So I think GOD gave me absolution this morning.

I think absolution is a divine pardon for sins committed. For that I am thankful to GOD for.

I made him a small altar of some sort? Its actually my dresser, I decorated it with things I got from Wal Mart that I thought were pretty (so who does not like pretty things? Maybe because I am a girl?). I was thinking of doing sacrifices on it, but would that actually be barbaric? In the Old testament GOD required animal sacrifices as a payment for sin. I was wanting to offer him some sacrifices voluntarily of my own free will. I was so thankful for absolution this morning that I wanted to offer him a thank offering. Of my own free will, but I think that would take candles, charcoal, fire, etc, supplies that I do not have.

Are there also laws in place banning sacrifice? I just wanted to know.

So what is the requirement for that? In the Bible, it was white lambs without blemish and spot, or a red cow. There is something interesting about red cows in that they are so very rare to get hands on these days that I wonder why GOD ever required them in the first place! Maybe they were more prevalent in ancient times when a lot of sacrifice to GOD was actually done.

Over and over again I have asked Jesus to come into my heart and save me from my sins, but it seems that he is not talking to me for some reason? I pray to HIM all the time asking for salvation and conversion, but nothing seems to be happening to me? I really want to go to Heaven when I die you guys, please pray that Jesus will return to me and save me, that he has not forsook me or abandoned me.

I have also prayed for the Holy Spirit as it says in the Bible, but still nothing? Nothing about me has changed? Are not believers like me are supposed to get the Holy Spirit dwelling inside of us when we believe? Because I have believed, but I don't really feel a change to my person. So is that Bible doctrine actually incorrect?

I think GOD gave me absolution from my sins, which I am grateful for.

I know that the Bible says that no one can be holy without Christs' intervention. So I have been praying for a long time that HE would save me, but I don't seem to be getting any answers. So why is GOD not talking to me?

You know I got a tract from the church office and it said to put my faith and trust in Jesus Christ as my personal lord and savior so I could go to Heaven and I did do that. But ever since I started doing that I seem to be attacked by demons? Please pray they would leave me alone you guys?

To describe the attack by the forces of evil, they try to take possession of my body and make me suffer and feel pain of all sorts and lack of emotion, or controlled emotion. This actually might be full demonic possession but I don't know any exorcists who can possibly cast them out. It actually feels very weird. I am worried that if I am being possessed by demons then this means I am not really saved after all? Then how can get saved? Because I desire to be saved, all the time. Some of them have actually tried to get me to feel fear and terror. I don't think fear and terror are of the LORD. I don't see anywhere in the Bible where that is Scriptural, it actually says that GOD gives the believer like me a sound mind and the spirit of love? What do you guys think? I am not really that disturbed of a person, I was wondering if my sense of peace is from the LORD? Because peace is of GOD, right?

I really do have faith you guys, but GOD has not responded to it? What do you guys think?

So I have prayed all the time, "Please Jesus, make me more like you in heart and character." But nothing seems to be happening? Is GOD not listening to me by making me more Christlike like I asked? Because I was hoping that with the indwelling of the Holly Spirit I could be conformed more to HIS image and character, but nothing seems to be happening you guys. Does this mean I don't have the Holy Spirit after all? If so, how can I get the Holy Spirit? My prayers to GOD seem to be falling on deaf ears. I do want to change but GOD does not seem to be helping me to change at all. I know that people cannot change without HIS help, so there is actually a need there. Did I do the right thing by praying about it?