- Apr 13, 2020
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Please help someone. I cannot go on the way I am. I want to stop analyzing good things and saying it’s sinful. I don’t even know if it was or not. Please please read below:
My intrusive thoughts have become worse day, by moment, by second.
I’m questioning everything I ever knew. Was I really saved? Did God really Bless me with something that brought me joy, or was it idolatry? Did I want to sin when I said I didn’t?!
If it wasn’t for this something that brought me joy would I even like Church?
I keep resisting these thoughts. “No this isn’t me. I’m a Christian, If it Praises God it’s good, you know you were saved because you stopped sinning.” But these intrusive thoughts just keep coming and ruining every good sacred memory. I’m mentally drained. I can’t go on like this and I can’t just stop it. It loops in my head. I want to be free of it. I Pray about it a lot, I ask forgiveness and I have come to God with all my problems and sins yet here it comes.
Summary: questioning everything good. Intrusive thoughts are ruining me.
My intrusive thoughts have become worse day, by moment, by second.
I’m questioning everything I ever knew. Was I really saved? Did God really Bless me with something that brought me joy, or was it idolatry? Did I want to sin when I said I didn’t?!
If it wasn’t for this something that brought me joy would I even like Church?
I keep resisting these thoughts. “No this isn’t me. I’m a Christian, If it Praises God it’s good, you know you were saved because you stopped sinning.” But these intrusive thoughts just keep coming and ruining every good sacred memory. I’m mentally drained. I can’t go on like this and I can’t just stop it. It loops in my head. I want to be free of it. I Pray about it a lot, I ask forgiveness and I have come to God with all my problems and sins yet here it comes.
Summary: questioning everything good. Intrusive thoughts are ruining me.