First of all I want to say that I had previously posted a partial testimony only to erase it in fear that people would think I was insane. Well I have since realized I am not afraid of that. In fact I could care less of what people think, I just care what God thinks of me. So I have decided to post this.
About fifteen years ago. It started with sleep paralysis while living in sin. I won't go too far into that part of it but I will say that I believe sleep paralysis very demonic. I was surrounded by the darkness. It was terrifying.
Well one night I have had enough of sin. I had a moment of serious repentance and wanted to get my life on track. I started to pray to God in my bed. I was not a Christian but I believed that there was a God, be it Buddha, Yahweh, Hindu Gods, Spaghetti Monster or whatever. I honestly thought that Christianity was the least likely of all of the religions to be true. Well as I prayed I started to hear voices answering me. Well not in the ears but in the mind. Absolute clear voices. I was astonished. We had dialog. I was asking these two voices about the spirit world etc. They were answering me but there was a sinister vibration about them. They seemed friendly but I knew they were evil. I learned that I had some spiritual discernment at that moment.
During this dialog there was a dark emptiness in air. I could feel the hatred of me from these seemingly friendly voices, both male. Well the whole feel of the situation started to change. I felt something very good approaching. I started to see these blue crystals appearing with my eyes closed. They were folding outward towards me like they were growing. Almost rolling.
Then I hear one of the voices say "What is he doing here?" and the other voice said "I don't know". I suddenly knew and said "God is here". Those two voices were now completely gone, they fled.
I hear my name called. Then I hear it again and I know the voice. It is Christ Jesus. He doesn't announce who he is, there is no need to. He begins to speak and I feel a love that is absolutely overwhelming. I mean absolutely overwhelming, like nothing I have ever felt before in my life. A love that you never want to leave. A love that you want to feel every second of eternity, for ever and ever. And the most incredible part to me is that I feel like I know him, and he knows me. Like from before I was born or something. I'm astounded at this.
So he calls my name twice and I answer..."Yes?". He says "You have sinned against the Lord". I hang my head in shame. In fact I feel like the lowest form of life on earth at this moment. Completely unworthy to be in his presence. But keep in mind during this I feel this love from him. A love unimaginable. "You have sinned against the Lord". I don't have to ask what my sin was. I have too many to count. I don't even question it.
"You have three choices" he says. "You can die, go to prison or live with pain, extreme pain. But I will be with you and will bless you and many people will come to the Lord through you".
I choose option three.
Well here I am today, living with extreme pain. I am no preacher. No one has come to the Lord through me as far as I know. I am an introverted person. I am a baptized Christian now and love the word of God. I am now attending a church regularly. I don't really know anyone there besides the Pastor who baptized me and a few people I have met there.
I am in the word everyday, devouring it every chance I get. I don't know what Gods plans are for me but the pain sure has came true.
I expect that people will bash this thread and I don't care. I think it's important to share what happened to me. I don't care if 99.9% of people don't believe it. The 00.1% that does is the one God wants me to reach I assume.
And I apologize to the people that I blocked from messaging me before. I had a moment of fear. Well that's no longer the case. Anyway thats my story. Good Day and God Bless!
About fifteen years ago. It started with sleep paralysis while living in sin. I won't go too far into that part of it but I will say that I believe sleep paralysis very demonic. I was surrounded by the darkness. It was terrifying.
Well one night I have had enough of sin. I had a moment of serious repentance and wanted to get my life on track. I started to pray to God in my bed. I was not a Christian but I believed that there was a God, be it Buddha, Yahweh, Hindu Gods, Spaghetti Monster or whatever. I honestly thought that Christianity was the least likely of all of the religions to be true. Well as I prayed I started to hear voices answering me. Well not in the ears but in the mind. Absolute clear voices. I was astonished. We had dialog. I was asking these two voices about the spirit world etc. They were answering me but there was a sinister vibration about them. They seemed friendly but I knew they were evil. I learned that I had some spiritual discernment at that moment.
During this dialog there was a dark emptiness in air. I could feel the hatred of me from these seemingly friendly voices, both male. Well the whole feel of the situation started to change. I felt something very good approaching. I started to see these blue crystals appearing with my eyes closed. They were folding outward towards me like they were growing. Almost rolling.
Then I hear one of the voices say "What is he doing here?" and the other voice said "I don't know". I suddenly knew and said "God is here". Those two voices were now completely gone, they fled.
I hear my name called. Then I hear it again and I know the voice. It is Christ Jesus. He doesn't announce who he is, there is no need to. He begins to speak and I feel a love that is absolutely overwhelming. I mean absolutely overwhelming, like nothing I have ever felt before in my life. A love that you never want to leave. A love that you want to feel every second of eternity, for ever and ever. And the most incredible part to me is that I feel like I know him, and he knows me. Like from before I was born or something. I'm astounded at this.
So he calls my name twice and I answer..."Yes?". He says "You have sinned against the Lord". I hang my head in shame. In fact I feel like the lowest form of life on earth at this moment. Completely unworthy to be in his presence. But keep in mind during this I feel this love from him. A love unimaginable. "You have sinned against the Lord". I don't have to ask what my sin was. I have too many to count. I don't even question it.
"You have three choices" he says. "You can die, go to prison or live with pain, extreme pain. But I will be with you and will bless you and many people will come to the Lord through you".
I choose option three.
Well here I am today, living with extreme pain. I am no preacher. No one has come to the Lord through me as far as I know. I am an introverted person. I am a baptized Christian now and love the word of God. I am now attending a church regularly. I don't really know anyone there besides the Pastor who baptized me and a few people I have met there.
I am in the word everyday, devouring it every chance I get. I don't know what Gods plans are for me but the pain sure has came true.
I expect that people will bash this thread and I don't care. I think it's important to share what happened to me. I don't care if 99.9% of people don't believe it. The 00.1% that does is the one God wants me to reach I assume.
And I apologize to the people that I blocked from messaging me before. I had a moment of fear. Well that's no longer the case. Anyway thats my story. Good Day and God Bless!
