- Nov 28, 2019
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- Divorced
So many horrible things have happened to me in my life. The Lord delivered me from being abandoned by my Christian turned atheist wife who stole my children and I don’t know how I would have survived without him nor how I continue to.
But the pain and loneliness is and has been constant and deep, to the point where I just want to go to heaven now.
Then I met this amazing woman through work. She’s so perfect for me in a lot of ways but not a believer.
I know I can’t marry her and told her right away about that. It was hard for her but we are still dating.
I know it’s a bad idea to continue this. I know it is not right. But It hurts too bad and I literally can’t go back to the way it was before right now. Please pray God heals me, and gives me strength because I have none and I’m not going to do what’s right at this point.
Am I not a Christian or something? I feel like this is some sort of willful backsliding or suppressing of the Holy Spirit in my life. Am I not saved? I believe, I love Jesus! I tell her and everyone all the time but I just CANT right now.
But the pain and loneliness is and has been constant and deep, to the point where I just want to go to heaven now.
Then I met this amazing woman through work. She’s so perfect for me in a lot of ways but not a believer.
I know I can’t marry her and told her right away about that. It was hard for her but we are still dating.
I know it’s a bad idea to continue this. I know it is not right. But It hurts too bad and I literally can’t go back to the way it was before right now. Please pray God heals me, and gives me strength because I have none and I’m not going to do what’s right at this point.
Am I not a Christian or something? I feel like this is some sort of willful backsliding or suppressing of the Holy Spirit in my life. Am I not saved? I believe, I love Jesus! I tell her and everyone all the time but I just CANT right now.
