Manic-Depr essive, Bipolar 1, Possible, Partial, ptsd, Friends not listening to me, In personal rela

anynmskr said:

I am so sorry, I tried to write that as best as possible, But i don't know how to write very well, I just know how to tell the story....................

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anynmskr said:

Hi. I am new here, And i am disabled, With Bipolar 1, Disorder, A very strict, Christian, Faith, And very, Conservative,
But, living in an imperfect, vessel, Tha t the my spirit is going to lea ve the physical side, someday......... However,
That's not entirely what i want to talk, About,................

I am treated, I am on medications, I take them regua rly, And willingly, And i have no plans on ever not, And continuing to see a professional Nurs e Practitioner,
And/or, Licensed, Psychiatrist,......... My issue, Is my friends,

And some pretty extreme, Bullying,
As well as, Threats, Physical,
Coming from a free, Public dating site, One time,
In which I was there, Because of other friends, And relationships telling me to go there,
In which led to me having an explicit, Nightmare, About the specific verbal, threat,...............

Since then, t he forumson that dating site, Hav e been taken down, And i did not say anything to anyone about it,
However, later, Someone exposed my identity, An d, Said that, God, had "smited" me,
Because he went searching for my real identity, And found it, Because they did not like my conservative, More, Christian, Postings, An d weren't taking me seriously, I don't, think, And saying things, Like, "__ it, with, _" .......


Well, anyway, Nightmar es, Aside,

I had an ongoing online/text, relationship, With a young man i met in a community college class,
Who refused to see me in person,
And then did invite me over, Once, An d walked me in and out of class,
An d claimed,. Several times,
That he just wante d to be friends....

I said i did like him, And didn't thin k i could do that, Because i did not believe that men and women can be just friends, And i'm the woman saying this,
And i still believe this,
And he was very clear,
And very adamant about his disinterest,

And repeatedly, So,
And tried to deter me from my, Christian, Faith....

T o this day,
I still have women in my family,
And women close to me,

Encouraging me,
And pushing me to think that this man likes me, And pursued me, In a romantic, Way,.


Meanwhile,... Off to the side, Here,...

Another man,

Before all of this
,

Came to, And found out that i was at, And in the hospital, And came to the hospital,

And got himself back where the public, And even family members,

Are not allowed, And put on some huge, display,

And to this day,

My mom does not believe me,

He dodges the question, And even if my mom did believe me,.She can't do anything about it,

And he won't say so
Or admit feelings,

Just bounces around the question,

Or doesn't, Answer,

At, All,......


Apart of the reason, All the females in my life,
Are more team,. "Th e other guy", Who verbally, An d outright, rejected me,

Is because he kind of can't sing,
And the other one happens to have more charisma,
And can play mus ic Better,

So my girl friends, Are viewing this guy, As, "Out of my league", And tryin g to,
Rewrite what one of the m said,
An d say that he d id like me,

And lied,
And steer me back towards, the first one,
Because he has less charisma,
And less musical,

Talent. One girl, even said that my own music ,
That i write myself,
That i have not shared,

Is, "Probably, crap............... "" ........


Sooooo.... Anyway....


My mom is thinking about getting me a service dog,

And she thinks i fall under some of the categories, Of not only Bipolar,

But, also, Ptsd,................ ?.?.

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anynmskr said:

I have nobody, Other than my parents,

To rely on,

And looking forward to possibly having a pet,
That i will have to take care of,

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anynmskr said:

Thank you,
I have not hooked up with anyone, I had one official relationship in high schoo l, in which I did kiss, Bu t nothing more than that, An d it was my own decision to wait until I am married, At a very young age,
And i was alaays actively involved, In church,

Until I got sick, With a chronic illness ,

That can be, And has been explained to me as like someone with diabetes,
An d not the kind that you get, From your own doing,
But, the kind that you are b orn with,

And that runs in your genes.

There is a lot of misconception, About mental illness and that something traumatic happened,

And the mental illness community advocates, Have done a poor job at advocating for those people.

This stuff that i am referring to,

Happened l ong after I was diagnosed,

And coincided with Anasognosia,
Which is, "no-insight", In to your illness,

And differs from, denial..........

The ptsd, Could possibly be from the way in which the mentally ill, patient,

Is picked up, And taken to t he hospital,

When they are experiences symptoms,
Of a physical symptom,
Of a physical, Misfiring,
And abnormality, I n the most imortant,

Organ, In the body...

The ptsd, Partial, symptoms,

I do not think came from the online events,

However the s pecific threat,
Did not help,

And i am stil l uncertain if the person was serious,
Or not, Seeing as it was a stranger in a forum,

And i can not read tone of type.........


I have nobody, Other than my parents,

To rely on,

And looking forward to possibly having a pet,
That i will have to take care of,

Yet will also be of some serious, emotional, And mental support, For me,

As well as,

Lets people know that i am not, Just, "O.K." ,

Eve n though i may look fine,

On the outside.

Thanks. And thanks for the prayers. <3. <3. <3. <3.

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