I understand what you’re saying but you need to understand my frustration when I feel like God is telling me to do things but it’s not happening. A similar comparison would be like if God told Noah to build the ark but then he was not able. Why can’t you understand my frustration.
Why cant you understand anything I have said to you.
Your understanding of the Kingdom is superficial at best.
When you "DO" walk into the Kingdom some day, it will be a day you remember the rest of your Life.
I'm not here to argue with you but ,I have read every single post to and from you, not just those from me and you, and what I have seen is your rejection of every single piece of advice because "WE" just cant understand your situation.
We can, but you want things to happen the way you have imagined them to happen in the order you imagined them.
There are a couple of things you really need to understand.
1) If God gave these ideas to you then HE will help you accomplish them.
2) If this is something that you only believe God has given you to do, because there is no way of knowing if He did or not, then it might take you a very long time to even get this off the ground let alone complete.
3) Having all of the Vision does not necessarily mean he wants you to do it all on your own, look for others that you can share the vision with, they then might be able to help with the funding aspect of it.
I feel from the things you have said this is a very extensive vision involving more than just you, I also believe this will take you more than a couple of years to accomplish.
You must cease believing God is going to make you exorbitantly wealthy in order for you to be able to give most of it away, because at this point in your life your Credit is shot and you can't even get Grants, therefore God is saying you are not responsible with the those things He has already given to you, therefore you Spiritual Credit is shot also until you can prove worthy.
I know, what I have said sounds harsh, but I am only being honest with you about your vision, I know how you feel, and some times we just need to put the vision down and do those things that are within our reach, being content to serve in a much lesser capacity under others.
Be Blessed in Christ