I feel like something is wrong with me, does God care that I’m sad?

Joslyn04 said:

To sum up the reason why I feel the way I do, it’s because I’m always being treated as if I’m beneath someone or not good enough. Some people treat me like absolute garbage and they seem so happy (I know they aren’t always as happy as they seem). I’m in 10th grade so kids my age are already mean. Meanwhile I really try my best to do the right thing and catch myself when I think wrong and try to do what God wants, but I’m constantly battling my mind. I feel very sad sometimes, downhearted and blue. It actually physically feels like my heart is down sometimes. I don’t mean to sound bratty or selfish, but nothing seems to go my way. I try everyday to have a positive attitude and today I did well, but I have random waves of sadness because I don’t feel like enough. It just doesn’t seem fair others are so cruel and seem to be living the life but, although I’m very thankful for what I have, my parents, and friends, I still feel stuck, gloomy, and lonely. I talk to my mom all the time but I want a change.

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This might be due to your age. But if you are feeling very low and depressed, seeing your doctor might be in order. Prayers for you.

Joslyn04 said:

To sum up the reason why I feel the way I do, it’s because I’m always being treated as if I’m beneath someone or not good enough. Some people treat me like absolute garbage and they seem so happy (I know they aren’t always as happy as they seem). I’m in 10th grade so kids my age are already mean. Meanwhile I really try my best to do the right thing and catch myself when I think wrong and try to do what God wants, but I’m constantly battling my mind. I feel very sad sometimes, downhearted and blue. It actually physically feels like my heart is down sometimes. I don’t mean to sound bratty or selfish, but nothing seems to go my way. I try everyday to have a positive attitude and today I did well, but I have random waves of sadness because I don’t feel like enough. It just doesn’t seem fair others are so cruel and seem to be living the life but, although I’m very thankful for what I have, my parents, and friends, I still feel stuck, gloomy, and lonely. I talk to my mom all the time but I want a change.

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I am sorry you're going through that. God really loves you and Jesus is always with you. We will never be enough, we all need Jesus. God bless you and Jesus is our Lord and Saviour.

Joslyn04 said:

To sum up the reason why I feel the way I do, it’s because I’m always being treated as if I’m beneath someone or not good enough. Some people treat me like absolute garbage and they seem so happy (I know they aren’t always as happy as they seem). I’m in 10th grade so kids my age are already mean. Meanwhile I really try my best to do the right thing and catch myself when I think wrong and try to do what God wants, but I’m constantly battling my mind. I feel very sad sometimes, downhearted and blue. It actually physically feels like my heart is down sometimes. I don’t mean to sound bratty or selfish, but nothing seems to go my way. I try everyday to have a positive attitude and today I did well, but I have random waves of sadness because I don’t feel like enough. It just doesn’t seem fair others are so cruel and seem to be living the life but, although I’m very thankful for what I have, my parents, and friends, I still feel stuck, gloomy, and lonely. I talk to my mom all the time but I want a change.

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Welcome!!
No doubt high school is quite a challenge. Believe me you will look back and understand that a building full of teenagers can be a recipe for disaster! You seem very insightful and quite mature so I think you are well on your way to rising above the drama, which really this is all it is! Drama!
Now self esteem is a whole other issue and really not related to what is going on around you but rather what is going on inside. It seems you have the loving support of your mother which is great. I had my mother as well when I was a mess in school. I think the best solution is to find "something" that you can call your own. You have talents that need to be tapped into. This will help with your self esteem. Pray for guidance with the power of the Holy Spirit. With Him, you will have strength and confidence and above all peace!
Be blessed.

Maria Billingsley said:

Welcome!!
No doubt high school is quite a challenge. Believe me you will look back and understand that a building full of teenagers can be a recipe for disaster! You seem very insightful and quite mature so I think you are well on your way to rising above the drama, which really this is all it is! Drama!
Now self esteem is a whole other issue and really not related to what is going on around you but rather what is going on inside. It seems you have the loving support of your mother which is great. I had my mother as well when I was a mess in school. I think the best solution is to find "something" that you can call your own. You have talents that need to be tapped into. This will help with your self esteem. Pray for guidance with the power of the Holy Spirit. With Him, you will have strength and confidence and above all peace!
Be blessed.

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Nailed it!

I was miserable at your age. My mother would only say, "Stop feeling sorry for yourself," or "Things will get better." Sometimes things got worse!

I imagine you've heard of John Walsh. His 6-year-old son, Adam, was murdered in 1981. Adam was abducted from a Sears department store at the Hollywood Mall in Hollywood, Florida, on July 27, 1981.

Sometimes our misery helps us decide to help others in the future.

John Walsh's son's kidnapping & murder led to his life's mission

I'm in the UK so I don't know how old you are. My daughter is 12 and is having a torrid time of high school. I keep telling her that although it seems a long time away she won't have to deal with the meaness of kids forever. As you get older there is more choice over who you allow in your life and where you work.

I hope you find a nice group of friends who notice your good qualities. You sound a lovely person, not in the least bratty. Keep leaning on the Lord for strength.

Isaiah 40:28-31

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To be honest, its just part of life. Especially at that age. The years, especially as a teen, are stressful, painful...etc. This said it doesn't mean God doesn't love you or care about you. These things will help to mold and change you as you grow. Just got to stay strong and know God has a plan.

Don't be like I was. I became a nasty person during those years. I hated God because I think He didn't care about me and that no one else did either. I spent nearly a decade+ being like this. WAsn't until I was older that I realized God was there the whole time and that that phase of life is just a hard phase.

As much as being an adult is hard at times, I'd rather be an adult then go back to those teen years.

Also whatever the kids pick on, just be proud of who YOU are. No one should control how you feel about yourself. God made you, you are special in His eyes. We all have imperfections and we just have to accept them. People will always find something to pick on. Those people that pick on you likely do so because they themselves hate who they are.

Pray for them, take pity on them. If they are not saved then all they know is anger and petty things like that.

Joslyn04 said:

To sum up the reason why I feel the way I do, it’s because I’m always being treated as if I’m beneath someone or not good enough. Some people treat me like absolute garbage and they seem so happy (I know they aren’t always as happy as they seem). I’m in 10th grade so kids my age are already mean. Meanwhile I really try my best to do the right thing and catch myself when I think wrong and try to do what God wants, but I’m constantly battling my mind. I feel very sad sometimes, downhearted and blue. It actually physically feels like my heart is down sometimes. I don’t mean to sound bratty or selfish, but nothing seems to go my way. I try everyday to have a positive attitude and today I did well, but I have random waves of sadness because I don’t feel like enough. It just doesn’t seem fair others are so cruel and seem to be living the life but, although I’m very thankful for what I have, my parents, and friends, I still feel stuck, gloomy, and lonely. I talk to my mom all the time but I want a change.

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Hi; Hebrews 12.2 encourages believers to keep 'looking unto Jesus'. (Read the chapter and see... )

Joslyn04 said:

I’m always being treated as if I’m beneath someone or not good enough.

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. . . not good enough in comparison with kids who do not know how to love. I would not be concerned about how you are in comparison with kids who do not know how to love!!

Joslyn04 said:

Some people treat me like absolute garbage and they seem so happy (I know they aren’t always as happy as they seem).

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So, you can see they are not happy; so it is certainly wise not to become acceptable to them. But be their example, and share with ones who know how to love and are your good example. The wrong ones can act up so they get the attention, and they can seem like the only ones around you. But there are quiet and patient and gentle and humble people of Jesus > we might not be exciting and loud and making a show, but love is better

Joslyn04 said:

To sum up the reason why I feel the way I do, it’s because I’m always being treated as if I’m beneath someone or not good enough. Some people treat me like absolute garbage and they seem so happy (I know they aren’t always as happy as they seem). I’m in 10th grade so kids my age are already mean. Meanwhile I really try my best to do the right thing and catch myself when I think wrong and try to do what God wants, but I’m constantly battling my mind. I feel very sad sometimes, downhearted and blue. It actually physically feels like my heart is down sometimes. I don’t mean to sound bratty or selfish, but nothing seems to go my way. I try everyday to have a positive attitude and today I did well, but I have random waves of sadness because I don’t feel like enough. It just doesn’t seem fair others are so cruel and seem to be living the life but, although I’m very thankful for what I have, my parents, and friends, I still feel stuck, gloomy, and lonely. I talk to my mom all the time but I want a change.

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When we get older we notice that many of the ones that we knew in our younger years that seemed to have it all together have fallen apart and some of the ones that seemed to be out of touch with no friends now have a great life with a pretty Christian wife.
Hang tight.
Things will probably change for you.
Keep sharing it all with God
that's what I did right before
he sent to me a little sweet wife.
M-Bob

The answer to both questions in the title is, "No."

There is nothing wrong with you. Everyone gets down sometimes.

The sad part is God expects you to "get over it". He will not help regardless. He doesn't care AT ALL how you feel about the situation. He expects you to smile and be happy with whatever he does in your life, especially the bad "because he has a plan for your life". If you don't like it and tell him so, he will put more of it on you, because you are "murmuring".

Joslyn04 said:

To sum up the reason why I feel the way I do, it’s because I’m always being treated as if I’m beneath someone or not good enough. Some people treat me like absolute garbage and they seem so happy (I know they aren’t always as happy as they seem). I’m in 10th grade so kids my age are already mean. Meanwhile I really try my best to do the right thing and catch myself when I think wrong and try to do what God wants, but I’m constantly battling my mind. I feel very sad sometimes, downhearted and blue. It actually physically feels like my heart is down sometimes. I don’t mean to sound bratty or selfish, but nothing seems to go my way. I try everyday to have a positive attitude and today I did well, but I have random waves of sadness because I don’t feel like enough. It just doesn’t seem fair others are so cruel and seem to be living the life but, although I’m very thankful for what I have, my parents, and friends, I still feel stuck, gloomy, and lonely. I talk to my mom all the time but I want a change.

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Thank you for reaching out. I remember how hard it was to find good friends at that age, actually I am much older now and it seems to still be hard. But I struggled with depression as a teen and that made it very hard for me to see myself in the way that God created me and I too felt stuck. Talking about it is so vital and journaling would be helpful. Do you have a youth leader, pastor or mentor you can talk to about what you are feeling? They might have ideas on how you can get out of the valley. I know exercise, service, counseling, and even music can have a helpful effect. I am praying for you. -Rachel

Getting into activities may help if you are not already doing some active thing like that in school. Can't guarantee you won't face dismay and be readily accepted there, but in very active groups, like plays, band, sports, etc. the focus is on what you are doing not on how unkind people relate to you. It is a good way to build a supportive system of friends who like what you like. And it is sure good your mom listens to you. And, as you likely know God loves you exactly just the way you are. I am guessing this is something that you will look back on in time and see some positive lights did exist in your journey. Prayers for you.