I think I'm in hell. please help me get to the bottom of this.
Meggy, IT'S A LIE. Those thoughts you get in your mind ARE LIES, AND ARE A LIE. They are lying to you.
Firstly, you MUST understand that WE ALL deserve hell (that's what the Bible says: We ALL deserve hell). It's not you, and you only:
Rom 3:23-25 for
all have sinned
and come short of the glory of God,
Then you MUST understand the rest of the verse AND BELIEVE IT - BECAUSE IT IS TRUE:
being justified freely by His grace (GRACE = UNEARNED, UNDESERVED, UNMERITED FAVOR)
through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus; whom God has set forth to be a propitiation through faith in His blood, to declare His righteousness through the passing by of the sins that had taken place before, in the forbearance of God;
What does this mean? It means Jesus was cursed
for you and for us all when
HE took
ALL our sin upon Himself.
HE was cursed
on your behalf:
2 Cor 5:21 For He has made Him (Jesus) who knew no sin,
to be (our) sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.
2 Pet 2:14 Christ redeemed us from the curse of the Law,
being made a curse for us (for it is written, "Cursed is everyone having been hanged on a tree");
Meggy,
because of Jesus becoming YOUR representative before God, YOU are PERMITTED by God to be present with Love and Peace and Joy in Jesus. You are PERMITTED by God to be present in your heart and mind with Love and Peace and Joy.
The devil is lying to you when you believe otherwise - IT'S A LIE - just like he lied to Eve in the Garden of Eden. The devil is a LIAR and the father of lies (Jesus said so).
REMEMBER this every single time you start feeling like you are cursed and are in hell - you are being LIED TO. GOD is 10,0000 x 10,000 to the power of infinity more powerful than HELL, and GOD PERMITS YOU, MEGGY to be in His presence
if you come to Jesus and acknowledge to Him you are a sinner and ask HIM to become your Lord.
Titus 3:5
not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, through the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit,
It's according to God's MERCY - NOT according to anything right or wrong you have done:
2 Cor 5:21 For He has made Him (Jesus) who knew no sin, to be (our) sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.
Jesus was cursed. HE was cursed on your behalf:
2 Pet 2:14 Christ redeemed us from the curse of the Law, being made a curse for us (for it is written, "Cursed is everyone having been hanged on a tree");
REMEMBER when you get those thoughts again that they are A LIE. REMEMBER that because of Jesus, God PERMITS you to be in the presence of God where there is love, and peace, and joy - IN CHRIST.
Get on your knees again and speak to Jesus. All you have to say is, "Lord Jesus, I know I am a sinner. THANK YOU for taking ALL my sin from me when ALL my sin was credited to your account in the day you bore ALL of it IN YOUR OWN BODY WHEN YOU DIED ON THE CROSS. THANK you that you died in my place. Jesus I give myself TO YOU.
Keep me.
Then
every time you get those LIES coming back into your mind LYING to you, REMEMBER that they are LIES and that God PERMITS you to be in his presence
in Jesus, and you are PERMITTED by God through believing in Jesus
to be with Him in Love, and Peace, and Joy.
Call out to Him: JESUS, JESUS, JESUS every single time those thoughts come into your mind
- then pick up your Bible.
Start memorizing the scripture references of
ALL the verses
that tell you that you are forgiven like all of us NOT because of anything right or wrong you or we have done, but because
JESUS is 100% righteous and HE
represents YOU before God and HE paid the price for ALL your sins. Memorize those verses in the Bible and read them over and over and over again. Then
REMEMBER them every time those feelings of being in hell and those thoughts come back into your mind and
REMEMBER that GOD is not lying to you about the fact that your sins were taken away from you and put onto Jesus when He died - but those thoughts you get, and the sense you get of being in hell ARE LIES and are LYING to you.
JESUS is 10,0000 x 10,000 to the power of infinity more powerful than HELL, and He has DELIVERED YOU FROM IT.
God bless you Meggy