What's on your mind?

Rigatoni said:

Just be confident and stay true to yourself. Even if things don't work out, just remain confident and continue being her friend; she may think about it over time, or someone better may cross your path which you'll be better prepared for from this experience. You're in my prayers SK.

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Thanks. It's already over. ^-^
She turned me down shortly but politely. I asked if we're cool just going forward from here together as we are now, and she said yes, with a laugh and a smile that you just kind of take to be meant to be comforting, to assure me that there's no need for either of us to feel weird about this or anything , because right after she did that she also said in a lighthearted way that there was no need for me to be nervous about simply asking her out (she noticed my face as I started, well, praying hard and trying to grasp some tenuous hold of courage, and she asked if I was feeling okay ). So I feel everything is fine from here. To be honest I am just glad it's over now.

SarahsKnight said:

Thanks. It's already over. ^-^
She turned me down shortly but politely. I asked if we're cool just going forward from here together as we are now, and she said yes, with a laugh and a smile that you just kind of take to be meant to be comforting, to assure me that there's no need for either of us to feel weird about this or anything , because right after she did that she also said in a lighthearted way that there was no need for me to be nervous about simply asking her out (she noticed my face as I started, well, praying hard and trying to grasp some tenuous hold of courage, and she asked if I was feeling okay ). So I feel everything is fine from here. To be honest I am just glad it's over now.

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That took guts. Props.

shineyourlight said:

Eh, that was me last night I hope you caught up on some sleep!

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Sorry to hear about that, and yeah I got a good night's sleep last night.

I'm proud of you @SarahsKnight

LadyOfMystery said:

I'm proud of you @SarahsKnight

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Thanks, Jennie. Just that one sentence from you especially really encourages me.


..... Oh, if only I had thought of this quick-witted but flirtatious comeback sooner - before getting turned down when I finally "fessed up" a few hours ago, that is - when earlier this morning she made a playful insult to me at one point when I had to take care of something that involves going into the main lab where she works. She's all, jokingly of course, "get out of our lab, Will," because of all of the coronavirus safety precautions we've had to particularly discuss a lot lately at work, you know. Since it is she and another woman named April who are together in that area, I did think of this to say in return, "oh, why? Because you both are scared of catching boy cooties from me?" As though we were still on the playground in our elementary school days.

But later on I had thought of something better that might have really zinged the dear lass in more ways than one if only I had just had the quick wit to think of it immediately in retort. "Acting so cruelly towards me, thinking I had come to cause some sort of trouble, yet, little did you know all this time I was only finding excuses to come into your lab more often so that I may bask in the presence of a goddess ...."

Iiiii like to think it would have put me just a bit ahead of her on the scoreboard when it comes to our banter.

Still, even as she said we can go on as has been normal between us from here, I had best greatly dial back the flirtatious lines, and just focus on being nice and amicable to her in the other ways, like just helping her in general while at work, even if in the small ways like hastening to hold the door outside open for her as she comes through my lab with arms full.

Phew .... Even though it was maybe only a total of five minutes from the time I had started feeling almost queasy with nervousness and began to pray for strength and blessing with that same fervor that you might remember seeing Julia Roberts' character doing in one short scene in Steel Magnolias, just before she was to walk down the wedding aisle, and the time my conversation with her as far as asking her out ended, I still feel so relieved even now, not unlike how I felt after my first chemistry exam ever in my college career had ended.

Rigatoni said:

That took guts. Props.

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Hah hah. According to Erin, as she was letting me down gently, it apparently need not have taken any guts at all.

I guess she just wanted to appear humble by perhaps saying it like she's nobody special, therefore I should not have been so nervous as though I were asking a literal goddess out. Which of course, it's nice if she wants to stay humble and also lighten any possible tension for me in her saying that I need not have been nervous, but still, I for one may continue to believe her to be someone special for some time longer. With such a cute face and pleasant demeanor, how can I not?

Rigatoni said:

Wasn't easy, I'll admit... I didn't accidentally crash the forums for once, it's a miracle.

Yeah, something did seem different about the forums yesterday. Hopefully work hasn't been too hectic lately.

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Is that you whenever I can't get on?

Ugh, Rigatoni. Not okay, my dude.

Not. Okay.

Work is work. There was some things that were happening in my family, so yesterday, I kind of just crashed and tried relaxing throughout the stressful time, haha.

SarahsKnight said:

Thanks. It's already over. ^-^
She turned me down shortly but politely. I asked if we're cool just going forward from here together as we are now, and she said yes, with a laugh and a smile that you just kind of take to be meant to be comforting, to assure me that there's no need for either of us to feel weird about this or anything , because right after she did that she also said in a lighthearted way that there was no need for me to be nervous about simply asking her out (she noticed my face as I started, well, praying hard and trying to grasp some tenuous hold of courage, and she asked if I was feeling okay ). So I feel everything is fine from here. To be honest I am just glad it's over now.

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I'm not expecting a reply.
I'm not expecting a like.

But, I do want to let you know one thing and one thing alone: I don't even know you and I feel proud of you for taking a HUGE step in a direction. That takes courage. I know I've probably only confessed a crush maybe, two times, in the entirety of my lifetime. It is scary.

You did it and you handled yourself in such a graceful way, even if it might sting.

You're great, @SarahsKnight! Proud of you!

Whisky and a cigar or two. Hello weekend!

shineyourlight said:

I'm not expecting a reply.
I'm not expecting a like.

But, I do want to let you know one thing and one thing alone: I don't even know you and I feel proud of you for taking a HUGE step in a direction. That takes courage. I know I've probably only confessed a crush maybe, two times, in the entirety of my lifetime. It is scary.

You did it and you handled yourself in such a graceful way, even if it might sting.

You're great, @SarahsKnight! Proud of you!

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I don't know why you wouldn't expect so much as a reply, Miss Shine. Because at the very least all of the kind words you have said deserves a friendly heart rating from me.

shineyourlight said:

Work is work. There was some things that were happening in my family, so yesterday, I kind of just crashed and tried relaxing throughout the stressful time, haha.

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Hopefully today fared much better.

High Fidelity said:

Whisky and a cigar or two. Hello weekend!

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Oh, heck yes.

Not that I smoke cigars or drink whisky, but HECK YEAH FOR YOU! Enjoy the weekend! *pumps fist in the air*

SarahsKnight said:

I don't know why you wouldn't expect so much as a reply, Miss Shine. Because at the very least all of the kind words you have said deserves a friendly heart rating from me.

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<3

Rigatoni said:

Hopefully today fared much better.

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Yeah. It did.

Come Monday, you can work for me.

I made this the other week...

Another random share... my newest “grand baby”... My girl Rooga had this sweet little girl last month <3

shineyourlight said:

Oh, heck yes.

Not that I smoke cigars or drink whisky, but HECK YEAH FOR YOU! Enjoy the weekend! *pumps fist in the air*


<3


Yeah. It did.

Come Monday, you can work for me.

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@Rigatoni, you liking this only makes me believe that you are agreeing to it.

shineyourlight said:

@Rigatoni, you liking this only makes me believe that you are agreeing to it.

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Well being awesome is a full-time gig, but I'll see if I can adjust my schedule.

Reading old articles on Everdayfeminism. I forgot how female masochistic that site is. A one way viewpoint where men are the fault of everything and need to change and women require no self reflection at all. To be a male feminist is to be an abused man.

Yesterday was such a good day, it seemed, and it should live in my memory for a long time if not for the rest of my life.

But ... today seems so much different. This isn't related to my time spent with or my feelings for the lady I have a crush on (on the contrary, as I said before, despite being turned down yesterday I actually think of the entire day spent with her and especially that moment to be a very good memory that gives me some underlying peace), but, it is on another, current part of my life I am having such a difficult time trusting in God and His protection over me for some reason. Why can't I? Has He not already revealed Himself through His Spirit within me and shown that He comes through on promises to shield me in times before this one? And then there was just a plethora of bad news - each one relatively minor, perhaps - but so much of it that hit me throughout today.

If I may ask, please pray for me, everyone, especially in the midst of this constant severe weather that my city has been suffering as of late, even tonight, and the stretch of seven work days - pretty much all in a row - that I am still trying to get through. Just two more days .... And at the end of them, I will know that God has helped and shielded me as He said He would despite my doubts, weaknesses, and mistakes.

I begin to think what I will do after graduation
I really want to travel the world more. For this I would need to work immediately and save.
But I also think about pursuing masters degree afterwards. It would be another 2 years on earning minimal student finances.
A part of me also wants to find a wife and have a family. I would need to work full time and financial and time allocation would most likely negate both travel and masters degree
Life's decisions

Starting to do a deep cleaning on Facebook... no mutual friends? bye bye! Haven’t posted in a few years? Bye!