Thanks for explaining a little more. I remember reading on another forum someone going through almost exactly what you are describing.
What happened was this person was searching and looked at different religions, philosophies, etc. One day, they read something, either in a book or on the internet. Shortly after, they began questioning everything they knew. They were tormented by the thought of their 'reality'. Was there a God? Or, maybe I am a God, etc..They questioned the very basics of Gods Word, reality, etc.. They clearly knew something was wrong. And, I think, they too, went for help by checking themselves into a psych ward because they were so tormented but doctors couldn't figure anything out. They finally came to the Christian forums looking for answers.
It could be as you say - that what you're going through could involve several factors (physical, emotional, mental). But, I would ask you if you were always this way? Or, did this happen suddenly?
Or, over time? Did it happen after you exposed yourself to something or someone? Did you read something that afterwards your thinking got skewed?
What you need to keep in mind is that demonic entities can be behind books, movements (ie; yoga, new age, etc.), people. A person may think it's harmless only to come to find out that it's taken a hold of them and changed their thinking, their perception. Now they're confused, questioning everything, tormented by their thoughts, feeling angry.
If this has happened to you, you definitely need Jesus to help deliver you from that. Remember, our battle is not in this physical world, but spiritual. Again, I would go to Jesus. PRAY about it to him. Ask him to show you what is happening to you. Did something happen when you were little, or did you get exposed to someone, or were taught a philosophy, or read a book somewhere, etc..
Jesus can deliver you from whatever is causing you confusion. Remember, God is not the author of confusion. Satan is the father of all lies. What was Satan's very first lie? In the Garden, with Eve.
Telling her that she will be like a GOD if she eats of the fruit that God forbad them to eat of...
Genesis; 3:1-5 (KJV):
1.Now the serpent was more subtil than any beast of the field which the LORD God had made. And he said unto the woman, Yea, hath God said, Ye shall not eat of every tree of the garden?
2 And the woman said unto the serpent, We may eat of the fruit of the trees of the garden:
3 But of the fruit of the tree which is in the midst of the garden, God hath said, Ye shall not eat of it, neither shall ye touch it, lest ye die.
4. And the serpent said unto the woman, Ye shall not surely die:
5. For God doth know that in the day ye eat thereof, then our eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be
as gods, knowing good and evil.
This is an old ideology that Satan has been trying to trick people with since the beginning. It's just repackaged and called different things. It is rooted in almost every aspect in this world (living for yourself, creating your own reality, attaining your 'higher' self, etc.). It can be very subtle but it changes you and your thinking. On the surface it sounds good, but then it ensnares you. It distorts your thinking, pulls you away from God, causes confusion and torment. Changes the truth for a lie.
It sounds like you may have exposed yourself to reading something or engaging with someone where
a demonic aspect was involved - the idea that you can be like god - and it is causing you confusion and upset. It sounds like you could be experiencing something spiritual. You need to PRAY and take it to
Jesus. He can free you of this where you will think correctly - know the truth. Realty is truth. Truth is according to God's Word and not Satans lies.
God's Word also mentions...'guarding your heart'. So, you do not get deceived like Eve was in the garden. So, seek Jesus for deliverance. Then, keep it simple, guard your heart, pray, read the Bible (KJV),
stay close to Jesus, ask the Holy Spirit to guide you. He is the one that guides you to all truth - you don't need to look for it on your own as the devil waits like a roaring lion to trip you up in vain philosophies.
Don't go wandering around looking into different ideologies, etc.. That's what can get you into trouble.
God repeatedly warned the Israelites of this same problem. Warning them not to mingle with the other
nations because they served strange gods and they could be corrupted in their thinking. And, that is exactly what happened. They mingled, involved themselves in their traditions and what happened?...
they took on their thinking, they changed their traditions and it pulled them away from God.
Colossians 2:8 (KJV) - Beware lest any man spoil you through
philosophy and vain deceit, after the tradition of men, after the rudiments of the world, and not after Christ.
I'll give you an example. I know someone personally, who knew the truth years ago. They
thought they could accompany a relative who was a member of the Jehovah's Witnesses to a meeting. They
thought they could convince others of the truth. They
thought they were strong and going to a meeting at one of their temples wouldn't affect them. WRONG. They got messed up! They attended a few meetings and now, they think Jesus was just a man. They think there is no hell. They think that the Bible was written by a bunch a men sitting around a campfire. Do you see? Do you see how exposing one's self to other teachings and the things of this world can change you? Can change your thinking? What you once were rock solid on and grounded on now all comes into question.
Just go to Jesus - PRAY - ask him to help you see the truth and to deliver you. He will if you ask him.
If you don't get an answer right away, that's ok. Be patient. Just keep asking him. Don't give up.
I hope this helps.