I have a confession. I have a serious problem with alcohol. I have a serious problem with drinking. I know the truth. But I need to be reminded of it. I need people to remind me and show me that a drunkard will not inherit the kingdom of God. I need someone to remind me that God wants us to be sober. That God hates drunkenness. I need to hear these harsh words. It might rip me apart, but I need to hear it. I need this burning conviction to rip through me, to rip every part of my soul, to the point that I never ever pick up another drink ever again.
You need to be sober in all kinds of ways in order to be fully prepared for the kind of evil you may be about to face soon in this world or maybe with you personally in your own life soon or very soon, etc...
If your still drinking when it hits, there may be no saving you, etc...
But I will pray, and will continually be praying for you and those like you, K...
I never had a problem with alcohol, just wasn't ever my thing, but I had a pot/weed addiction for many years, but not anymore, God made me very aware aware that I needed to be very sober and in many more ways than just one, and that pretty much ended my weed addiction, etc, and since He is helping me to be sober (in many more ways than just one) I not only know He both can, but most definitely can and will help you overcome yours if you ask Him, and truly mean it, and become truly completely fed up with not being sober or living this life sober, etc...
And He will hopefully make you sober in many more ways than just one, etc...
This is not a time to be messing around and doing this life not sober, etc...
If God allows it, Satan can use you by coming into you temporarily during those times of being black out and completely forgetful drunk and not sober, etc, and can seriously mess up your life in those moments, and it only takes him one moment sometimes also, etc, one time of being black out or forgetful drunk to mess up your life for a very long, long time afterwards, just one, not something to be messing around with, K...
I suspect you have been being somewhat protected so far, but that protection can be removed for a short time, or for just one moment, and that's all it takes for Satan, just one temporary moment under the influence, or not sober, to seriously mess things (you life) up for you for a very long time, a lot of the time...
And hopefully that is a "sobering" thought for you...
Pray for you though...
God Bless!