I'm 43. My life looks nothing like I had planned when I was young and thought things would work out.
I'm divorced, not in any serious relationship, not seeking one, questioning if I should or even want to. I've got one grown kid in college who is doing well academically but struggling in other areas with disability. I've got one teenager with some disability and huge insecurities and is in no hurry to grow up. I have chronic health problems, and physically function like I'm elderly due to old injuries and neurological problem. I work a job I hate for a corporation that literally breaks our wages down to 1/1000 of a penny to make sure they don't over pay us, and every time we get a raise they are very sketchy about it, dragging it out and having excuses for why it didn't happen when we were told.
I love to write and try to become published. It hasn't happened yet. I have a partially finished college education which is not the field I originally chose, but one I do enjoy a lot. I feel very drawn to finishing a degree so I can have a career that is meaningful, stimulating, and that I enjoy. I started college as a premed major, tried nursing school, then switched to child psychology.
In a weird way I feel more capable than I have in a long time. I've been thinking about options, and reading about educational paths and considering stepping-stone jobs that will help me move up in a particular field. I've started refreshing my mind academically, going through old college books. That way if I do get to try again, I won't have a difficult time because of things I've forgotten. I'm browsing college books on amazon and ebay. When I finish one, I want to get another. I want to try microbiology again; that one kicked my tail and I dropped it, but I also took while I was a nursing student and had almost 20 hours of classes and clinical assignments, and raising my three year old with no support or help from my then-husband. If I get to go back to college, I want it to be like I didn't miss a day, not a single beat.
I've also got health goals. Very tiny health goals. When I achieve one, I'm going to move to the next. I'd like to function like my age, not like my grandparents. I'm considering the possibility of knee replacement, but can't afford to at this time.
I just keep wondering if I should try to baby step my way into the medical field, should I try to finish my psych degree, or would I just be wasting time and effort and money.
I don't want to talk about this with anyone in my life. I get nothing but a bunch of discouraging comments or patronizing smiles and statements.
I'm divorced, not in any serious relationship, not seeking one, questioning if I should or even want to. I've got one grown kid in college who is doing well academically but struggling in other areas with disability. I've got one teenager with some disability and huge insecurities and is in no hurry to grow up. I have chronic health problems, and physically function like I'm elderly due to old injuries and neurological problem. I work a job I hate for a corporation that literally breaks our wages down to 1/1000 of a penny to make sure they don't over pay us, and every time we get a raise they are very sketchy about it, dragging it out and having excuses for why it didn't happen when we were told.
I love to write and try to become published. It hasn't happened yet. I have a partially finished college education which is not the field I originally chose, but one I do enjoy a lot. I feel very drawn to finishing a degree so I can have a career that is meaningful, stimulating, and that I enjoy. I started college as a premed major, tried nursing school, then switched to child psychology.
In a weird way I feel more capable than I have in a long time. I've been thinking about options, and reading about educational paths and considering stepping-stone jobs that will help me move up in a particular field. I've started refreshing my mind academically, going through old college books. That way if I do get to try again, I won't have a difficult time because of things I've forgotten. I'm browsing college books on amazon and ebay. When I finish one, I want to get another. I want to try microbiology again; that one kicked my tail and I dropped it, but I also took while I was a nursing student and had almost 20 hours of classes and clinical assignments, and raising my three year old with no support or help from my then-husband. If I get to go back to college, I want it to be like I didn't miss a day, not a single beat.
I've also got health goals. Very tiny health goals. When I achieve one, I'm going to move to the next. I'd like to function like my age, not like my grandparents. I'm considering the possibility of knee replacement, but can't afford to at this time.
I just keep wondering if I should try to baby step my way into the medical field, should I try to finish my psych degree, or would I just be wasting time and effort and money.
I don't want to talk about this with anyone in my life. I get nothing but a bunch of discouraging comments or patronizing smiles and statements.