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I have consistently been confused and holding on for dear life. I have given my confusion to God so many times over the last 6 months, but, he still isn’t helping me to clear this confusion or explain how to do ‘this’
I’ll give a very short summary. God came to get me 19 yrs ago and for the last 19 yrs, God has fed me w/ feelings 24/7 and I had experienced, ‘changes’ within myself as I had come to know as tests. My first test was in 2015. At the end of that, he gave me a lifted feeling which I had 24/7 for 4 yrs. I’ve gone thru 3 hard spiritual tests/changes in 2019. This latest one has lasted 5 weeks where he’s been ‘changing’ me inwardly but he’s taking all feelings away.
This morning I woke up, and I’m assuming the test is over, however, I feel spiritually weak and defeated. I cried out to God before asking him what am I supposed to do and how am I supposed to do this. Was met by silence.
I am literally confused as to how to stay faithful by praying at night and in the morning and just do whatever needs to be done during the day and stay faithful. My mind is totally confused and I’ve asked God over and over again to remove this confusion and to help me understand how to stay faithful w/o feeling anything and now this today. Overly confused, no more changes and I’m 100% stuck.
I’ll give a very short summary. God came to get me 19 yrs ago and for the last 19 yrs, God has fed me w/ feelings 24/7 and I had experienced, ‘changes’ within myself as I had come to know as tests. My first test was in 2015. At the end of that, he gave me a lifted feeling which I had 24/7 for 4 yrs. I’ve gone thru 3 hard spiritual tests/changes in 2019. This latest one has lasted 5 weeks where he’s been ‘changing’ me inwardly but he’s taking all feelings away.
This morning I woke up, and I’m assuming the test is over, however, I feel spiritually weak and defeated. I cried out to God before asking him what am I supposed to do and how am I supposed to do this. Was met by silence.
I am literally confused as to how to stay faithful by praying at night and in the morning and just do whatever needs to be done during the day and stay faithful. My mind is totally confused and I’ve asked God over and over again to remove this confusion and to help me understand how to stay faithful w/o feeling anything and now this today. Overly confused, no more changes and I’m 100% stuck.