First:
1 John 1:9 KJV — If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Psalm 32:5 KJV — I acknowledged my sin unto thee, and mine iniquity have I not hid. I said, I will confess my transgressions unto the LORD; and thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin. Selah.
Pray and ask God to have mercy on you and help you out of your situation. If you have truly repented, he will come through.
Lord bless Zhen and this prayer request, remove negative thoughts and bless with your thoughts, grace and protection. Please bless. In Jesus gracious name, Amen!