I feel lost without the love for God and Jesus

Justasking123 · Nov 7, 2019

Hello, I'm posting here because I do not really know who I can speak to about my issue. I discovered the Gospel about 1,5 year ago, at the time I did not want to see my sinnful state, but shortly after, God helped me see how bad of a sinner I am, being selfcentered and lying above all things. I'm greatful that God made me see this, I soon started praying and reading the Bible everyday.

The problem is that I realised not so long ago, after spending time with people who live their faith like the first Christians, that they have a true relationship with Jesus and God and a very deep respect and love for them. And I feel bad because I now see that I never really loved God for who he is and never felt that I was commited to Jesus, that I accepted him as my Saviour, I also hesitated to classify myself as a Christian because I did not really want to stop mixing with the world (going to parties, dancing on world music, having non christian friends..), but I now see that I don't even have the basic faith in Jesus Christ, this strong relationship. It seems as though I now know that everything in the Bible is true, that this is the Word of God, our Creator, but it is only theoretical knowledge..

I would like to believe, be born again and receive Jesus as my Saviour like it says in John 6:40(NIV) and John 3:5-6(NIV):

40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.

5 Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.
6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

But I think that I maybe waited too long to answer God and decide to let go of my life for him and truly repent, it seemed like the Christians I met, I needed to follow to know Jesus, but I was not ready to leave everything. As Jesus said in Matt 6:24(NIV):

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

So I was stubborn, proud, doubted and dissobeyed God, now I know that the Bible is the Truth, that there is no other way to come to the Father than through Jesus, but I'm like a hypocrite if I can't feel this sincere love which I saw by those Christians, and I think that would be even worst to pretend being a Christian Isaiah 29:13(NIV):

13 The Lord says:
“These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught"

So I don't know how to live with the knowledge of Truth I now have and the lack of love and faith in Jesus Christ, and the fact that I feel bad but not convicted, like I should about this, 2Cor 7:10:

10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

I wish I could have this deep sorrow David had in Psalm 51 and not be so superficial, it's like I've punished myself because now that I know the Truth I can't sincerly repent and recieve Jesus Christ in my life..

I don't know if this will be understandable, maybe someone will have something to say or experiences, I understand that it is only fair to be condemned by God for not receiving the Light at first or holding on to sin, but I am struggling to live with knowledge of the Truth without being saved, I also do not know how to talk about it with the people around me (I'm from a non christian family).

Thank you for taking the time to read all of this.

God is good · Nov 7, 2019

Justasking123 said:
Hello, I'm posting here because I do not really know who I can speak to about my issue. I discovered the Gospel about 1,5 year ago, at the time I did not want to see my sinnful state, but shortly after, God helped me see how bad of a sinner I am, being selfcentered and lying above all things. I'm greatful that God made me see this, I soon started praying and reading the Bible everyday.

The problem is that I realised not so long ago, after spending time with people who live their faith like the first Christians, that they have a true relationship with Jesus and God and a very deep respect and love for them. And I feel bad because I now see that I never really loved God for who he is and never felt that I was commited to Jesus, that I accepted him as my Saviour, I also hesitated to classify myself as a Christian because I did not really want to stop mixing with the world (going to parties, dancing on world music, having non christian friends..), but I now see that I don't even have the basic faith in Jesus Christ, this strong relationship. It seems as though I now know that everything in the Bible is true, that this is the Word of God, our Creator, but it is only theoretical knowledge..

I would like to believe, be born again and receive Jesus as my Saviour like it says in John 6:40(NIV) and John 3:5-6(NIV):

40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.

5 Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.
6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

But I think that I maybe waited too long to answer God and decide to let go of my life for him and truly repent, it seemed like the Christians I met, I needed to follow to know Jesus, but I was not ready to leave everything. As Jesus said in Matt 6:24(NIV):

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

So I was stubborn, proud, doubted and dissobeyed God, now I know that the Bible is the Truth, that there is no other way to come to the Father than through Jesus, but I'm like a hypocrite if I can't feel this sincere love which I saw by those Christians, and I think that would be even worst to pretend being a Christian Isaiah 29:13(NIV):

13 The Lord says:
“These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught"

So I don't know how to live with the knowledge of Truth I now have and the lack of love and faith in Jesus Christ, and the fact that I feel bad but not convicted, like I should about this, 2Cor 7:10:

10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

I wish I could have this deep sorrow David had in Psalm 51 and not be so superficial, it's like I've punished myself because now that I know the Truth I can't sincerly repent and recieve Jesus Christ in my life..

I don't know if this will be understandable, maybe someone will have something to say or experiences, I understand that it is only fair to be condemned by God for not receiving the Light at first or holding on to sin, but I am struggling to live with knowledge of the Truth without being saved, I also do not know how to talk about it with the people around me (I'm from a non christian family).

Thank you for taking the time to read all of this.

I just want you to know that God really loves you and I believe that you still have hope of being saved because Jesus loves you and Jesus wants you to be with God forever. Jesus died for you, that's a lot of love.

Dave G. · Nov 7, 2019

Don't make it complicated. Come to Jesus in faith from your heart that you want Him and ask Him into your life with full intent of turning from your sins. You must believe that He was God in flesh and died for your sins, was buried, resurrected. We all slip and He is just to forgive us. He is our perfection not us.

If you already did this then the conviction you are feeling now is from the Holy Spirit, so simply turn back to God, agree with Him and start walking with Him. The evidence of loving God is the desire to follow Jesus' commands. He wrapped all the law up in two commands, love God, love your neighbor. But He doesn't leave us alone to accomplish this, it's a work in sanctification.

And it's not too late, count on that !

tall73 · Nov 7, 2019

Justasking123 said:
Hello, I'm posting here because I do not really know who I can speak to about my issue. I discovered the Gospel about 1,5 year ago, at the time I did not want to see my sinnful state, but shortly after, God helped me see how bad of a sinner I am, being selfcentered and lying above all things. I'm greatful that God made me see this, I soon started praying and reading the Bible everyday.

The problem is that I realised not so long ago, after spending time with people who live their faith like the first Christians, that they have a true relationship with Jesus and God and a very deep respect and love for them. And I feel bad because I now see that I never really loved God for who he is and never felt that I was commited to Jesus, that I accepted him as my Saviour, I also hesitated to classify myself as a Christian because I did not really want to stop mixing with the world (going to parties, dancing on world music, having non christian friends..), but I now see that I don't even have the basic faith in Jesus Christ, this strong relationship. It seems as though I now know that everything in the Bible is true, that this is the Word of God, our Creator, but it is only theoretical knowledge..

I would like to believe, be born again and receive Jesus as my Saviour like it says in John 6:40(NIV) and John 3:5-6(NIV):

40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.

5 Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.
6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

But I think that I maybe waited too long to answer God and decide to let go of my life for him and truly repent, it seemed like the Christians I met, I needed to follow to know Jesus, but I was not ready to leave everything. As Jesus said in Matt 6:24(NIV):

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

So I was stubborn, proud, doubted and dissobeyed God, now I know that the Bible is the Truth, that there is no other way to come to the Father than through Jesus, but I'm like a hypocrite if I can't feel this sincere love which I saw by those Christians, and I think that would be even worst to pretend being a Christian Isaiah 29:13(NIV):

13 The Lord says:
“These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught"

So I don't know how to live with the knowledge of Truth I now have and the lack of love and faith in Jesus Christ, and the fact that I feel bad but not convicted, like I should about this, 2Cor 7:10:

10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

I wish I could have this deep sorrow David had in Psalm 51 and not be so superficial, it's like I've punished myself because now that I know the Truth I can't sincerly repent and recieve Jesus Christ in my life..

I don't know if this will be understandable, maybe someone will have something to say or experiences, I understand that it is only fair to be condemned by God for not receiving the Light at first or holding on to sin, but I am struggling to live with knowledge of the Truth without being saved, I also do not know how to talk about it with the people around me (I'm from a non christian family).

Thank you for taking the time to read all of this.

We are to grow in the faith. Because you are not where those folks are at yet does not mean you are not on the right track. Have faith and continue to rely more and more on Christ.

He who began a good work in you will carry it to completion.

Asphose · Nov 7, 2019

Hey, I was in your position about a few years ago so I know how you feel. Quick question, do you take a clean car to a car wash?

That would be silly right? So why are you trying to clean yourself before coming to god? Don't let anyone or anything make you think that Jesus won't accept you because you left him for the world for a period of time.

Read the story of the prodigal son (Luke 15:11-32). He left his father to enjoy the things of this world, but eventually, he ended up regretting his decision as it didn't last very long. He then decided to go back home as he knew whatever punishment he would face isn't as bad as the position he's currently in.
And to his surprise, when he went home his Dad was filled with joy and cleaned him up and gave him the best robe and other great things.

His reason? "32 It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found."

Come as you are! He's waiting eagerly for you, regardless of what you did. I'm not even saying that to make you feel better, the word says it.

Just remember that when you're born again your past life is gone and he sees it no more.

2 Corinthians 5:17
17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

So say the prayer of salvation and be born again, it's a gift and not something you work for. (Ephesians 2:9).

Asphose · Nov 7, 2019

You may say, but what if I sin again after being born again?

1 John 2:1
My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have an advocate with the Father--Jesus Christ, the Righteous One.

Ask God for forgiveness don't feel in. bondage to sin. What will stop you from sinning is your knowledge of the word of God. It's time to renew your mind.

Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will.

People that are born again are spiritual babes and the only way to grow is to study the word of God.

Prayer of Salvation
O Lord God, I come to You in the name of Jesus. I believe that Jesus Christ is Your Son. I believe that You raised Him from the dead and I confess with my mouth that Jesus Christ is the Lord of my life from today. I receive by faith, remission of sins for my soul, and right now, in the Name of Jesus Christ, I receive eternal life into my spirit. I declare with my mouth that I am born again!”

Aussie Pete · Nov 7, 2019

Justasking123 said:
Hello, I'm posting here because I do not really know who I can speak to about my issue. I discovered the Gospel about 1,5 year ago, at the time I did not want to see my sinnful state, but shortly after, God helped me see how bad of a sinner I am, being selfcentered and lying above all things. I'm greatful that God made me see this, I soon started praying and reading the Bible everyday.

The problem is that I realised not so long ago, after spending time with people who live their faith like the first Christians, that they have a true relationship with Jesus and God and a very deep respect and love for them. And I feel bad because I now see that I never really loved God for who he is and never felt that I was commited to Jesus, that I accepted him as my Saviour, I also hesitated to classify myself as a Christian because I did not really want to stop mixing with the world (going to parties, dancing on world music, having non christian friends..), but I now see that I don't even have the basic faith in Jesus Christ, this strong relationship. It seems as though I now know that everything in the Bible is true, that this is the Word of God, our Creator, but it is only theoretical knowledge..

I would like to believe, be born again and receive Jesus as my Saviour like it says in John 6:40(NIV) and John 3:5-6(NIV):

40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.

5 Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.
6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

But I think that I maybe waited too long to answer God and decide to let go of my life for him and truly repent, it seemed like the Christians I met, I needed to follow to know Jesus, but I was not ready to leave everything. As Jesus said in Matt 6:24(NIV):

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

So I was stubborn, proud, doubted and dissobeyed God, now I know that the Bible is the Truth, that there is no other way to come to the Father than through Jesus, but I'm like a hypocrite if I can't feel this sincere love which I saw by those Christians, and I think that would be even worst to pretend being a Christian Isaiah 29:13(NIV):

13 The Lord says:
“These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught"

So I don't know how to live with the knowledge of Truth I now have and the lack of love and faith in Jesus Christ, and the fact that I feel bad but not convicted, like I should about this, 2Cor 7:10:

10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

I wish I could have this deep sorrow David had in Psalm 51 and not be so superficial, it's like I've punished myself because now that I know the Truth I can't sincerly repent and recieve Jesus Christ in my life..

I don't know if this will be understandable, maybe someone will have something to say or experiences, I understand that it is only fair to be condemned by God for not receiving the Light at first or holding on to sin, but I am struggling to live with knowledge of the Truth without being saved, I also do not know how to talk about it with the people around me (I'm from a non christian family).

Thank you for taking the time to read all of this.

Your honesty is refreshing. Augustine said once, "God make me holy, but not yet".
Lord Jesus said that an honest sinner can be justified by God while the self-righteous are condemned. Ask God to be merciful to you, a sinner. He will, guaranteed by His own word. Don't let Satan's lies rob you of a proper relationship with God through Jesus.

It seems to me that you have accepted Christ, but you have not learned how to be in fellowship with God. First and foremost, God loves you, no matter what you are or are not. You are looking at yourself and judging yourself according to your understanding. That is a recipe for disaster - I speak from experience. Freedom comes when you turn away from what you are and turn to Christ and embrace all that He is and all that He has done for you. That is a lifetime's work.

It starts now. You've confessed a number of faults. That is great, because we are exhorted to do that so we might be set free. Confess your sins. God will forgive you, again as He has promised. Whatever your faults, whatever your lack, Lord Jesus has it covered. You have trouble obeying? Lord Jesus has already obeyed God perfectly. Impatient? Lord Jesus is your patience. Ask Him to be your consecration, your ability to let go of self-will and everything that you need. Find out what God has done for you in Christ. You've seen the negatives. That's good. But don't stay there. Read Romans 7. It's like my diary years ago. But don't stay there! Romans 8 gives the answer!

aiki · Nov 7, 2019

Justasking123 said:
So I was stubborn, proud, doubted and dissobeyed God, now I know that the Bible is the Truth, that there is no other way to come to the Father than through Jesus, but I'm like a hypocrite if I can't feel this sincere love which I saw by those Christians, and I think that would be even worst to pretend being a Christian...

The only love God wants from us is His own perfect, holy, true love. You can't generate that love from yourself. It has to come from God. So, pray. Pray that God would impart to you His love. He will do that, the Bible says, by giving you the Holy Spirit who will come to dwell within you and give you new life in Christ as you trust in Christ as your Saviour and Lord (Romans 10:9-10; Titus 3:5; Romans 8:11). The love of God is shed abroad in human hearts by the Spirit (Romans 5:5; Galatians 5:22), you see. And so, the apostle Paul prayed for the Ephesian believers, not that they would find within their own human resources a great and holy love for God, but that they would come to know the love of God in all its dimensions, to know the love of Christ that passes knowledge, and in so doing be filled with all the fullness of God. (Ephesians 3:14-19) So, let your mind dwell upon the love of God for you expressed in the Saviour, Jesus Christ. Ponder what God has done for you through Christ. Meditate upon it. Give yourself to the truth of God's love for you. As you do, pray that God would break in upon your heart and mind, dissolving the barriers within yourself to walking in love with Him. He will.

1 John 4:16-19
16 And we have known and believed the love that God has to us. God is love; and he who dwells in love dwells in God, and God in him.
17 Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world.
18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear: because fear has torment. He who fears is not made perfect in love.
19 We love him, because he first loved us.

Justasking123 said:
I wish I could have this deep sorrow David had in Psalm 51 and not be so superficial, it's like I've punished myself because now that I know the Truth I can't sincerly repent and recieve Jesus Christ in my life..

Such sorrow cannot exist in a vacuum. It arises from your love for God. The love He has given to you by His Spirit. You can't begin with sorrow over your sin; sorow follows after love, arising from it.

Mountainmanbob · Nov 7, 2019

Justasking123 said:
Hello, I'm posting here because I do not really know who I can speak to about my issue. I discovered the Gospel about 1,5 year ago, at the time I did not want to see my sinnful state, but shortly after, God helped me see how bad of a sinner I am, being selfcentered and lying above all things. I'm greatful that God made me see this, I soon started praying and reading the Bible everyday.

The problem is that I realised not so long ago, after spending time with people who live their faith like the first Christians, that they have a true relationship with Jesus and God and a very deep respect and love for them. And I feel bad because I now see that I never really loved God for who he is and never felt that I was commited to Jesus, that I accepted him as my Saviour, I also hesitated to classify myself as a Christian because I did not really want to stop mixing with the world (going to parties, dancing on world music, having non christian friends..), but I now see that I don't even have the basic faith in Jesus Christ, this strong relationship. It seems as though I now know that everything in the Bible is true, that this is the Word of God, our Creator, but it is only theoretical knowledge..

I would like to believe, be born again and receive Jesus as my Saviour like it says in John 6:40(NIV) and John 3:5-6(NIV):

40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.

5 Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.
6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

But I think that I maybe waited too long to answer God and decide to let go of my life for him and truly repent, it seemed like the Christians I met, I needed to follow to know Jesus, but I was not ready to leave everything. As Jesus said in Matt 6:24(NIV):

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

So I was stubborn, proud, doubted and dissobeyed God, now I know that the Bible is the Truth, that there is no other way to come to the Father than through Jesus, but I'm like a hypocrite if I can't feel this sincere love which I saw by those Christians, and I think that would be even worst to pretend being a Christian Isaiah 29:13(NIV):

13 The Lord says:
“These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught"

So I don't know how to live with the knowledge of Truth I now have and the lack of love and faith in Jesus Christ, and the fact that I feel bad but not convicted, like I should about this, 2Cor 7:10:

10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

I wish I could have this deep sorrow David had in Psalm 51 and not be so superficial, it's like I've punished myself because now that I know the Truth I can't sincerly repent and recieve Jesus Christ in my life..

I don't know if this will be understandable, maybe someone will have something to say or experiences, I understand that it is only fair to be condemned by God for not receiving the Light at first or holding on to sin, but I am struggling to live with knowledge of the Truth without being saved, I also do not know how to talk about it with the people around me (I'm from a non christian family).

Thank you for taking the time to read all of this.

Most of the ones that wrote the Bible were not originally good guys.

We just keep in the Word and repent often and ask God to have mercy on us and to help us finish the good race.

My bet is if you look back to this day a year from now you will see much growth and attribute it to the Holy Spirit.

M-Bob

DennisTate · Nov 7, 2019

I'm sixty years of age and I have been a Christian for forty five years and in my opinion........... YOU ARE GROWING FAST!!!!!

Really fast!!!!!

Being shown how serious our sins are is a huge step and your openess and honest about the whole situation is great!!!!

Justasking123 said:
Hello, I'm posting here because I do not really know who I can speak to about my issue. I discovered the Gospel about 1,5 year ago, at the time I did not want to see my sinnful state, but shortly after, God helped me see how bad of a sinner I am, being selfcentered and lying above all things. I'm greatful that God made me see this, I soon started praying and reading the Bible everyday.

The problem is that I realised not so long ago, after spending time with people who live their faith like the first Christians, that they have a true relationship with Jesus and God and a very deep respect and love for them. And I feel bad because I now see that I never really loved God for who he is and never felt that I was commited to Jesus, that I accepted him as my Saviour, I also hesitated to classify myself as a Christian because I did not really want to stop mixing with the world (going to parties, dancing on world music, having non christian friends..), but I now see that I don't even have the basic faith in Jesus Christ, this strong relationship. It seems as though I now know that everything in the Bible is true, that this is the Word of God, our Creator, but it is only theoretical knowledge..

I would like to believe, be born again and receive Jesus as my Saviour like it says in John 6:40(NIV) and John 3:5-6(NIV):

40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.

5 Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.
6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

But I think that I maybe waited too long to answer God and decide to let go of my life for him and truly repent, it seemed like the Christians I met, I needed to follow to know Jesus, but I was not ready to leave everything. As Jesus said in Matt 6:24(NIV):

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

So I was stubborn, proud, doubted and dissobeyed God, now I know that the Bible is the Truth, that there is no other way to come to the Father than through Jesus, but I'm like a hypocrite if I can't feel this sincere love which I saw by those Christians, and I think that would be even worst to pretend being a Christian Isaiah 29:13(NIV):

13 The Lord says:
“These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught"

So I don't know how to live with the knowledge of Truth I now have and the lack of love and faith in Jesus Christ, and the fact that I feel bad but not convicted, like I should about this, 2Cor 7:10:

10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

I wish I could have this deep sorrow David had in Psalm 51 and not be so superficial, it's like I've punished myself because now that I know the Truth I can't sincerly repent and recieve Jesus Christ in my life..

I don't know if this will be understandable, maybe someone will have something to say or experiences, I understand that it is only fair to be condemned by God for not receiving the Light at first or holding on to sin, but I am struggling to live with knowledge of the Truth without being saved, I also do not know how to talk about it with the people around me (I'm from a non christian family).

Thank you for taking the time to read all of this.

Moses777 · Nov 7, 2019

Justasking123 said:
Hello, I'm posting here because I do not really know who I can speak to about my issue. I discovered the Gospel about 1,5 year ago, at the time I did not want to see my sinnful state, but shortly after, God helped me see how bad of a sinner I am, being selfcentered and lying above all things. I'm greatful that God made me see this, I soon started praying and reading the Bible everyday.

The problem is that I realised not so long ago, after spending time with people who live their faith like the first Christians, that they have a true relationship with Jesus and God and a very deep respect and love for them. And I feel bad because I now see that I never really loved God for who he is and never felt that I was commited to Jesus, that I accepted him as my Saviour, I also hesitated to classify myself as a Christian because I did not really want to stop mixing with the world (going to parties, dancing on world music, having non christian friends..), but I now see that I don't even have the basic faith in Jesus Christ, this strong relationship. It seems as though I now know that everything in the Bible is true, that this is the Word of God, our Creator, but it is only theoretical knowledge..

I would like to believe, be born again and receive Jesus as my Saviour like it says in John 6:40(NIV) and John 3:5-6(NIV):

40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.

5 Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.
6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

But I think that I maybe waited too long to answer God and decide to let go of my life for him and truly repent, it seemed like the Christians I met, I needed to follow to know Jesus, but I was not ready to leave everything. As Jesus said in Matt 6:24(NIV):

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

So I was stubborn, proud, doubted and dissobeyed God, now I know that the Bible is the Truth, that there is no other way to come to the Father than through Jesus, but I'm like a hypocrite if I can't feel this sincere love which I saw by those Christians, and I think that would be even worst to pretend being a Christian Isaiah 29:13(NIV):

13 The Lord says:
“These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught"

So I don't know how to live with the knowledge of Truth I now have and the lack of love and faith in Jesus Christ, and the fact that I feel bad but not convicted, like I should about this, 2Cor 7:10:

10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

I wish I could have this deep sorrow David had in Psalm 51 and not be so superficial, it's like I've punished myself because now that I know the Truth I can't sincerly repent and recieve Jesus Christ in my life..

I don't know if this will be understandable, maybe someone will have something to say or experiences, I understand that it is only fair to be condemned by God for not receiving the Light at first or holding on to sin, but I am struggling to live with knowledge of the Truth without being saved, I also do not know how to talk about it with the people around me (I'm from a non christian family).

Thank you for taking the time to read all of this.

Read the Gospels... pray & fast with your problem. Seek God in prayer. Skip a few meals in secret to really ensure you get an answer. See if you believe Jesus in the Gospels, and hold to his sayings.

Focus all your problems to God, in prayer.

Moses777 · Nov 7, 2019

Justasking123 said:
Hello, I'm posting here because I do not really know who I can speak to about my issue. I discovered the Gospel about 1,5 year ago, at the time I did not want to see my sinnful state, but shortly after, God helped me see how bad of a sinner I am, being selfcentered and lying above all things. I'm greatful that God made me see this, I soon started praying and reading the Bible everyday.

The problem is that I realised not so long ago, after spending time with people who live their faith like the first Christians, that they have a true relationship with Jesus and God and a very deep respect and love for them. And I feel bad because I now see that I never really loved God for who he is and never felt that I was commited to Jesus, that I accepted him as my Saviour, I also hesitated to classify myself as a Christian because I did not really want to stop mixing with the world (going to parties, dancing on world music, having non christian friends..), but I now see that I don't even have the basic faith in Jesus Christ, this strong relationship. It seems as though I now know that everything in the Bible is true, that this is the Word of God, our Creator, but it is only theoretical knowledge..

I would like to believe, be born again and receive Jesus as my Saviour like it says in John 6:40(NIV) and John 3:5-6(NIV):

40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.

5 Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.
6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

But I think that I maybe waited too long to answer God and decide to let go of my life for him and truly repent, it seemed like the Christians I met, I needed to follow to know Jesus, but I was not ready to leave everything. As Jesus said in Matt 6:24(NIV):

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

So I was stubborn, proud, doubted and dissobeyed God, now I know that the Bible is the Truth, that there is no other way to come to the Father than through Jesus, but I'm like a hypocrite if I can't feel this sincere love which I saw by those Christians, and I think that would be even worst to pretend being a Christian Isaiah 29:13(NIV):

13 The Lord says:
“These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught"

So I don't know how to live with the knowledge of Truth I now have and the lack of love and faith in Jesus Christ, and the fact that I feel bad but not convicted, like I should about this, 2Cor 7:10:

10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

I wish I could have this deep sorrow David had in Psalm 51 and not be so superficial, it's like I've punished myself because now that I know the Truth I can't sincerly repent and recieve Jesus Christ in my life..

I don't know if this will be understandable, maybe someone will have something to say or experiences, I understand that it is only fair to be condemned by God for not receiving the Light at first or holding on to sin, but I am struggling to live with knowledge of the Truth without being saved, I also do not know how to talk about it with the people around me (I'm from a non christian family).

Thank you for taking the time to read all of this.

Focus on the teachings of Jesus, and hold to those, and you should be fine. You should see Jesus and his words and actions as the ultimate person. You should hold his words and deeds in the highest esteem and worship him as he is depicted in the Gospels.

Fast and pray away your old sins, they should not trouble you when you have adequately done this.

Halbhh · Nov 7, 2019

Justasking123 said:
Hello, I'm posting here because I do not really know who I can speak to about my issue. I discovered the Gospel about 1,5 year ago, at the time I did not want to see my sinnful state, but shortly after, God helped me see how bad of a sinner I am, being selfcentered and lying above all things. I'm greatful that God made me see this, I soon started praying and reading the Bible everyday.

The problem is that I realised not so long ago, after spending time with people who live their faith like the first Christians, that they have a true relationship with Jesus and God and a very deep respect and love for them. And I feel bad because I now see that I never really loved God for who he is and never felt that I was commited to Jesus, that I accepted him as my Saviour, I also hesitated to classify myself as a Christian because I did not really want to stop mixing with the world (going to parties, dancing on world music, having non christian friends..), but I now see that I don't even have the basic faith in Jesus Christ, this strong relationship. It seems as though I now know that everything in the Bible is true, that this is the Word of God, our Creator, but it is only theoretical knowledge..

I would like to believe, be born again and receive Jesus as my Saviour like it says in John 6:40(NIV) and John 3:5-6(NIV):

40 For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.

5 Jesus answered, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.
6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

But I think that I maybe waited too long to answer God and decide to let go of my life for him and truly repent, it seemed like the Christians I met, I needed to follow to know Jesus, but I was not ready to leave everything. As Jesus said in Matt 6:24(NIV):

24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.

So I was stubborn, proud, doubted and dissobeyed God, now I know that the Bible is the Truth, that there is no other way to come to the Father than through Jesus, but I'm like a hypocrite if I can't feel this sincere love which I saw by those Christians, and I think that would be even worst to pretend being a Christian Isaiah 29:13(NIV):

13 The Lord says:
“These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught"

So I don't know how to live with the knowledge of Truth I now have and the lack of love and faith in Jesus Christ, and the fact that I feel bad but not convicted, like I should about this, 2Cor 7:10:

10 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death.

I wish I could have this deep sorrow David had in Psalm 51 and not be so superficial, it's like I've punished myself because now that I know the Truth I can't sincerly repent and recieve Jesus Christ in my life..

I don't know if this will be understandable, maybe someone will have something to say or experiences, I understand that it is only fair to be condemned by God for not receiving the Light at first or holding on to sin, but I am struggling to live with knowledge of the Truth without being saved, I also do not know how to talk about it with the people around me (I'm from a non christian family).

Thank you for taking the time to read all of this.

You then need this (as all do) -- Romans 10:17.

He said to us: John 10:27 My sheep listen to My voice; I know them, and they follow Me.

To truly listen to Him, listen with all you have, taking your time, to His words, keeping them in your heart. remember them, and that you are listening to words that will last forever, even after this world has passed away.

Here's one place to begin:
Matthew 3 NIV

Justasking123 · Nov 8, 2019

Thanks to all of you, that really helps, I will read the passages you mentioned and pray that I receive the love of God and Jesus Christ in my life.

It would be great if you could also pray for me, thank you for taking the time to answer.

Justasking123 · Nov 8, 2019

aiki said:
The only love God wants from us is His own perfect, holy, true love. You can't generate that love from yourself. It has to come from God. So, pray. Pray that God would impart to you His love. He will do that, the Bible says, by giving you the Holy Spirit who will come to dwell within you and give you new life in Christ as you trust in Christ as your Saviour and Lord (Romans 10:9-10; Titus 3:5; Romans 8:11). The love of God is shed abroad in human hearts by the Spirit (Romans 5:5; Galatians 5:22), you see. And so, the apostle Paul prayed for the Ephesian believers, not that they would find within their own human resources a great and holy love for God, but that they would come to know the love of God in all its dimensions, to know the love of Christ that passes knowledge, and in so doing be filled with all the fullness of God. (Ephesians 3:14-19) So, let your mind dwell upon the love of God for you expressed in the Saviour, Jesus Christ. Ponder what God has done for you through Christ. Meditate upon it. Give yourself to the truth of God's love for you. As you do, pray that God would break in upon your heart and mind, dissolving the barriers within yourself to walking in love with Him. He will.

1 John 4:16-19
16 And we have known and believed the love that God has to us. God is love; and he who dwells in love dwells in God, and God in him.
17 Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world.
18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear: because fear has torment. He who fears is not made perfect in love.
19 We love him, because he first loved us.

Such sorrow cannot exist in a vacuum. It arises from your love for God. The love He has given to you by His Spirit. You can't begin with sorrow over your sin; sorow follows after love, arising from it.

Thank you aiki for your honesty, this is an important point which I need to remember, that the love of God ist a gift from Him, that I can't rely on my own strength to have it, thanks for the reminder.

Dave G. · Nov 8, 2019

Justasking123 said:
Thank you aiki for your honesty, this is an important point which I need to remember, that the love of God ist a gift from Him, that I can't rely on my own strength to have it, thanks for the reminder.

Though your post above wasn't to me I want to say something here. Your desire to change and to love as God instructs us to is fruit of The Spirit in itself. Just having that desire is not fruit of the natural man, the worldly man, but rather of God. Believe it, trust it ! Wanting to read bible passages and the desire to obey God ( though we may slip and slide) and further yet, to understand what you are reading is not evidence of the natural man either. When we receive Jesus, the Holy Spirit opens our eyes to these things. What you are feeling is conviction.

Tolworth John · Nov 8, 2019

Justasking123 said:
he problem is that I realised not so long ago, after spending time with people who live their faith like the first Christians, that they have a true relationship with Jesus and God and a very deep respect and love for them. And I feel bad because I now see that I never really loved God for who he is and never felt that I was commited to Jesus, that I accepted him as my Saviour,

Why can't you go and talk with these Christians?
They can spend time with you and councel you, they will know you far better then we can on the internet.

A question for you.

What are you trusting in for salvation?

Discuss this with those Christians.

As for parties and nonchristian friends.
So long as you are not getting drunk or high om drugs or having sex there is no reason why you can't go to parties.

You need nonchristian friends, who else are you going to talk with, argue with and debate about Christianity.

Justasking123 · Nov 8, 2019

Tolworth John said:
Why can't you go and talk with these Christians?
They can spend time with you and councel you, they will know you far better then we can on the internet.

A question for you.

What are you trusting in for salvation?

Discuss this with those Christians.

As for parties and nonchristian friends.
So long as you are not getting drunk or high om drugs or having sex there is no reason why you can't go to parties.

You need nonchristian friends, who else are you going to talk with, argue with and debate about Christianity.

Hello,

I'm ashamed to talk to these Christian friends now because, they told me that they could not help me further if I wasn't myself ready to follow Jesus or doubting, what I can understand, I think they also saw that I had not a deeply enough repentance and true commitment, that I could not be a part of their community, so they told me I should go back home, maybe so that I would feel this godly sorrow, which I have not had and come back..

So I don't think I can write to them again and ask them for advice, they are really commited and I probably have already taken enough of their time. I'm just wondering in which direction I should go now because I have their life model in my mind, they live together everyday like the first Christians.

I though the only way to be saved and know Jesus was to live like those Christians (they do work and live in the city like everyone) because that is the form which ist close to the new testament, they also do not have special rules or headteachers or a church as we know them, but they follow the Gospel and love one another and God.

I would like to go to church now even if it is not the same, at least to have contact with other Christians.

Tolworth John · Nov 8, 2019

Justasking123 said:
Hello,

I'm ashamed to talk to these Christian friends now because, they told me that they could not help me further if I wasn't myself ready to follow Jesus or doubting, what I can understand, I think they also saw that I had not a deeply enough repentance and true commitment, that I could not be a part of their community, so they told me I should go back home, maybe so that I would feel this godly sorrow, which I have not had and come back..

So I don't think I can write to them again and ask them for advice, they are really commited and I probably have already taken enough of their time. I'm just wondering in which direction I should go now because I have their life model in my mind, they live together everyday like the first Christians.

I though the only way to be saved and know Jesus was to live like those Christians (they do work and live in the city like everyone) because that is the form which ist close to the new testament, they also do not have special rules or headteachers or a church as we know them, but they follow the Gospel and love one another and God.

I would like to go to church now even if it is not the same, at least to have contact with other Christians.

Devout Christians closly following Jesus will not talk with a struggling soul.
I doubt whether they know Jesus.

There is no shame in having doubts or questions.
It is the job of mature Christians to answer those doubts and questions.
If you were turning up drunk or high as a kite to meetings, then I could understand them declining to talk.

Check out christianityexplored web site for churches in your area running this course or simply to attend the church.
The course would be a good one to go and ask questions at.

DennisTate · Nov 8, 2019

Justasking123 said:
Thanks to all of you, that really helps, I will read the passages you mentioned and pray that I receive the love of God and Jesus Christ in my life.

It would be great if you could also pray for me, thank you for taking the time to answer.

I've listened to this book over and over again
especially over this past year.

After the 2:19:00 mark is a brilliant writing on what Christians may
think of their lives as they review their lives with Messiah Yeshua - Jesus in heaven.

I believe that this does an awesome job of expounding on the idea of the Life Review/ judgment after death...... This has greatly inspired me to keep on praying for more and more of the Holy Spirit so that I can really be changed by the power of God.

I really can't change myself by will power.....

I feel lost without the love for God and Jesus

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