I am worried

I am worried that I dreamed:hallucinated the Mark of the Beast there was a talking cross in my shower and door and I thought it was Jesus my mental illness told me to bow now I am scared I offended Jesus. It was an accident that I didn't mean to do and I would never worship Satan in my right mind.

I would never hurt Jesus in my right mind but brain got confused in my dream is God really going to hold a mentally ill person responsible for a dream I didnt mean to dream I saw the psych doctor and people tell me they see the love of the Lord in my life and I trust them and I want to believe them.

I am truly struggling with this dream/hallucination it feels so I real to me. I am so worried that I am going to be left behind for an errant thought/dream it happened so fast to my brain and I could'nt stop it in time the yellow cross feels so real and everyone me tells me it isn't real and I am not sure why I am suffering.

I truly love God and my heart is breaking right now it is sad thinking I lost God for a dream/hallucination out of my control. I just don't know why I bowed it was purely mental illness does God know that? Is he going to hold me eternally reponsible for an accident the thought scares me.

Gracia Singh said:

God knows you have troubles. It's ok. He's not angry with you over that. He loves you.

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Thanks Gracia

Tolworth John said:

May I suggest that you type out the words of John3:16 replacing who ever etc with your name and Romans 8:38 where it say I am certain that Nothing in All creation can separete Sports fan from the love of God.

Print them out and stick them on the frame of your computer screen, next to the mirror in your bath room and where you will see them as you go through doors in your house.

Read them, memorise them and above all believe them more than your mental illness.

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Thanks Tolworth for the suggestion.