I consider . . . for application to myself, in any case!
And we see how our Apostle Peter messed up, so big-time, in Galatians 2:11-13. And he had his gift, too. But because he himself was not so good and perfect like his gift, he could mess up, even going contrary to his gift!!
I personally believe that apostleship is God's standardization gift, for conforming the church to Jesus and to the correct representation of the Gospel and how Jesus has us loving and speaking His word. However, in case my theory is correct > even those who have had this gift have needed for their own gift to standardize them more
We see how the apostles were gifted to walk with Jesus; but while they were with him, so blessed, so given such a gift . . . they abused that by fighting among themselves about who was the greatest, plus they could actually exercise conceit against others, by criticizing certain people for coming near Jesus > of all things!! > they were supposed to bring people
to Jesus.
So, our gifts do not at all indicate that we are due special status and automatic and unquestioning praise and trust. We are chosen, thanks to who Jesus is, indeed
Jesus, really, is the One who is chosen. And so, our being chosen brings on how God changes us to become like His Son who is so pleasing to Him. His grace, then . . . truly . . . favors Jesus and our becoming and loving like Jesus > here is one scripture to support this >
"And walk in love, as Christ also has loved us and given Himself for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet-smelling aroma." (Ephesians 5:2)
And 1 Peter 4:9-10 says >
"Be hospitable to one another without grumbling. As each one has received a gift, minister it to one another, as good stewards of the manifold grace of God." (1 Peter 4:9-10)
Through this, I see that every gift of the Holy Spirit deeply ministers God's own grace which changes us to become and love, and to please our Father, like Jesus loves and pleases our Father while sharing with us as family but also loving any and all people. The outward activity of a gift might not make this obvious, but deeper this is what we experience with one another in God's loving.
Every one of us is this important, then, able to so minister through our gifts and, by the way, also by means of our growing good example which is in the sight of God and God is therefore spreading how we are becoming like Jesus, to help others become the same way. So, yes God uses good example of maturity in love, not only the outward doings of gifts.
So, reputation before humans is not really what a gift is about, but all which is happening in the sight of God > among other scriptures for this we have how we become because of Jesus in us so pleasing to our Father >
"rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God." (1 Peter 3:4)