I was in a car accident yesterday

Searching_for_God said:

I really don't want to talk about this, but at the same time, I want to talk about this all too much. I guess it's just the shame I'm feeling right now that's making me feel reluctant to speak about this. But I need to talk about this. I can't keep this in.

Yesterday I dinged my car on the side of someone else's. I didn't see her car and when I did, I meant to hit the brakes, but instead I hit the gas pedal. And I hit her tire.

She was so angry at me, and I can't get her fury or what she said out of my head. I keep replaying the incident in my head over and over and I just feel so bad. No matter how much I said I was sorry, it didn't make the situation any better. I feel like an actual idiot and many other words that wouldn't be appropriate to say on here. It was all my fault for not seeing her car.

This is my first ever incident with a car, so I'm still shaken up about it. And what makes it worse is that I had to go to work directly after swapping my information with the lady. I was in tears all day, my head hurt, I got a cut on my finger, and I puked twice that day. I couldn't get to sleep fast enough.

Nobody got hurt in the car accident. We're both okay, but the shame and bad feelings still remain for me. It was so bad that my mind actively tried to repress the incident the same day that it happened.

I wonder what my grandparents are going to say. They're out of town right now and they still don't know. I told my aunt, though, and she said it would all be okay. I still can't forgive myself for what happened, though. I was already on thin ice with my emotional health once this happened, so now I'm starting to think of what ways I can "pay" for what I did. Most of the thoughts involve me hurting myself physically. I know that will make nothing better, but I feel like I need to suffer for what I did. I made that lady so angry and ruined her day. I deserve to be punished.

I'm really trying to resist hurting myself or doing anything worse to myself. Please pray for me. I need all of the help that I can get.

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Searching_for_God said:

I'm really trying to resist hurting myself or doing anything worse to myself.

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Searching_for_God said:

I really don't want to talk about this, but at the same time, I want to talk about this all too much. I guess it's just the shame I'm feeling right now that's making me feel reluctant to speak about this. But I need to talk about this. I can't keep this in.

Yesterday I dinged my car on the side of someone else's. I didn't see her car and when I did, I meant to hit the brakes, but instead I hit the gas pedal. And I hit her tire.

She was so angry at me, and I can't get her fury or what she said out of my head. I keep replaying the incident in my head over and over and I just feel so bad. No matter how much I said I was sorry, it didn't make the situation any better. I feel like an actual idiot and many other words that wouldn't be appropriate to say on here. It was all my fault for not seeing her car.

This is my first ever incident with a car, so I'm still shaken up about it. And what makes it worse is that I had to go to work directly after swapping my information with the lady. I was in tears all day, my head hurt, I got a cut on my finger, and I puked twice that day. I couldn't get to sleep fast enough.

Nobody got hurt in the car accident. We're both okay, but the shame and bad feelings still remain for me. It was so bad that my mind actively tried to repress the incident the same day that it happened.

I wonder what my grandparents are going to say. They're out of town right now and they still don't know. I told my aunt, though, and she said it would all be okay. I still can't forgive myself for what happened, though. I was already on thin ice with my emotional health once this happened, so now I'm starting to think of what ways I can "pay" for what I did. Most of the thoughts involve me hurting myself physically. I know that will make nothing better, but I feel like I need to suffer for what I did. I made that lady so angry and ruined her day. I deserve to be punished.

I'm really trying to resist hurting myself or doing anything worse to myself. Please pray for me. I need all of the help that I can get.

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Searching_for_God said:

I really don't want to talk about this, but at the same time, I want to talk about this all too much. I guess it's just the shame I'm feeling right now that's making me feel reluctant to speak about this. But I need to talk about this. I can't keep this in.

Yesterday I dinged my car on the side of someone else's. I didn't see her car and when I did, I meant to hit the brakes, but instead I hit the gas pedal. And I hit her tire.

She was so angry at me, and I can't get her fury or what she said out of my head. I keep replaying the incident in my head over and over and I just feel so bad. No matter how much I said I was sorry, it didn't make the situation any better. I feel like an actual idiot and many other words that wouldn't be appropriate to say on here. It was all my fault for not seeing her car.

This is my first ever incident with a car, so I'm still shaken up about it. And what makes it worse is that I had to go to work directly after swapping my information with the lady. I was in tears all day, my head hurt, I got a cut on my finger, and I puked twice that day. I couldn't get to sleep fast enough.

Nobody got hurt in the car accident. We're both okay, but the shame and bad feelings still remain for me. It was so bad that my mind actively tried to repress the incident the same day that it happened.

I wonder what my grandparents are going to say. They're out of town right now and they still don't know. I told my aunt, though, and she said it would all be okay. I still can't forgive myself for what happened, though. I was already on thin ice with my emotional health once this happened, so now I'm starting to think of what ways I can "pay" for what I did. Most of the thoughts involve me hurting myself physically. I know that will make nothing better, but I feel like I need to suffer for what I did. I made that lady so angry and ruined her day. I deserve to be punished.

I'm really trying to resist hurting myself or doing anything worse to myself. Please pray for me. I need all of the help that I can get.

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Searching_for_God said:

I really don't want to talk about this, but at the same time, I want to talk about this all too much. I guess it's just the shame I'm feeling right now that's making me feel reluctant to speak about this. But I need to talk about this. I can't keep this in.

Yesterday I dinged my car on the side of someone else's. I didn't see her car and when I did, I meant to hit the brakes, but instead I hit the gas pedal. And I hit her tire.

She was so angry at me, and I can't get her fury or what she said out of my head. I keep replaying the incident in my head over and over and I just feel so bad. No matter how much I said I was sorry, it didn't make the situation any better. I feel like an actual idiot and many other words that wouldn't be appropriate to say on here. It was all my fault for not seeing her car.

This is my first ever incident with a car, so I'm still shaken up about it. And what makes it worse is that I had to go to work directly after swapping my information with the lady. I was in tears all day, my head hurt, I got a cut on my finger, and I puked twice that day. I couldn't get to sleep fast enough.

Nobody got hurt in the car accident. We're both okay, but the shame and bad feelings still remain for me. It was so bad that my mind actively tried to repress the incident the same day that it happened.

I wonder what my grandparents are going to say. They're out of town right now and they still don't know. I told my aunt, though, and she said it would all be okay. I still can't forgive myself for what happened, though. I was already on thin ice with my emotional health once this happened, so now I'm starting to think of what ways I can "pay" for what I did. Most of the thoughts involve me hurting myself physically. I know that will make nothing better, but I feel like I need to suffer for what I did. I made that lady so angry and ruined her day. I deserve to be punished.

I'm really trying to resist hurting myself or doing anything worse to myself. Please pray for me. I need all of the help that I can get.

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Searching_for_God said:

I really don't want to talk about this, but at the same time, I want to talk about this all too much. I guess it's just the shame I'm feeling right now that's making me feel reluctant to speak about this. But I need to talk about this. I can't keep this in.

Yesterday I dinged my car on the side of someone else's. I didn't see her car and when I did, I meant to hit the brakes, but instead I hit the gas pedal. And I hit her tire.

She was so angry at me, and I can't get her fury or what she said out of my head. I keep replaying the incident in my head over and over and I just feel so bad. No matter how much I said I was sorry, it didn't make the situation any better. I feel like an actual idiot and many other words that wouldn't be appropriate to say on here. It was all my fault for not seeing her car.

This is my first ever incident with a car, so I'm still shaken up about it. And what makes it worse is that I had to go to work directly after swapping my information with the lady. I was in tears all day, my head hurt, I got a cut on my finger, and I puked twice that day. I couldn't get to sleep fast enough.

Nobody got hurt in the car accident. We're both okay, but the shame and bad feelings still remain for me. It was so bad that my mind actively tried to repress the incident the same day that it happened.

I wonder what my grandparents are going to say. They're out of town right now and they still don't know. I told my aunt, though, and she said it would all be okay. I still can't forgive myself for what happened, though. I was already on thin ice with my emotional health once this happened, so now I'm starting to think of what ways I can "pay" for what I did. Most of the thoughts involve me hurting myself physically. I know that will make nothing better, but I feel like I need to suffer for what I did. I made that lady so angry and ruined her day. I deserve to be punished.

I'm really trying to resist hurting myself or doing anything worse to myself. Please pray for me. I need all of the help that I can get.

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