Hi Jamie! =) Welcome and I pray you find support you need here and in personal relationships too. It is sad when someone is hurt by someone in the church. However, the whole church didn't hurt you so don't give up on us all. There are many who thought they were doing right by using tough love or whatever, but they forget Jesus saved them too, and they didn't deserve it anymore than we do. It has nothing to do with deserving it, it is a gift, freely given by God thru Jesus. Christian fellowship is truly important, we are weaker on our own. God's creation definitely shows His love, creativity and beauty! it also shows His faithfulness and provision. His mercy is new every morning! Looking at the stars, I see God's greatness and love! Looking at spring flowers, winter white snows, autumn beauty, it all points to the glory of God!=) <3 Fresh starts are awesome! However, remember, even when you fail (and you will, we all do) You are still a child of the King. You can never become an un-son. You are born again and will always be His and be loved by Him! Resting in that will make you more able to do better, since it is in gratitude rather than fear, love rather than duty. Praise God, stay in His word. I am studying Hebrews right now, it is awesome!! It speaks in Ch. 4 I think of resting in Him. Love it! God bless you, praying for you.