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I've been through many thing that caused me to think like this. I'm hopeless, I wait nothing because nothing is going to change. Nothing is going to be better. I'm alone even between my family.I feel like I'm hollow from inside. why I'm still alive ? what is my mission here in this world? what I'm doing here ? what Does God want me to do ? and if there nothing to do why I'm still alive in this torment ? really I can't see a reason for my life. I'm useless , loser , coward and I cause pain to everyone around me.
 

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I've been through many thing that caused me to think like this. I'm hopeless, I wait nothing because nothing is going to change. Nothing is going to be better. I'm alone even between my family.I feel like I'm hollow from inside. why I'm still alive ? what is my mission here in this world? what I'm doing here ? what Does God want me to do ? and if there nothing to do why I'm still alive in this torment ? really I can't see a reason for my life. I'm useless , loser , coward and I cause pain to everyone around me.
Hi, my name is Zack and I'm also a christian and I just want to let you know you are not alone and that God really loves you and He sent Jesus to die for you sweetie. If you ever want to talk you can message me. God bless you and Jesus is Lord
 
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Lord have mercy.

I am sorry you are struggling so and feel worthless and alone. As painful as those emotions are, they are also very relatable, as people have since time immemorial struggled to find their way and purpose in life. Even Moses the prophet, when he was explicitly called by God to lead His people, thought of himself as unworthy for that role. Also the holy apostle St. Paul cried out in his epistle to the Romans "O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?", because he was so grieved by his inability to walk the path that the Lord had put him on.

We do not take such people to be cowards, or losers, or useless, and really you are not either. But it is easy to begin thinking that if you have difficulty in your relations with your family, or with friends, or in society more generally. And sometimes we can spend a lot of time trying to figure out our way, and when it does not seem clear, or easy, or attainable, we begin to blame ourselves. It is not good, of course, but it is understandable. I know I certainly do that myself (to myself).

I don't want to pretend to have the answers beyond what our fathers and mothers in the faith have given us, though I do find them most helpful (for instance, for me praying the Sunday Psali for the Lord Jesus expresses my own despair and need of help when I am too far down to find my own words). If you do not, of course you can find your own words, from your own heart. I am no expert, but I would think that continuing to talk is probably better than remaining alone in your own thoughts.

You may know it already, but here is a sermon from HH Pope Shenouda III about persevering with God in prayer that is a good reminder of the necessity of laying all your troubles before the Lord, Who wants to give you and all of us all the strength, direction, and hope that we lack.


May God be with you in everything and help and comfort you.
 
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I've been through many thing that caused me to think like this. I'm hopeless, I wait nothing because nothing is going to change. Nothing is going to be better. I'm alone even between my family.I feel like I'm hollow from inside. why I'm still alive ? what is my mission here in this world? what I'm doing here ? what Does God want me to do ? and if there nothing to do why I'm still alive in this torment ? really I can't see a reason for my life. I'm useless , loser , coward and I cause pain to everyone around me.
Mary - Our mission is this life is to love God and love each other, as best as we can humanly do, given our limitations and circumstances that we face. I am very sorry that you feel things are hopeless at the moment. I believe that there are counselors here at Christian Forums. They may have some more detailed advice for you. Not knowing the particulars of your situation, it is difficult for me to say much more. Try and live life one day at a time and remember that there is a life beyond this one and hopefully most of us here at C.F. will make it to Heaven someday.
 
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I've been through many thing that caused me to think like this. I'm hopeless, I wait nothing because nothing is going to change. Nothing is going to be better. I'm alone even between my family.I feel like I'm hollow from inside. why I'm still alive ? what is my mission here in this world? what I'm doing here ? what Does God want me to do ? and if there nothing to do why I'm still alive in this torment ? really I can't see a reason for my life. I'm useless , loser , coward and I cause pain to everyone around me.

As a Christian we often have a time of suffering, and trial before good happens. Remember Joseph was a slave and in prison before he became a ruler in Egypt. David was chased by Saul, chased into the land of the Philistines, and had to fake madness, to prevent his own death. Yet David became the king. Consider the following scripture;

James 1:12 Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.

At the moment you may be going through a time of testing and trial, but if you remain faithful to God, as I am sure you will, you will be given the "crown of life", the ability to rule, and reign in a blessed place.
 
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I've been through many thing that caused me to think like this. I'm hopeless, I wait nothing because nothing is going to change. Nothing is going to be better. I'm alone even between my family.I feel like I'm hollow from inside. why I'm still alive ? what is my mission here in this world? what I'm doing here ? what Does God want me to do ? and if there nothing to do why I'm still alive in this torment ? really I can't see a reason for my life. I'm useless , loser , coward and I cause pain to everyone around me.

I have experienced what you are describing here. It is God granting you to know how much you need Him in your life to guide you and give you power to overcome your weakness. Jesus said "Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness..." which means that God must be your top priority. Jesus said "abide in Me, for apart from Me you can do nothing" - it means Jesus should be in your life continually if you want to accomplish something in life greater than yourself. I recommend you consider these things at the very least:

1. Be patient with yourself and your spiritual growth, and get a long term vision for life.
2. Read some of the Bible every day. Make room for God to speak to you.
3. Seek wisdom and understanding so that you can help others with their issues of life.
4. Make a commitment to love someone every day, since to love is the foremost commandment.
5. Believe that God is with you, since Christ did all that was necessary for it. Practice this faith daily.

I believe if you do these things, you will lose your hopeless feelings and start to get a sense of value in your life. Yet, it's not about you, but about God working through you.
TD:)
 
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I've been through many thing that caused me to think like this. I'm hopeless, I wait nothing because nothing is going to change. Nothing is going to be better. I'm alone even between my family.I feel like I'm hollow from inside. why I'm still alive ? what is my mission here in this world? what I'm doing here ? what Does God want me to do ? and if there nothing to do why I'm still alive in this torment ? really I can't see a reason for my life. I'm useless , loser , coward and I cause pain to everyone around me.
I have also found myself in this position before, too. Things began to change for me what I prayed that God would start changing me from the inside out. I read His Word everyday, prayed and listened to what He might want to say to me. I surrendered myself and my time. He met me right where I was. He started changing me. It was all in His timing and in His power, but He allowed circumstances to be such that I knew I needed Him more than my next breath. He is faithful. He never leaves us or forsakes us. He has a purpose for all of us. He transforms us by the renewing of our minds. By reading His Word in-depth, I started to understand better who God is and how He sees me. God can make a way where there is no way. I like the story of Lazarus in John. Jesus knew Lazarus was going to die so that God's power and glory could be shown. Yet Jesus cried with Mary and Martha in their loss. Then He raised Lazarus to show us that He has power over all things even death. He hurts with us in our hurts. He has the power over all our circumstances including the ways we think about ourselves. Surrender to Him, and let Him change your mind. Hugs!
 
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I've been through many thing that caused me to think like this. I'm hopeless, I wait nothing because nothing is going to change. Nothing is going to be better. I'm alone even between my family.I feel like I'm hollow from inside. why I'm still alive ? what is my mission here in this world? what I'm doing here ? what Does God want me to do ? and if there nothing to do why I'm still alive in this torment ? really I can't see a reason for my life. I'm useless , loser , coward and I cause pain to everyone around me.

Dear one, you are not alone. Many of us have been where you are right now. Maybe EVERYONE has felt that way at one time or another. But you need to know that you are NEVER alone. God is with you, and God is FOR you. His love for you is DEEP.
I am in a similar place right now. I feel detached because of some stresses going on in my life. It feels terrible BUT it would feel much worse if I hadn't been here before and seen the faithfulness of God. He has carried me through each trial and each time of loneliness and sorrow.
When we remind ourselves of God's faithfulness in our past troubles, it helps us to get through the present trials, knowing that He is here now and it will all be well again.
AND we will have learned new life skills in the process.
I'm sorry. I know you feel awful right now. Hold on. God has GOOD in your future---probably your near future.
I have found that, many times, the way out of depression is to take inventory of every good thing in my life, even the tiniest things, like a favorite pen that works, a warm house in cold weather, a comfortable chair to rest on, etc. and I thank God for giving me each one. I name each thing and thank God for it.
As I do, I feel the clouds lifting because when I thank God and proclaim His goodness, I enter into His presence where He has promised that peace and joy wait for me.
I hope that you will feel better today!!
If you need someone to talk with, there are licenced Christian counselors at 855-382-5433.
God bless you and keep you and make His face shine on you!
 
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