Help ><

Zhen · Jan 1, 2020

Hello...

i just realized how grave my sins in the past were. i was blind up till recently, and i just realized how worthy of death my sins were, and im very frightened.

im afraid that God will kill me and my family and send us to hell.

i abandoned God for a guy, coveted the guy, turned to astrology and online tarot, thought the devil was god and prayed to it for a time, thought i was God and misused His name and word and spread false information about God to two of His people, terrorized them, wanted to destroy them, and used the authority of God to get back at them and oppress them

All these happened when i was under the influence of astrology and believed lies, and when i was angry that the two of them hurt me, lied to me, used me and betrayed me.

i did a lot of wrong things to them and could not let them off. God showed me later on that i turned them away from Him, caused them to rebel against Him and misled them down the path of destruction...
that because of this God would cause them to want to destroy me and my family.

from then on i begun seeing scary words like death, funeral, pay, justice, destroy, and also my family’s and my birthdates and bad things.

the two of them turned to sorcery and have refused to turn back to God.

i also almost died early last year, but i heard God tell me that He would give me another chance. I got better for a while but still had a hard time submitting to God and doing what He told me to do, including making peace with the two people, and doing things to bring them back to Him.

I had little faith and my flesh kept me from obeying God.

because of my disobedience and because i kept following the wrong voices such as astrology, i ended up making more mistakes.

to make things worse, i even rejected Christ and God before, and am scared of returning to God fully for fear of what God might want me to do, or for fear of persecution, which i experienced before and got scarred by.

i also have resentment towards God for bullying that i have experienced in the past.

my relationship with God is really bad and i feel like God is very angry with me and wants to destroy me and my family for our sins against Him and His people. Help

When i beg God to not destroy us i see an image of a sermon cd. i think that God might want me to use it to bring the guy and girl i turned away from Him who are on the path to destruction back to Him, but my faith is very weak now and i know i find it very hard to do that. especially since my relationship with the guy and girl is very bad, and they hate me, and there are things they want to hide that make it hard for me to be open with them. They are also doing sorcery. I am frightened ><

Yet I am afraid that if i don’t obey God bad things may happen

Helpppp ><

brinny · Jan 1, 2020

Zhen said:
Hello...

i just realized how grave my sins in the past were. i was blind up till recently, and i just realized how worthy of death my sins were, and im very frightened.

im afraid that God will kill me and my family and send us to hell.

i abandoned God for a guy, coveted the guy, turned to astrology and online tarot, thought the devil was god and prayed to it for a time, thought i was God and misused His name and word and spread false information about God to two of His people, terrorized them, wanted to destroy them, and used the authority of God to get back at them and oppress them All these happened when i was under the influence of astrology and believed lies, and when i was angry that the two of them hurt me, lied to me, used me and betrayed me.

i did a lot of wrong things to them and could not let them off. God showed me later on that i turned them away from Him, caused them to rebel against Him and misled them down the path of destruction...
that because of this God would cause them to want to destroy me and my family.

from then on i begun seeing scary words like death, funeral, pay, justice, destroy, and also my family’s and my birthdates and bad things.

the two of them turned to sorcery and have refused to turn back to God.

i also almost died early last year, but i heard God tell me that He would give me another chance. I got better for a while but still had a hard time submitting to God and doing what He told me to do, including making peace with the two people, and doing things to bring them back to Him.

I had little faith and my flesh kept me from obeying God.

because of my disobedience and because i kept following the wrong voices such as astrology, i ended up making more mistakes.

to make things worse, i even rejected Christ and God before, and am scared of returning to God fully for fear of what God might want me to do, or for fear of persecution, which i experienced before and got scarred by.

i also have resentment towards God for bullying that i have experienced in the past.

my relationship with God is really bad and i feel like God is very angry with me and wants to destroy me and my family for our sins against Him and His people. Help

When i beg God to not destroy us i see an image of a sermon cd. i think that God might want me to use it to bring the guy and girl i turned away from Him who are on the path to destruction back to Him, but my faith is very weak now and i know i find it very hard to do that. especially since my relationship with the guy and girl is very bad, and they hate me, and there are things they want to hide that make it hard for me to be open with them. They are also doing sorcery. I am frightened ><

Yet I am afraid that if i don’t obey God bad things may happen Helpppp ><

Praying, Zhen. (((hug)))

mkdrive2 · Jan 1, 2020

Zhen said:
When i beg God to not destroy us i see an image of a sermon cd. i think that God might want me to use it to bring the guy and girl i turned away from Him who are on the path to destruction back to Him, but my faith is very weak now and i know i find it very hard to do that. especially since my relationship with the guy and girl is very bad,

I do not think you need to get them back to being Christians. In my opinion you are jumping from one superstition to the next. God does not throw around with signs, and anything you think is a sign from God that shows his anger towards you is a false sign. God is not angry with you. Rather, he is happy that you are willing to return to him. Remember the story of the prodigal son.

I would advice you to do the following:
1) Stop feeling guilty for anything you have done in the past. Stop trying to reverse mistakes you did in the past. You are not almighty. Only God is. Ask God for forgiveness, and know that he has forgiven you. Know that from that time on you can forgive yourself.

2) Stop being superstitious. Stop looking for signs from anything supernatural. Stop looking from signs in astrology or God. There will only be false signs that mislead you. Get used to the silence.

3) Stay away from the girl and the guy who turned to sorcery. You are not the one who made them this way.

brinny · Jan 1, 2020

Zhen, this song (especially the lyrics) have ministered to me this morning. I pray they minister to you as well. May God intervene on this new years day (symbolic of "new beginnings" and that His mercies are re-newed each morning), and permeate your heart, your mind, your soul with His grace, His mercy, and obliterate all that is not of Him, and grant you healing and peace, as He enables you to, as the lyrics say: "wear forgiveness like a crown". Father may it be so, in Jesus name, amen. (((hug)))

Zhen · Jan 1, 2020

mkdrive2 said:
I do not think you need to get them back to being Christians. In my opinion you are jumping from one superstition to the next. God does not throw around with signs, and anything you think is a sign from God that shows his anger towards you is a false sign. God is not angry with you. Rather, he is happy that you are willing to return to him. Remember the story of the prodigal son.

I would advice you to do the following:
1) Stop feeling guilty for anything you have done in the past. Stop trying to reverse mistakes you did in the past. You are not almighty. Only God is. Ask God for forgiveness, and know that he has forgiven you. Know that from that time on you can forgive yourself.

2) Stop being superstitious. Stop looking for signs from anything supernatural. Stop looking from signs in astrology or God. There will only be false signs that mislead you. Get used to the silence.

3) Stay away from the girl and the guy who turned to sorcery. You are not the one who made them this way.

when i turned to God He showed me that the girl would abort her baby and jump under the influence of the evil one.

i then kind of saw to send some baby item and a sermon cd to her dad to bring her back to Him. but i wasn’t sure and had other issues so i have not sent the things yet but im afraid that God might destroy my mom if i don’t or make me hurt my mom cos i didnt obey Him and help the girl stop aborting her child thru God’s way.

is God really so cruel??? ><

FanthatSpark · Jan 1, 2020

Mind set...

How often does the mind visit above testimony.
If a mind is in judgment of self , the mind is in fear (as written above, and written in the Word). Most of us start in fear of sin.

Just realized <statement. Places ,playgrounds and friends must change to equip the mind to "know" how great grace is. This in turn, by sincere effort of self, to return or desire to know Agape from without to place it within a soul,mind & body results in
1 John 4:18 manifested in you/us Seeking to save your followed & followers unequipped in mind set is ill advised.

That is said under assumption the above testimony in thoughts of the mind resurface in judgment with no sincere effort to equip through God.
Forgive self as God already did and learn/equip the mind in love.

Remember for inspiration, some authors of the Word went through the valley too :oldthumbsup:

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Zhen · Jan 1, 2020

brinny said:
Zhen, this song (especially the lyrics) have ministered to me this morning. I pray they minister to you as well. May God intervene on this new years day (symbolic of "new beginnings" and that His mercies are re-newed each morning), and permeate your heart, your mind, your soul with His grace, His mercy, and obliterate all that is not of Him, and grant you healing and peace, as He enables you to, as the lyrics say: "wear forgiveness like a crown". Father may it be so, in Jesus name, amen. (((hug)))

amen thank you my dearest Brinny!

*hug*

btw may I know if God is a God who would hurt my mom or make me hurt my mom cos i didn’t do what He told me to do to bring the girl back to Him and that girl ends up aborting her child and even (hopefully not) jumps under the influence of the evil one (like i think Gid showed me in the past when I sought Him out)?

brinny · Jan 1, 2020

Zhen said:
amen thank you my dearest Brinny!

*hug*

btw may I know if God is a God who would hurt my mom or make me hurt my mom cos i didn’t do what He told me to do to bring the girl back to Him and that girl ends up aborting her child and even (hopefully not) jumps under the influence of the evil one (like i think Gid showed me in the past when I sought Him out)?

God longs to bring ALL of us to HIM, even our family and friends and others who are far from Him and may express a hatred for Him or an indifference.

WE can NOT control what others do. There is a "healthy" boundary called "detachment" that brings "sanity" to us (and others) as we detach from what is toxic, and thus become "healthier" ourselves, and thus those around or involved with us have more of a chance of becoming "healthier" themselves, by God's inexplicable grace.

As a very wise woman has said "Sometimes I need to love others from a distance". It means "letting go", and "letting God". We MUST strive to be "healthy" ourselves and therefore detach from all that is toxic (including loved ones) so that we CAN help and love them, but in a HEALTHY way.

In addition, we are NOT responsible for their decisions nor their tragedies. Only GOD has control and can intervene, not "us".

We learn to pour it ALL out to God, and to leave it ALL there, with HIM.

PRAY to Him. In the meantime, i stand WITH you in prayer. Remember WHO you are. And that is a daughter of the Most High God. Let God raise beauty from ashes, as HE has done with me and so many others of His daughters.

Praying, Zhen. (((hug)))

brinny · Jan 1, 2020

Zhen, God, our Father, loved you before you were even born. (((hug)))

He hears you.
He sees you.
He loves you.
He surely has paved a future and a hope before you.

"When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up." ~Ps 27:10

brinny · Jan 1, 2020

Zhen, may our Father guide your heart, mind, and soul straight to His plan for you, which includes a heart and mind full to overflowing, described in these lyrics, and that is, a joyful and thus a thankful to overflowing heart, as He heals you as only He can do, as HE teaches you to "leave the rest of those that burden you", to HIM. Father may it be so, in Jesus name, amen. (((hug)))

mkdrive2 · Jan 1, 2020

Zhen said:
when i turned to God He showed me that the girl would abort her baby and jump under the influence of the evil one.

i then kind of saw to send some baby item and a sermon cd to her dad to bring her back to Him.

When you do things, do not think about what God might have told you. Try to think what might be good for the girl. Will it help the girl when you send the sermon CD to her father? What is your relationship to the girl and her father? If you are not close, don't be a busybody. Nothing is worse than a crazy Christian meddling in things.

Rescued One · Jan 1, 2020

God has more power over others than you do. You must ask His forgiveness and continue to follow God.

Isaiah 1 KJV
16 Wash you, make you clean; put away the evil of your doings from before mine eyes; cease to do evil;
17 Learn to do well; seek judgment, relieve the oppressed, judge the fatherless, plead for the widow.
18 Come now, and let us reason together, saith the LORD: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.

John 7 KJV
24 Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment.

If KJV is difficult for you, read NIV.

Maria Billingsley · Jan 1, 2020

Zhen said:
Hello...

i just realized how grave my sins in the past were. i was blind up till recently, and i just realized how worthy of death my sins were, and im very frightened.

im afraid that God will kill me and my family and send us to hell.

i abandoned God for a guy, coveted the guy, turned to astrology and online tarot, thought the devil was god and prayed to it for a time, thought i was God and misused His name and word and spread false information about God to two of His people, terrorized them, wanted to destroy them, and used the authority of God to get back at them and oppress them All these happened when i was under the influence of astrology and believed lies, and when i was angry that the two of them hurt me, lied to me, used me and betrayed me.

i did a lot of wrong things to them and could not let them off. God showed me later on that i turned them away from Him, caused them to rebel against Him and misled them down the path of destruction...
that because of this God would cause them to want to destroy me and my family.

from then on i begun seeing scary words like death, funeral, pay, justice, destroy, and also my family’s and my birthdates and bad things.

the two of them turned to sorcery and have refused to turn back to God.

i also almost died early last year, but i heard God tell me that He would give me another chance. I got better for a while but still had a hard time submitting to God and doing what He told me to do, including making peace with the two people, and doing things to bring them back to Him.

I had little faith and my flesh kept me from obeying God.

because of my disobedience and because i kept following the wrong voices such as astrology, i ended up making more mistakes.

to make things worse, i even rejected Christ and God before, and am scared of returning to God fully for fear of what God might want me to do, or for fear of persecution, which i experienced before and got scarred by.

i also have resentment towards God for bullying that i have experienced in the past.

my relationship with God is really bad and i feel like God is very angry with me and wants to destroy me and my family for our sins against Him and His people. Help

When i beg God to not destroy us i see an image of a sermon cd. i think that God might want me to use it to bring the guy and girl i turned away from Him who are on the path to destruction back to Him, but my faith is very weak now and i know i find it very hard to do that. especially since my relationship with the guy and girl is very bad, and they hate me, and there are things they want to hide that make it hard for me to be open with them. They are also doing sorcery. I am frightened ><

Yet I am afraid that if i don’t obey God bad things may happen Helpppp ><

17 Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness in the day of judgment; because as He is, so are we in this world. 18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. 19 We love Him because He first loved us.
1 John 4

Zhen-Be made perfect in His love. He loves you and your family. Rest in His perfect love for you.

Zhen · Jan 2, 2020

brinny said:
Zhen, this song (especially the lyrics) have ministered to me this morning. I pray they minister to you as well. May God intervene on this new years day (symbolic of "new beginnings" and that His mercies are re-newed each morning), and permeate your heart, your mind, your soul with His grace, His mercy, and obliterate all that is not of Him, and grant you healing and peace, as He enables you to, as the lyrics say: "wear forgiveness like a crown". Father may it be so, in Jesus name, amen. (((hug)))

Brinny >< i keep seeing that my sister and mom will die >< its really distressing ><

brinny · Jan 2, 2020

Zhen said:
Brinny >< i keep seeing that my sister and mom will die >< its really distressing ><

PRAY about this. Praying WITH you, Zhen. (((hug)))

Reborn1977 · Jan 2, 2020

I am only going to reply to one small portion of this original posting.
The following....

Zhen said:
i also have resentment towards God for bullying that i have experienced in the past.

When we become angry, which many of us do at times, because something bad happens to us or something unjust is done to us, at its core our anger with God is born out of pride. The pride that makes us believe that for some reason God was required to or it was expected of God to protect us from said thing happening to us.

Who are we that we should think it should not be us, not happen to us, that we are above going through x,y, or z experience. Pride is slippery and deceptive, it can be found in so many areas of our life, our thinking, and our behavior.

Zhen · Jan 3, 2020

brinny said:
PRAY about this. Praying WITH you, Zhen. (((hug)))

um i don’t really know how to pray ><><
btw Brinny i came across the following
ICARE : "O daughter of Zion"

and i fear this might happen to me and my family ><

i have been seeing words like war, perish, forgotten, and God has also shown me that the guy and girl who have turned to sorcery are cruel, merciless and powerful (cos theyre using the devils power now ><) and that they have been trying to destroy me and my family ><
i have been seeing all these signs like my family’s birthdays and bad words...

how

i really don’t want anything bad to happen to me and my family ><

brinny · Jan 3, 2020

"Praying" is lifting all that you mentioned up to GOD, just as you posted in this thread.

Praying. (((hug)))

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