I'm really not feeling well emotionally *Need spiritual Members*

Hi, I recently did a deep, spiritual prayer to God. I haven't ever read the bible clearly but I have read the whole bible before. I find that through watching sermons, learning about God is more than the basics, it gets advanced in a way that it's not even written in the bible. You have to go by the Holy Spirit. When I was 16/17 I was pushed into being baptized and so I thought I'd 'try', but I wasn't sure if Jesus Christ was real or not but when I was baptized, I recall that the person asked, 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ.. ' or something like that and I said 'Yes' so I don't know if my baptism was valid and that I received the Holy Spirit but sometimes I feel things and think that the Holy Spirit is telling me something but I'm not sure if it's just me. I've been really sad bc after my prayer I tried to listen to see if I can get anything from the Holy Spirit. First off, I have a sort of social anxiety and I've got no friends in real life for 2-4 years and I've never had a real friend but I really wanted to be friends with someone where I've been volunteering which is that only place I can volunteer bc it's for people who have Mental Health issues, but I feel right now that the Holy Spirit is saying not to be friends with him or that I can't be friends with him and I'm thinking it's probably bc he has a wife and so forth. I also feel that the Holy Spirit is saying that even if he talks to me I'm not to say anything! but I don't think that is biblical. Do I go by what "I feel" the 'Holy Spirit' is telling me or whether it's 'biblical'? And it discourages me that I feel so confused and how to get out of being confused and being clear on things. I want to be SO CLEAR on things about God and also immediately happy and uplifted when I walk in that way if that is even possible. I also don't have the motivation to read the bible right now bc of medication I'm taking. Also if I can't be friends with the only person there that I feel like being friends with, not just an acquaintance then I really feel I cannot volunteer there anymore even though there are people I care for there too. Then I guess I'd be more bored so I think am I being punished and do I deserve to be punished so badly when I reflect on things. I'm hurt, sad, depressed, not feeling well emotionally. I'm stuck. I really need prayer that works. I really want to be so happy and excited. Thank you so tremendously.

Thank you so much for your prayer! Do you feel that God answers your prayers? I'd be very glad to receive the prayer of salvation. Is it the one in your signature?
And do you think I need to be baptized again given the info that I told you above? I don't want to be lonely in the way that I am. I want to be really happy and excited w/ the friend that I make or I probably need a boyfriend. I don't know. I would like God to make things really clear to me and leading me and guiding me in the way in which I should go and me being very happy about it. I've been feeling like torture.
I'd be looking forward to as many helpful replies as possible. Thank you so tremendously!

Thank you everyone! I need as much help as required. I'm in a very dark place, dark enough. I feel tortured. Do you think that God would direct me through the 'Holy Spirit' to not respond to someone even if they spoke to me as I wrote above in first post? I now feel like I can't talk to the person in the way I would talk and I'm to be like a little mouse or robot and if I can't be friends with this person I would leave the volunteering and I could try to go back to school and take courses but I won't be in a place full of people like me and I won't get to be friends with this person. It seems so sad. I feel sad. Does anyone have any more things to say about my first post? Thank you so much!

Asphose, how do you 'know' God answers your prayers? Thank you
Another issue I've expressed in my first post is that I'd like to not only know for sure that God is directing/telling me something/things if/when he is but immediately feel happy when I walk in God's direction and even knowing the reason for God's direction.

I also would like prayer to be delivered from evil spirits who would give me false, deceitful lies, that God would help me in ways that's best for my situation like through angels, through a spiritual Christian, on this forum, etc. Thank you so much!

I also feel sad for the outcome I've come to that I would be leaving the volunteering bc of this and wouldn't be able to go and enjoy the Christmas event there and would have to go to a less enjoyable place. I really wished or wish this wouldn't be the outcome but it really looks like it is.

Any more comments on this anyone? I've talked to someone about this and it has helped me but just seeking more advice as it says it's wise to do so in proverbs from spiritual Christians of course. Lastly, I don't think it's the Holy Spirit telling me not to talk to this person I really want to be friends with even if he were to say something to me.