Is this OCD?

I’m not sure what you mean when you say “I have to do a compulsion” Bee, but negative thoughts and a sense of doom and gloom are often symptoms of anxiety and depression.

I’ve been told that I suffer from OCD, because when I lock onto something it’s hard for me to be shaken off. I think that I am a bit of a perfectionist, and a tad bipolar (see things in black and white, no middle ground), and a bit anti-establishment (or rather, have a need to control the environment I am in), which are classical symptoms of OCD, but I think I am a low grade case because of the Holy Spirit’s counsel in my life that brings me back to balance (if I listen to Him).

Bee22 said:

Please don't respond if you don't have OCD or don't know much about it.

I can't afford therapy so need help with this!
I can't seem to accept this is OCD.
Is it OCD if it feels like an urge to think something really bad?

I have to do a compulsion because the pressure in my head is so uncomfortable. This happened after I've heard about the unpardonable sin.

I've been seeing people with repetitive intrusive thoughts and I don't really experience this. It's just like a constant urge to think something that's killing me.

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Here are some signs of OCD.

Fear of being contaminated by germs or dirt or contaminating others.
Fear of losing control and harming yourself or others.
Intrusive sexually explicit or violent thoughts and images.
Excessive focus on religious or moral ideas.
Fear of losing or not having things you might need.
Excessive washing of hands.
Extreme need for order.
Checking things over and over again.
Counting things to see if one is missing.

I am currently undiagnosed, but have tested highly in the OCD category (among other mental illnesses). It’s difficult for anyone that isn’t in the field of psychology to tell because since each human mind is different, almost everyone’s experience will be quite specific to them.

Bee22 said:

I have to do something to distract myself from it. I was told that was a called a compulsion.

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Ok, I understand.

We could put ‘compelled’ to most of our decision making, e.g. ‘I have assessed my situation and feel compelled to take this action’..... which could be if I found myself in the circumstance you find yourself in, that I merely do something (a distraction) to take my mind of what is causing me anxiety and possibly fear. That’s a natural and reasonable action to take and everyone that I know does that in some way, and that is not necessarily an OCD reaction by any means... it’s a self help come survival reaction. Many will hit the bar of chocolate, a (bucket of) coffee (if you are like me), turn on the TV, listen to music, alcohol, drugs, sex, as a comfort to the distresses they are feeling. Some can be so overcome with these distractions that they become addicted to them and therefore create another problem for themselves, unfortunately.

I can see where you may feel you might be troubled by an OCD condition, but from what you’ve disclosed so far in your posts I don’t think you are. But as another poster implied, to accurately determine whether someone is suffering an OC disorder or not, a mentor would have to spend a significant amount of time with them to see how they have reacted to a set of conditions they are presented with.

We need to bear in mind that the evil one will toy with our minds to create fear and anxiety... it is best that we all have some trusted Christian friends, or a church elder providing pastoral care to the flock, that we can talk to and get advice from, that’s an essential aspect/service of good Christian fellowship.

I experience somethings similar to you, but I cannot conclude for you that it is ocd. I means I have suffered with ocd for too long and don’t knows how the mind of normal people without ocd works. I have been Ocd for many years and the thought always relies on somethings I fear the most. When I knows about unpardonable sin, I really have hard times getting those thought out of my head. It likes it always pop up in my mind. I don’t know if it normal for people without ocd to see passages about unpardonable things and have those thought. I just not really know, I have been ocd for too long.

But if you worried that you might committed it. I means you don’t need to worried. God will forgive you. Just pray and repent.

@Bee22 , no one here can confirm such a diagnosis, but if you are a US citizen of lower means, you are likely eligible for medical assistance which, in turn, could pay for a psychiatric evaluation (and subsequent treatment). While you pursue that, look into churches that are better at dealing with mental illnesses.

The Church & Mental Illness...

Bee22 said:

I've been told elsewhere it was Scrupulosity. I just wanted a second opinion by others suffering from the same symptoms. I understand what they say won't be an official diagnosis...guess maybe it would be a relief to see someone else with this.

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I thinks you have OCD, what you experienced is similar to me but as I said I have been OCD for too long. I don’t know how normal people mind works. But either it is OCD or not, just trust in god. I means he understand everythings.

Gkst said:

I thinks you have OCD, what you experienced is similar to me but as I said I have been OCD for too long. I don’t know how normal people mind works. But either it is OCD or not, just trust in god. I means he understand everythings.

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Can you give specifics as to why you think the OP has an OCD condition?

Bee22 said:

I've been told elsewhere it was Scrupulosity. I just wanted a second opinion by others suffering from the same symptoms. I understand what they say won't be an official diagnosis...guess maybe it would be a relief to see someone else with this.

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Well, I should be labelled with that too.... or is it that I and people like me have a zeal for doing right, and grieve when we have done wrong.... I recollect that a certain apostle advocated that is how we should be acting and reacting.

I’m intrigued Bee, you mentioned your fears about an unpardonable sin, are you comfortable/able to disclose exactly what that unpardonable sin is?

There’s nothing zealous about OCD. Also, if you don’t look at the full text, you’ll only be reading things out of context. I know because I’ve had that problem.

Bee22 said:

Please don't respond if you don't have OCD or don't know much about it.

I can't afford therapy so need help with this.
I can't seem to accept this is OCD.
Is it OCD if it feels like an urge to think something really bad?

I have to do a compulsion because the pressure in my head is so uncomfortable. This happened after I've heard about the unpardonable sin.

I've been seeing people with repetitive intrusive thoughts and I don't really experience this. It's just like a constant urge to think something that's killing me.

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Cognitive behavioural therapist here.

You can use this scale to see if you have OCD symptoms (it’s not a diagnostic tool it’s an assessment tool).

https://www.kcl.ac.uk/ioppn/depts/p...pings/CADAT/Links/OCI-Questionnaire-(PDF).pdf

Score 42 or higher and you would be eligible for therapy in my country.

TenthAveN said:

There’s nothing zealous about OCD. Also, if you don’t look at the full text, you’ll only be reading things out of context. I know because I’ve had that problem.

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I read through the OP’s comments many times to make sure I understood what she has written, and asked questions or gave suggestions which could help her look at different perspectives and conditions. I stand by what I have written, and that we can give Satan opportunity to control our behaviour and minds which he does through anxiety and fear, when we or others label ourselves with something.

I’m not saying a true Christian can’t have mental disorders, but that we need to be wary when others or even ourselves would label us with something. Have a look at her results from the online analysis she has done, and selah.

Bee22 said:

Scrupulosity goes far and beyond normal zeal. It's a doubting disease mixed with intrusive thoughts in some cases. John Bunyan Martin Luther and Charles Spurgeon all suffered from this. I cannot tell you what the unforgivable sin is for certain. It seems no one knows. It's spoken of in Mark 3:28–29, Matthew 12:31–32, and Luke 12:10. Forgive me, I don't wish to look at the full text here.

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The unpardonable sin is when the genuine work of the Holy Spirit is mocked and described as being the work of the evil one.

I don’t mean to cause you any anxt, and I appreciate that my comments may not seem to be helpful, but just to be sure I understand the cause of your fear, do you feel that you have committed that sin, or will do so sometime in the future?