Hi.
I just wanted to know if it is possible to be saved and not know it. My reason is that I constantly feel like I'm going to hell. I was born and raised as Christian. I read the Bible, go to church, pray to God, and believe Jesus is the savior. I've personally thought and said that Jesus is my savior with other people present and in my head. I was baptized this year in church. I'm supposed to be saved, right? I have even tried to eliminate all sin from my life. I haven't succeeded, but I have tried.
However, I still feel in my heart that I am going to hell. I feel like no one believes me and no one cares. I hear voices all day long and I constantly argue with them. The bad voice is constantly making bets and deals and I have to fight with him about these bets and deals constantly. The good voice keeps saying things like "What if Jesus still loves you?" I argue with him constantly too. I worry that the good voice is lying to me. The good voice has laughed at me too, so I worry that he is a liar.
If I'm saved, shouldn't I know it in my heart? Once I was saved, shouldn't I have stopped believing I'm going to hell? I really feel like there is no hope for me. Everyone says there is still hope, but I really feel hopeless inside. I really feel like my sin is too great to forgive. I really feel very guilty. I know Jesus is the only way to be forgiven, but I don't feel forgiven at all in my heart.
Is there anyone else out there that feels this way? Has anyone else tried everything in their power to be saved but still feels doomed? How can I start feeling like God loves me? I hear a voice all day long that laughs at me and condemns me, so how can I feel that God loves me in my heart? I guess I just need to read the Bible more or something. I've been reading through the whole New Testament lately, so I've been trying that. Maybe I need to reject the voice more than I have been doing. I usually just try to ignore things. I don't actively reject the voices. Nothing seems to help with the guilt. I listen to Christian music a lot too and that helps with the voices, but not with the guilt.
Anyway, thank you for reading this rant. I just want to find hope somehow.
Thanks,
SnowTiger
I just wanted to know if it is possible to be saved and not know it. My reason is that I constantly feel like I'm going to hell. I was born and raised as Christian. I read the Bible, go to church, pray to God, and believe Jesus is the savior. I've personally thought and said that Jesus is my savior with other people present and in my head. I was baptized this year in church. I'm supposed to be saved, right? I have even tried to eliminate all sin from my life. I haven't succeeded, but I have tried.
However, I still feel in my heart that I am going to hell. I feel like no one believes me and no one cares. I hear voices all day long and I constantly argue with them. The bad voice is constantly making bets and deals and I have to fight with him about these bets and deals constantly. The good voice keeps saying things like "What if Jesus still loves you?" I argue with him constantly too. I worry that the good voice is lying to me. The good voice has laughed at me too, so I worry that he is a liar.
If I'm saved, shouldn't I know it in my heart? Once I was saved, shouldn't I have stopped believing I'm going to hell? I really feel like there is no hope for me. Everyone says there is still hope, but I really feel hopeless inside. I really feel like my sin is too great to forgive. I really feel very guilty. I know Jesus is the only way to be forgiven, but I don't feel forgiven at all in my heart.
Is there anyone else out there that feels this way? Has anyone else tried everything in their power to be saved but still feels doomed? How can I start feeling like God loves me? I hear a voice all day long that laughs at me and condemns me, so how can I feel that God loves me in my heart? I guess I just need to read the Bible more or something. I've been reading through the whole New Testament lately, so I've been trying that. Maybe I need to reject the voice more than I have been doing. I usually just try to ignore things. I don't actively reject the voices. Nothing seems to help with the guilt. I listen to Christian music a lot too and that helps with the voices, but not with the guilt.
Anyway, thank you for reading this rant. I just want to find hope somehow.
Thanks,
SnowTiger