Please pray I get these images/memories out of my mind

JI4M · May 30, 2020

Some of you all are familiar with my recent story. If not, here is a quick recap. I was injured a few weeks ago at my dentist office during a routine extraction. I have been in severe constant non-stop pain all over. No infection or dry socket was found. We don't know what the problem is.

Here is what I need prayers for. I went to another dentist for a second opinion. I have no idea what I walked into. This dentist jammed his fingers so hard all over where it hurt. I was crying in tears screaming. He had no remorse. He dugg in there all around in there. He made already horrific pain so much worse. I really truly believe he did it on purpose. I had the feeling he didn't like me from the start. He was very irritated and unkind. What he did to me was brutal. I have been having constant images of what he did to me flash through my mind because of him causing more trauma to whatever happened to me to begin with. The images of being in that chair with tears coming out of my eyes and him torturing me with so called "inspecting the area" just consumes me. Then after he did all of that, he said "welp, I don't know what's going on, sorry.". I sobbed and immediately said "what??? Why did you do all of that and you can't even tell me what it is??? What were you looking for??? Why did you do all of that to me???" I don't care what anyone says, I WAS ASSAULTED and i can't get the images out of my head!!!!

I am also very heavily mad at myself for not stopping it from the start. After he jammed his finger in there and I screamed in pain, I continuely let him do it for at least a good 3 minutes, (do you know how much pain can be caused in 3 minutes? Just picture him digging and digging hard around despite my protest of how much it hurt. He went in feirce without gentleness), knowing it was wrong but I just thought maybe he's looking for something. But I SHOULD HAVE STOPPED IT from the START. I should have told him to stop and then promptly leave the office! The tears are running so hard burning my eyes write now as I type. Somtimes to get the images out of my head as they come through, I try to change them and pretend that I was actually harmed in a freak accident like being randomnly attacked or in a car accident. Like anything is better than believing how much he harmed me and how cruel he was. It's hard to explain but that's how my mind is coping but only sometimes and barely works.

I'm so very traumatized. I'm in so much pain and I've been too so many doctors already and most do not care.

I don't want to carry this burden of hate and trauma from this dentist. i can kind of forgive the first dentist for being an idiot, but this second dentist was like Satan's helper. I have been actively trying to forget and forgive even though he made my injury significantly worse but i just need prayers for when I can't. I need prayers to get these images out of my head. I know it's hard for anyone to understand. If I read this, I'd be a bit confused too and I would also think maybe the dentist really didn't do it intentionally. But no one can convince, I know in my heart of HEARTS he did it intentionally. The coldness in his eyes I will never forget the way he kept looking at me and the way he was speaking to me. Why, why, why didn't i just go with my gut feeling and run out of there???? Why did I allow him to do that to me???

SeekingGloryOnThisJourney · May 30, 2020

JI4M said:
Some of you all are familiar with my recent story. If not, here is a quick recap. I was injured a few weeks ago at my dentist office during a routine extraction. I have been in severe constant non-stop pain all over. No infection or dry socket was found. We don't know what the problem is.

Here is what I need prayers for. I went to another dentist for a second opinion. I have no idea what I walked into. This dentist jammed his fingers so hard all over where it hurt. I was crying in tears screaming. He had no remorse. He dugg in there all around in there. He made already horrific pain so much worse. I really truly believe he did it on purpose. I had the feeling he didn't like me from the start. He was very irritated and unkind. What he did to me was brutal. I have been having constant images of what he did to me flash through my mind because of him causing more trauma to whatever happened to me to begin with. The images of being in that chair with tears coming out of my eyes and him torturing me with so called "inspecting the area" just consumes me. Then after he did all of that, he said "welp, I don't know what's going on, sorry.". I sobbed and immediately said "what??? Why did you do all of that and you can't even tell me what it is??? What were you looking for??? Why did you do all of that to me???" I don't care what anyone says, I WAS ASSAULTED and i can't get the images out of my head!!!!

I am also very heavily mad at myself for not stopping it from the start. After he jammed his finger in there and I screamed in pain, I continuely let him do it for at least a good 3 minutes, (do you know how much pain can be caused in 3 minutes? Just picture him digging and digging hard around despite my protest of how much it hurt. He went in feirce without gentleness), knowing it was wrong but I just thought maybe he's looking for something. But I SHOULD HAVE STOPPED IT from the START. I should have told him to stop and then promptly leave the office! The tears are running so hard burning my eyes write now as I type. Somtimes to get the images out of my head as they come through, I try to change them and pretend that I was actually harmed in a freak accident like being randomnly attacked or in a car accident. Like anything is better than believing how much he harmed me and how cruel he was. It's hard to explain but that's how my mind is coping but only sometimes and barely works.

I'm so very traumatized. I'm in so much pain and I've been too so many doctors already and most do not care.

I don't want to carry this burden of hate and trauma from this dentist. i can kind of forgive the first dentist for being an idiot, but this second dentist was like Satan's helper. I have been actively trying to forget and forgive even though he made my injury significantly worse but i just need prayers for when I can't. I need prayers to get these images out of my head. I know it's hard for anyone to understand. If I read this, I'd be a bit confused too and I would also think maybe the dentist really didn't do it intentionally. But no one can convince, I know in my heart of HEARTS he did it intentionally. The coldness in his eyes I will never forget the way he kept looking at me and the way he was speaking to me. Why, why, why didn't i just go with my gut feeling and run out of there???? Why did I allow him to do that to me???

I’m so sorry!
It could have been worse and I’ll Pray.
From trauma in the past that still flashes in my mind, I’ve learned that that is not now, and it never will be.
Praying :crosseo:

Stephanie7 · May 30, 2020

I'm sorry you had to go through this. May the good LORD relieve You of this memory and guide you to a dentist that will have a heart and be gentle with his or her care. You deserve to find a dentist that will be sensitive to your needs without creating additional pain. God be with you and lead you to the right one, In Jesus Name, Amen.

HARK! · May 31, 2020

Years ago I had a wisdom tooth removed. The dentist had quite a time removing it. At one point he had his knee on my chest. There was sweat rolling down his forehead. He was breathing heavily; and I could see defeat in the old man's eyes. He struggled for well over an hour before he shattered the tooth. He broke my bone; and left a hole up through to my sinus cavity. It was quite a traumatic experience; but I was left with pain for years after. One day, years later, I was driving down the road, and something shot out of my gum. The pain stopped immediately. I pulled it out of my mouth; and it was a sliver of tooth. it was somewhere between the thickness of a straight pin and a toothpick. That was that, no more pain.

No one saw it on x-ray; but if your situation is the same; maybe it would turn up in your case.

Talk to another dentist and see if there is a less invasive way to find out what might be wrong.

JI4M · May 31, 2020

HARK! said:
Years ago I had a wisdom tooth removed. The dentist had quite a time removing it. At one point he had his knee on my chest. There was sweat rolling down his forehead. He was breathing heavily; and I could see defeat in the old man's eyes. He struggled for well over an hour before he shattered the tooth. He broke my bone; and left a hole up through to my sinus cavity. It was quite a traumatic experience; but I was left with pain for years after. One day, years later, I was driving down the road, and something shot out of my gum. The pain stopped immediately. I pulled it out of my mouth; and it was a sliver of tooth. it was somewhere between the thickness of a straight pin and a toothpick. That was that, no more pain.

No one saw it on x-ray; but if your situation is the same; maybe it would turn up in your case.

Talk to another dentist and see if there is a less invasive way to find out what might be wrong.

Wow! From A to Z, what a story! All of it is wild, but I can't believe he had his knee on your chest. Wow. Seriously and how it just shot out of your mouth one day when you were driving. Thank you for sharing your story with me. I really needed that. I think that's what I was looking for, similar stories to mine. Thank you upmost for the prayers. I thank everyone on this post who has offered them to me so far. I don't feel worthy but yet you all pray for me. Thank you

JI4M · May 31, 2020

This pain is so harsh and daunting, and constant. No one knows what it is. That compounds this whole issue. This severe pain has completely stopped my life and flipped it upside down.

HARK! · May 31, 2020

JI4M said:
Wow! From A to Z, what a story! All of it is wild, but I can't believe he had his knee on your chest. Wow.

He was a specialist. My dentist sent me to him; because after looking at my x-rays, he knew that it was going to be trouble. I kept the specialist there, well after his normal office hours. I appreciate his effort. I could see him crash. The job totally wore him out; but he couldn't stop where he was. He was cutting with power tools, and twisting; and I was smelling weird burning smells. I heard the bone in my skull break. It was a real struggle for both of us. He told me that he had broken my bone; and that a hole led from my mouth to my sinus cavity; and that as a result, that my life was at risk through infection. He put me on the strongest antibiotics; and I had to take very special care not to break the barrier that he had set up. He told me that if infection set in; that there would be nothing that he could do for me.

JI4M · May 31, 2020

HARK! said:
He was a specialist. My dentist sent me to him; because after looking at my x-rays, he knew that it was going to be trouble. I kept the specialist there, well after his normal office hours. I appreciate his effort. I could see him crash. The job totally wore him out; but he couldn't stop where he was. He was cutting with power tools, and twisting; and I was smelling weird burning smells. I heard the bone in my skull break. It was a real struggle for both of us. He told me that he had broken my bone; and that a hole led from my mouth to my sinus cavity; and that as a result, that my life was at risk through infection. He put me on the strongest antibiotics; and I had to take very special care not to break the barrier that he had set up. He told me that if infection set in; that there would be nothing that he could do for me.

Oh my God that sounds absolutely brutal. Did you have chronic constant severe pain after that? My dental work of course was no where near that brutal but my God the pain is absolutely fierce, widespread and life stopping.

HARK! · May 31, 2020

JI4M said:
Oh my God that sounds absolutely brutal. Did you have chronic constant pain after that? Mine of course was no where near that brutal but my God the pain is absolutely fierce, widespread and life stopping.

Esteem to YHWH, my pain would come and go; but I was in an auto accident that left me in extreme non-stop pain for years. I understand how hard that can be. I couldn't work for years as a result. I was in so much pain that I had to balance myself in a contorted position, and the hard floor, to even attempt to find a position comfortable enough to sleep. Usually my body would shift as soon as I reached the twilight zone, and I would be back in pain again. About once a week or so, I might be able to sleep for an hour straight. This went on for years; but according to every medical person I talked to; I shouldn't have survived the accident. The police, fire and ambulance didn't come to get me,as there was gasoline sprayed all over both sides of the highway. When I crawled from the wreckage, one said, "we would have come to get you; but we thought you were dead."

In all that pain, every sunrise, I would thank YHWH, for giving me another day, another chance to live to his esteem.

I understand your pain. I understand how draining it can be. Let us pray that for whatever YHWH is trying to show you, that it brings you to a place to his esteem.

JI4M · May 31, 2020

HARK! said:
Esteem to YHWH, my pain would come and go; but I was in an auto accident that left me in extreme non-stop pain for years. I understand how hard that can be. I couldn't work for years as a result. I was in so much pain that I had to balance myself in a contorted position, and the hard floor, to even attempt to find a position comfortable enough to sleep. Usually my body would shift as soon as I reached the twilight zone, and I would be back in pain again. About once a week or so, I might be able to sleep for an hour straight. This went on for years; but according to every medical person I talked to; I shouldn't have survived the accident. The police, fire and ambulance didn't come to get me,as there was gasoline sprayed all over both sides of the highway. When I crawled from the wreckage, one said, "we would have come to get you; but we thought you were dead."

In all that pain, every sunrise, I would thank YHWH, for giving me another day, another chance to live to his esteem.

I understand your pain. I understand how draining it can be. Let us pray that for whatever YHWH is trying to show you, that it brings you to a place to his esteem.

Thank you so much for sharing your story with me and again for the prayers.

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