Matthew 7:21-23

Every. Single. Time.

it’s my greatest fear in life to hear those words from my savior. Because it means he wasn’t my savior and I was self deceived.

I think I hold on to many beautiful scriptures in this, however the two concepts that cement it for me that I’m not one of those are
1) illumination of the scripture: I can’t conceive of a way I could have been spoken to so powerfully through the word of God as basically every time I pick up the book. I read romans 8 twice yesterday and cried once, I was like not even studying it I was just listening to a ready and I cried. I feel like it would be impossible for me to hear the word of God and feel it pierce my heart every time if I didn’t have the HS. Before I was fully/truly saved I read it and got emotional feelings at times and thought I was saved but after I was born again, totally different experience. Tho I don’t read as I ought.

2) the desires of my heart: I want with all my heart to obey and seek Christ, not out of fear but out of knowing what it is to taste the joy and peace of sustenance from Him despite bad circumstances (in which I am still struggling). The desires of my heart are not what they were before.

so that’s at least what I tell myself but what the hell! And I don’t mean that as a bad word, it’s on topic!!!!