Hey I just realized I was bipolar in the summer/fall time and throughout my diagnosis I didn’t think I had a disorder but after some time looking in the past about how this disorder has effected I thought it was normal going up and down I thought that’s just how i am i was told I was manic depressive I didn’t know that was another term for bipolar...
I thought that it was normal but I had some dark days as some of us have had and now I look back since my diagnosis and realize I do have a mental illness along with paranoid schizophrenia but one thing is, once I noticed the bipolar for what it really is this past summer I know when I’m going through an episode but ever since I had that one episode I never encountered another yet so far I’m just wondering did it go away? Did me realizing it for what it is and what not stop it ? Lol maybe I’m just hoping it did..
Another thing is since the Lord came into my life I haven’t been as paranoid as before when he wasn’t in my life... I notice the paranoia comes from the enemy but not so often anymore but I have been getting attacked lately and the enemy uses the paranoia as an advantage over me because I hear the devils or demons imitating people that are close to me to get me paranoid because they sound just like them and they would masquerade as them from time to time but the Lord has been with me though I cannot perceive or sense him in the furnace fires.. he is faithful and does deliver... I will love you Lord you have saved me.
I thought that it was normal but I had some dark days as some of us have had and now I look back since my diagnosis and realize I do have a mental illness along with paranoid schizophrenia but one thing is, once I noticed the bipolar for what it really is this past summer I know when I’m going through an episode but ever since I had that one episode I never encountered another yet so far I’m just wondering did it go away? Did me realizing it for what it is and what not stop it ? Lol maybe I’m just hoping it did..
Another thing is since the Lord came into my life I haven’t been as paranoid as before when he wasn’t in my life... I notice the paranoia comes from the enemy but not so often anymore but I have been getting attacked lately and the enemy uses the paranoia as an advantage over me because I hear the devils or demons imitating people that are close to me to get me paranoid because they sound just like them and they would masquerade as them from time to time but the Lord has been with me though I cannot perceive or sense him in the furnace fires.. he is faithful and does deliver... I will love you Lord you have saved me.
