- Apr 14, 2018
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I recently posted about being kept from progressing in my life by an overly possessive mother who has kept me from driving a car or moving forwards with my life because she didn't want me to grow up or something (I'm 29.). She kept me helpless and socially crippled, even when I was trying to move forward despite my severe social anxiety. I had a lot of hate issues with her. Recently, God helped me with overcoming my hate issues a lot, but there was still a lot of concern about her holding me back.
But she has been sick for some time with cancer. And just an hour ago, a family friend who lives with us and helps us out financially told us some shocking news.
My mother has passed away.
I admit, I have some very mixed feelings. On the one hand, I feel like God has opened a new way for me to move forward with my life. I feel free. But on the other hand, some part of me feels sad. And I don't know why. I mean, I technically know why. But still... this is very strange. It's surreal, and I don't know if I should cry, or be relieved that I am free of her. And I feel guilty because I prayed to God to "let His will be done" rather than asking Him to heal her. And I know that's stupid, but... this is all a lot to process.
Just... pray for me and my brother, please. And for the family friend; he didn't see how my mom really was, and he really cared about her, so he's really broken up, so please pray for him too; I think he needs it more than I do.
But she has been sick for some time with cancer. And just an hour ago, a family friend who lives with us and helps us out financially told us some shocking news.
My mother has passed away.
I admit, I have some very mixed feelings. On the one hand, I feel like God has opened a new way for me to move forward with my life. I feel free. But on the other hand, some part of me feels sad. And I don't know why. I mean, I technically know why. But still... this is very strange. It's surreal, and I don't know if I should cry, or be relieved that I am free of her. And I feel guilty because I prayed to God to "let His will be done" rather than asking Him to heal her. And I know that's stupid, but... this is all a lot to process.
Just... pray for me and my brother, please. And for the family friend; he didn't see how my mom really was, and he really cared about her, so he's really broken up, so please pray for him too; I think he needs it more than I do.