The holiday season triggers depression for a lot of people who have lost loved ones, and I am really feeling the effects of this. I am so depressed about my grandpa, uncle, and my dog since childhood, who all died within a small time interval. The holidays are very depressing now that our small family is even smaller. The Christmas music on the radio just makes me sad as well as all the decorations and this is really detrimental because it has always been my favorite holiday. I just have flashbacks of the bad memories when my uncle was sick and how sick he looked and his demeanor because he didn’t think he was going to live very much longer and me praying he would be around another Christmas. I’m very traumatized by all the losses. But I know there r people who have lost much more than I have so I shouldn’t complain. But I have always been a cheerful person and now I feel so sad but I keep up the cheerful person because everyone knows me for it so if I don’t act like that they will ask me what’s wrong.
It’s a really long story but this Christmas is going to be awful because extended family, who we never ever see , is pretty much imposing on my grandma, who lost her ,son husband , and a lot of her siblings. The extended family members told my grandma “ it’s been years get over it move on” it’s just really ugly. But now we have to spend Christmas with them. It’s going to be awful. I really appreciate prayers for me and my family’s sadness over our losses and also for them not to come miraculously
It’s a really long story but this Christmas is going to be awful because extended family, who we never ever see , is pretty much imposing on my grandma, who lost her ,son husband , and a lot of her siblings. The extended family members told my grandma “ it’s been years get over it move on” it’s just really ugly. But now we have to spend Christmas with them. It’s going to be awful. I really appreciate prayers for me and my family’s sadness over our losses and also for them not to come miraculously
