Hi. I am a recovered believer in Jesus Christ. I still battle with depression. I have been married to my wife for 3 years this July and have been with her for 7 years now.
My wife is Bipolar and currently struggling health wise. It is taking its toll on me and her both. I am part of Celebrate Recovery and been attending for 2 years. The thoughts that cross my head are we had friends and were friends with other couples before we came to Christ. Now we do not have any real friends at all that are their for us.
We try to attend marriage life groups and talk to other couples but nothing ever comes of it with people our own age. We do occasionally spend time with one couple, but they are old enough to be our parents and to date since 2015, have been the only couple who have invited us to do stuff and have accepted our invitation.
In my side I have attended many mens breakfasts and tried to exchange my numbers but it goes no where, compared to when I was secular I had no problem making friends or finding guys to work on music with or just hang out with, and the times I have extended friendship by coffee or buying lunch, it is a one time deal, they say we will do it again but never call back or do not have time.
Tonight I was in a very dark place, opened up to one of the Celebrate Recovery leaders and was ignored and prior I put a prayer request on our text group and was completely ignored to announce somebody's birthday.
I am not one to really discuss my heart with people, so it's not like it's even a bi annual crisis conference call I give.
I'm just getting feigned with hearing me called a brother then when I am going off into the deep, everybody is so busy but yet organized out reach is so encouraged but when one is drifting from within, it's like its nothing.
In March 2018 I was so broken and giving up and just wanted to die, nobody at that CR Meeting reached out to me or even cared to follow up, never asked for my number then I see prayer circles go on just because somebody is tempted to use a prescription of vicodin, mean while seeing truly hurt people, not even talking about me, slip through the cracks...
I just want to see these friendships in my life that I hear all these men boast about in their testimony.
In 2007 I became a satanist because all the stuff like this I have seen...
Please pray for me!!!
My wife is Bipolar and currently struggling health wise. It is taking its toll on me and her both. I am part of Celebrate Recovery and been attending for 2 years. The thoughts that cross my head are we had friends and were friends with other couples before we came to Christ. Now we do not have any real friends at all that are their for us.
We try to attend marriage life groups and talk to other couples but nothing ever comes of it with people our own age. We do occasionally spend time with one couple, but they are old enough to be our parents and to date since 2015, have been the only couple who have invited us to do stuff and have accepted our invitation.
In my side I have attended many mens breakfasts and tried to exchange my numbers but it goes no where, compared to when I was secular I had no problem making friends or finding guys to work on music with or just hang out with, and the times I have extended friendship by coffee or buying lunch, it is a one time deal, they say we will do it again but never call back or do not have time.
Tonight I was in a very dark place, opened up to one of the Celebrate Recovery leaders and was ignored and prior I put a prayer request on our text group and was completely ignored to announce somebody's birthday.
I am not one to really discuss my heart with people, so it's not like it's even a bi annual crisis conference call I give.
I'm just getting feigned with hearing me called a brother then when I am going off into the deep, everybody is so busy but yet organized out reach is so encouraged but when one is drifting from within, it's like its nothing.
In March 2018 I was so broken and giving up and just wanted to die, nobody at that CR Meeting reached out to me or even cared to follow up, never asked for my number then I see prayer circles go on just because somebody is tempted to use a prescription of vicodin, mean while seeing truly hurt people, not even talking about me, slip through the cracks...
I just want to see these friendships in my life that I hear all these men boast about in their testimony.
In 2007 I became a satanist because all the stuff like this I have seen...
Please pray for me!!!
