Thank you so much for your reply. It just really feel like that it my conscious thought. I just really confused. It feels like I can’t escape this ocd loops. But however, I would try to seek god more. Your reply just brought me to tear. Thank for your encouragement and your pray. God bless you!
Grace,
Its FEAR that’s trying to freak you out. God knows you are under attack and he KNOWS how much it bothers you. Your FAITH in God needs to be stronger than this pestering fear, that makes you tremble in fear that you somehow again and again have offended God.
Get GROUNDED and CONFIDENT IN FAITH of just how much God LOVES YOU.
For God SOOOOOO LOVED the world, He gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him, should not perish, but have everlasting life.
It will push that fear right OUT the door. The Bible says in
1 John...PERFECT LOVE CASTS OUT FEAR. He that fears is not made perfect in Love, because fear has to do with judgment. ....terrified of Gods judgment. It’s talking about Gods love there, his PERFECT LOVE FOR YOU. PERFECT YOURSELF IN KNOWING HOW GREAT HIS LOVE IS and don’t be moved from it! He isn’t watching, ready to catch you doing something wrong, like AH HA! You will NO longer fear when you know just how much God really, really Loves you.
Do you understand that Jesus Christ died and paid your penalty for sin? He knew that WE deserved to die for our sins, but he took YOUR and MY punishment. He rose in power from the dead, to give you ETERNAL LIFE. A GIFT from God...a Promise to YOU that you will NOT perish, but have Everlasting Life.
If you call on the Name of Jesus to save you, he will! There is salvation and power in his name!
He is sooooooo faithful. Bible says HE IS FAITHFUL and just to forgive our sins. 70 x 7! He KNOWS you are under attack from the wicked one. You call on the name of JESUS and ask him to fill you with the HOLY SPIRIT and he will. And when fears tries to tell you that you’ve blown it with God, you stand your ground and repeat scripture saying.....
GOD LOVES ME
HE FORGIVES MY SIN THROUGH THE BLOOD OF JESUS
JESUS NOW LIVES IN ME, I AM HIS!
GOD SAID I AM FORGIVEN
I HAVE ETERNAL LIFE
HE IS FAITHFUL TO FORGIVE ME
You see, fear says, YOU JUST BLEW IT WITH GOD!!!!!
But faith says, NOOOO NOOOO, I AM COVERED BY THE BLOOD OF JESUS, GOD FORGIVES ME, AND NOTHING NOTHING CAN SEPARATE ME FROM HIS LOVE. I HAVE ETERNAL LIFE, AND NO ONE AND NO FEARFUL THOUGHT CAN TAKE THAT FROM ME! I AM FORGIVEN! 70x7. And when you hear that creepy thought again, YOU TELL THAT TORMENTING FEAR, GET OUT BY POWER IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST. Leave NOW. Stand your ground. And if the thought comes again, you think, oh well, I will believe in GODS POWER anyway! Whatever, I am not budging. ..... And it WILL eventually go!!!
FEAR is being afraid, while FAITH is total confidence. Two opposites. How many times did he rebuke the disciples saying, Oh ye of little faith? God doesn’t want you to be worrying about Him all the time, to spend your life afraid, back and forth wondering if you will ever be acceptable.
HE WANTS YOUR FAITH TO BE STEADFAST IN THE FACT THAT HE SENT HIS SON TO GIVE YOU ETERNAL LIFE. Stop being afraid period. KNOW God loves you. That fear is lying to you and trying to scare the heck out of you that your relationship is ruined with God. Tell it to hit the road. Please get to to a gospel preaching, bible believing church where others can encourage you and stand with you to build you up in faith and pray for you.