Hi,
I am struggling to understand my belief in Jesus, My family did not take kindly when I had told them of my change in faith, it was not as bad as I imagined though nevertheless I just kept this to myself for a while thereafter, until when someone else learned of my belief I was given evidences that the Bible is indeed untrue, and many more very outright proofs. Along with the kindness shown to me, I just I renounced my faith in Christ and repented into my religion. I am seriously having a difficult time understanding where I fit concerning religions, the time spent in learning about Christianity was very enjoyable and peaceful, however once the doubts set in I am lost for words. It seems I care about what others percieve of me as well, to be known of as Unbeliever.. I cannot accept. The heart of the matter is that initially I really believed. Now, it is just out of want to believe, despite the doubts and clear proofs. My experience of it was really the most befitting ever had.
My qeustion is: if you accepted Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior once, but changed your faith yet at heart you still don't truly 'reject' the faith either, are you still saved? I have not been baptized yet, although I made some effort to reach out a pastor/church. What should I do? The reality hasn't shifted at all, despite knowing a new religion and harboring a significant amount of love and appreciation for this..
I am struggling to understand my belief in Jesus, My family did not take kindly when I had told them of my change in faith, it was not as bad as I imagined though nevertheless I just kept this to myself for a while thereafter, until when someone else learned of my belief I was given evidences that the Bible is indeed untrue, and many more very outright proofs. Along with the kindness shown to me, I just I renounced my faith in Christ and repented into my religion. I am seriously having a difficult time understanding where I fit concerning religions, the time spent in learning about Christianity was very enjoyable and peaceful, however once the doubts set in I am lost for words. It seems I care about what others percieve of me as well, to be known of as Unbeliever.. I cannot accept. The heart of the matter is that initially I really believed. Now, it is just out of want to believe, despite the doubts and clear proofs. My experience of it was really the most befitting ever had.
My qeustion is: if you accepted Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior once, but changed your faith yet at heart you still don't truly 'reject' the faith either, are you still saved? I have not been baptized yet, although I made some effort to reach out a pastor/church. What should I do? The reality hasn't shifted at all, despite knowing a new religion and harboring a significant amount of love and appreciation for this..