Hello,
I was looking on the internet about this issue and did not find much, so I thought maybe I could ask christianforums and get a few perspectives here: How do you deal gracefully with church peer pressure or church culture?
Sometimes at church I feel like they have certain expectations that I can't always reach immediately. I am coming out of a depression and I still need time to heal, but it seems like the message from the pastor often goes along the line of "if you are not doing ____, maybe you should ask yourself whether you are saved or not", and it always seems like they want to manipulate us into participating. It gets very demoralizing sometimes. For exemple, this time they want everyone to join small groups where they want us to share our troubles with others so that we can all support each other. I have declined all invitations because I am not comfortable with forcing myself into sharing my personal issues in a group setting. I only share with the people I am closest with. But people keep trying to pressure me into it. How many times can you say no before they stop pressuring you into it?
I know most of them are trying to convince me out of good intentions but what's good for some is not always good for everyone.
I feel your pain. As someone who has been expelled from different fellowships, I can tell you there are 2 cultures Christians deal with: Kingdom culture and church culture. The two overlap, but are not necessarily the same.
Church culture is the opinion and conclusions of men on what it means to be in the kingdom of God. Kingdom culture is independent of men's understanding and is learned through the personal relationship and walk we have with Christ.
As you said, they have "good intentions". I would also add that there is much in Church culture that is kingdom culture because church culture has as its backbone the understandings of men who walked with Christ. So this is not something one should dismiss outright. That would be throwing the baby out with the bath water.
Maturity is needed in knowing how to graciously decline pressure from church members who think something is for your own good. Remember, Christ is your lord, not them. Christ is also your mentor, not them. Christ uses them as vessels of his mentorship, but they are still living gloves on the hand of God with wills of their own and can misapply the leading of the Spirit towards you.
Maturity, on your part, comes from stepping and standing, in faith in what you are convinced the Lord wants of you. Consider the fruit of the Spirit in those who seek your welfare. They will not pressure you nor condemn you. They will speak the truth in love but let the Lord work in you as He will. They will be gentle with you and understanding of where you are in Christ.
Seek the council of these people in your congregation, and let them be your guide on the Lord's behalf. Do not think that an office entitles them to tell you what to do.
When I went to Bible school, the congregation of the church I attended in Louisiana contributed to my first semester tuition, although the bulk came from other sources as well. When I graduated the pastor sent me a letter saying that I was his pastor and I had to return and work in his ministry. The problem I had with this letter is that I went to Dallas, TX to Bible School because I knew the Lord wanted me to go. And I had no word or sense that God wanted me to go back to Louisiana. In fact, he wanted me to stay because my future wife was here and I had not yet met her. I simply ignored the letter and said nothing more. I had already sent my gratitude and thanks for their contribution earlier.
My prayer is with you that you hear the Lord clearly and know for certainty what He wants of you.