Why am I still so drawn to the occult?

Do you mean researching about it or actually practicing occult stuff ?

chiaseeds said:

So just a little bit of background information.. I have always felt a strong belief in God and went back and forth with Christianity and various other idealisms throughout my younger life (I'm 21 now, still young.) But since I was a young child I've always felt drawn to the occult, magic, numerology, astrology etc. My mother hasn't really ever been in my life (substance abuse and mental health issues), but I've always been under the impression that her lineage has ties with Witchcraft/ Wicca from the things I do know about her. I was finally baptized last July on a whim after a discussion with my uncle and after several encounters with what I now recognize as demons. After I was baptized I really started finding Christ and reading God's word and have fallen deeply in love with Jesus and with the word. I'm still a baby Christian obviously and have a long way to go. What I'm asking basically is why am I still so drawn to the occult? Every time I see something like tarot or magic or anything to do with the occult, it's weirdly so magnetic? I know that it's wrong and it goes against God's word, I know that Jesus is the truth and the way, so why am I still tempted by this stuff? I know how evil it is. It doesn't make sense.

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I'll give you a comedic analogy that will hopefully illustrate my answer more than a wall of text;

God: [chiaseeds] Has now put her faith in me and is saved!

Satan: ...Or has she? *dangles tarot cards and astrology books*

It took me years to quit smoking as a Christian even though I disapproved of it. There are some parts of things we took part of in the world that tend to hang around. We can, though, get deliverance in time by staying on the right things.

chiaseeds said:

So just a little bit of background information.. I have always felt a strong belief in God and went back and forth with Christianity and various other idealisms throughout my younger life (I'm 21 now, still young.) But since I was a young child I've always felt drawn to the occult, magic, numerology, astrology etc. My mother hasn't really ever been in my life (substance abuse and mental health issues), but I've always been under the impression that her lineage has ties with Witchcraft/ Wicca from the things I do know about her. I was finally baptized last July on a whim after a discussion with my uncle and after several encounters with what I now recognize as demons. After I was baptized I really started finding Christ and reading God's word and have fallen deeply in love with Jesus and with the word. I'm still a baby Christian obviously and have a long way to go. What I'm asking basically is why am I still so drawn to the occult? Every time I see something like tarot or magic or anything to do with the occult, it's weirdly so magnetic? I know that it's wrong and it goes against God's word, I know that Jesus is the truth and the way, so why am I still tempted by this stuff? I know how evil it is. It doesn't make sense.

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You being curious about learning about the spiritual realm in and off itself is not a bad thing. There are many theologians and accounts as well that had dung deep into that portion of Christianity, so of course knowing more about it is natural and being aware of it is essential. We should be aware and discerning when it comes to things of the spirit. With that said, where that good desire can go sour is having the desire towards things that are unfruitful. And i think the draw of astrology,magic, etc is probably the idea of having methods and self-producing abilites into tapping into the spiritual realm and having control to then shape and explain how things can be, that probably is not as explainable, controllable, or as "logical" as presented in Christianity.
I get it because sometimes I find myself tempted to give more weight to astrology stuff then as they should, especially when im around others who heavily care about such things. I do suggest to find someone who is knowledgable in the Word and inquire about scriptures and events within the Bible that specifically address how Jesus handle such spirits. Also maybe turning your desire into understanding how God highlights the topic will bring better understanding of our relationship with the spiritual realm and the power and responsibility we hold as Christians. Listen to testimonials of people who have came out of those occults and turn to christianity and how they did it and their thoughts, you can easily find those on Youtube. Some have gone as far as actually understanding occult,witchcraft,etc reading books and documentaries, but its always with the purpose of not being foolish in speech when addressing it to people, and less on trying to do witchcraft. Since you're still new to the faith I don't suggest that as yet. Mature yourself in the faith and stick with the Bible and christian commentaries and testimonies first.
In short, you will have to make it a habit to literally turn to these things instead until you get tired of being tempted over magic and occult things, until the dangers of the occult becomes real for you, be an expert on the Word when it comes to the topic. Share it with friends, make it a learning moment.
Having faith in God is not suppose to be a blind thing. So don't settle for just knowing one or two statements about the situation. Understand and inquire more knowledge so that when temptation do come you're more equipped into handling it.

chiaseeds said:

So just a little bit of background information.. I have always felt a strong belief in God and went back and forth with Christianity and various other idealisms throughout my younger life (I'm 21 now, still young.) But since I was a young child I've always felt drawn to the occult, magic, numerology, astrology etc. My mother hasn't really ever been in my life (substance abuse and mental health issues), but I've always been under the impression that her lineage has ties with Witchcraft/ Wicca from the things I do know about her. I was finally baptized last July on a whim after a discussion with my uncle and after several encounters with what I now recognize as demons. After I was baptized I really started finding Christ and reading God's word and have fallen deeply in love with Jesus and with the word. I'm still a baby Christian obviously and have a long way to go. What I'm asking basically is why am I still so drawn to the occult? Every time I see something like tarot or magic or anything to do with the occult, it's weirdly so magnetic? I know that it's wrong and it goes against God's word, I know that Jesus is the truth and the way, so why am I still tempted by this stuff? I know how evil it is. It doesn't make sense.

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Maybe you're drawn to being self empowered? Just guessing at a reason.

The occult is like a fish hook, even if you don't actively have a demon attached to you. Like gambling, smoking or inappropriate content, its addictive. Have you prayed and repented of any involvement in it? Cast out all demons in the name of Jesus? Ask your church to lay hands and pray for you.

I like theoneandonlypencil's comic description as it rings likely, but the other answers are likely also. The important things is to remember that God did not give us secondhand answers like astrology, although other nations had those and hoped to find answers there. The fact is, God gave us Himself. There is no better answer, Chiaseeds. Dig deep in His word. There may be tendencies, familiar familiarities, or whatever that tempt you to the occult, but the death of Jesus sets you free from all that enslaves: and now that you are free be careful not to get entangled into bondage with your choices.

chiaseeds said:

So just a little bit of background information.. I have always felt a strong belief in God and went back and forth with Christianity and various other idealisms throughout my younger life (I'm 21 now, still young.) But since I was a young child I've always felt drawn to the occult, magic, numerology, astrology etc. My mother hasn't really ever been in my life (substance abuse and mental health issues), but I've always been under the impression that her lineage has ties with Witchcraft/ Wicca from the things I do know about her. I was finally baptized last July on a whim after a discussion with my uncle and after several encounters with what I now recognize as demons. After I was baptized I really started finding Christ and reading God's word and have fallen deeply in love with Jesus and with the word. I'm still a baby Christian obviously and have a long way to go. What I'm asking basically is why am I still so drawn to the occult? Every time I see something like tarot or magic or anything to do with the occult, it's weirdly so magnetic? I know that it's wrong and it goes against God's word, I know that Jesus is the truth and the way, so why am I still tempted by this stuff? I know how evil it is. It doesn't make sense.

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There are two types of trauma that can happen
when you are too young to process trauma correctly.

You can be exposed by others, that's one. And the other is
that you can experience trauma, but have no adult
to help you process it. It's a trauma due to not having
an adult to help you. As if you break a bone and never
have a doctor reset it because a parent wasn't there.

So you may have some "broken bones" that still need to be
reset in place, so they heal.

It is for you to overcome the spirits your mother succumbed to. The best way to beat an enemy is to know and understand them at every turn so you can outsmart them. i think about Daniel here for example. With Jesus your curiosity after the occult might still serve for good. This is as long as you understand you are learning about the enemy and learn the truth of Christ better than the lies of the enemy.

It is only if you are still drawn to practise witchcraft or astrology that you have to die to that longing and find new life in Christ. Longing to be part of the enemy is being part of the enemy, but desiring to understand and learn about your enemy is good practise and can be very useful getting other people drawn into witchcraft free.

It is what you do with your attraction to the occult, faithfully serve Christ with it, or becoming unfaithful and succumbing to the enemy.

Take it all to Christ and let Him determine what is best way to follow.

Peace

chiaseeds said:

So just a little bit of background information.. I have always felt a strong belief in God and went back and forth with Christianity and various other idealisms throughout my younger life (I'm 21 now, still young.) But since I was a young child I've always felt drawn to the occult, magic, numerology, astrology etc. My mother hasn't really ever been in my life (substance abuse and mental health issues), but I've always been under the impression that her lineage has ties with Witchcraft/ Wicca from the things I do know about her. I was finally baptized last July on a whim after a discussion with my uncle and after several encounters with what I now recognize as demons. After I was baptized I really started finding Christ and reading God's word and have fallen deeply in love with Jesus and with the word. I'm still a baby Christian obviously and have a long way to go. What I'm asking basically is why am I still so drawn to the occult? Every time I see something like tarot or magic or anything to do with the occult, it's weirdly so magnetic? I know that it's wrong and it goes against God's word, I know that Jesus is the truth and the way, so why am I still tempted by this stuff? I know how evil it is. It doesn't make sense.

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The bible tells us that witchcraft is a work of the flesh. The flesh is that sinful part of us that gravitates towards wrong doing. The flesh is farther pushed on us by Satan. It need not be a bad feeling to come from the devil. He will use very positive feelings around sin. Making it feel very attractive.

Our task as Christians is to resist the devil, to fight against the sinful lusts, he puts on us. To do this we need to remain faithful to God, to read the bible, and pray. The bible says "pray that you enter not into temptation for the Spirit is willing but the flesh weak". As we spend time in prayer the sinful desires become less and the godly one become greater. Don't worry if you slide towards the old life, just know that with dedication and prayer, you will move away from it.

chiaseeds said:

So just a little bit of background information.. I have always felt a strong belief in God and went back and forth with Christianity and various other idealisms throughout my younger life (I'm 21 now, still young.) But since I was a young child I've always felt drawn to the occult, magic, numerology, astrology etc. My mother hasn't really ever been in my life (substance abuse and mental health issues), but I've always been under the impression that her lineage has ties with Witchcraft/ Wicca from the things I do know about her. I was finally baptized last July on a whim after a discussion with my uncle and after several encounters with what I now recognize as demons. After I was baptized I really started finding Christ and reading God's word and have fallen deeply in love with Jesus and with the word. I'm still a baby Christian obviously and have a long way to go. What I'm asking basically is why am I still so drawn to the occult? Every time I see something like tarot or magic or anything to do with the occult, it's weirdly so magnetic? I know that it's wrong and it goes against God's word, I know that Jesus is the truth and the way, so why am I still tempted by this stuff? I know how evil it is. It doesn't make sense.

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I have a discussion going that you may find helpful........

Near death experiencer describes Satan and demons and

Ask God to show you the reasons you are drawn to it and be honest with the evidence as it comes forth. Yet this may take some time and experience shunning temptation and doing what is right (not rather by giving into temptation which does the opposite and darkens the heart and mind). Temptation though is not a sin, but do indeed be sure that you've repented of and renounced the occult completely to serve the Lord and depend on His grace to strengthen you and provide you as do what is right in His eyes. You quite possibly feel helpless and recognize strongly your need for power outside of yourself. If so, let this help to draw you nearer to the Lord; and if being faithful to Him leaves you feeling weak (and it will), then embrace the weakness, trust His promises, and your patience will be rewarded with experience that will make you secure in the Lord- which in turn should weaken your desire for the occult and also strengthen you to resist in Christ whatever pull towards it yet remains.

Romans 5:1-10: "Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: 2 By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. 3 And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; 4 And patience, experience; and experience, hope: 5 And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us. 6 For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. 7 For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. 8 But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. 9 Much more then, being now justified by his blood, we shall be saved from wrath through him. 10 For if, when we were enemies, we were reconciled to God by the death of his Son, much more, being reconciled, we shall be saved by his life."

chiaseeds said:

Definitely researching

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Well, for me even just researching stuff has brought some negative side effects unfortunately.



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chiaseeds said:

So just a little bit of background information.. I have always felt a strong belief in God and went back and forth with Christianity and various other idealisms throughout my younger life (I'm 21 now, still young.) But since I was a young child I've always felt drawn to the occult, magic, numerology, astrology etc. My mother hasn't really ever been in my life (substance abuse and mental health issues), but I've always been under the impression that her lineage has ties with Witchcraft/ Wicca from the things I do know about her. I was finally baptized last July on a whim after a discussion with my uncle and after several encounters with what I now recognize as demons. After I was baptized I really started finding Christ and reading God's word and have fallen deeply in love with Jesus and with the word. I'm still a baby Christian obviously and have a long way to go. What I'm asking basically is why am I still so drawn to the occult? Every time I see something like tarot or magic or anything to do with the occult, it's weirdly so magnetic? I know that it's wrong and it goes against God's word, I know that Jesus is the truth and the way, so why am I still tempted by this stuff? I know how evil it is. It doesn't make sense.

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Do you still have the objects in your house. This might sound strange but if you have anything in your house or your room thats involved with occultic views get rid of it. Demons are invited into your life by the things we choose to do in our life, and they influence us and try to throw us off course when we try to change. Renouncing the occult requires repentance and prayer and also your will power. You have to be dedicated enough to say no "this is not the way". I used to be involved with angel tarot and new age. How did I get into the occult. I grew up as a Catholic thinking it was ok to pray to Angel's because of the prayers they use. But dont be mistaken there is only one mediator between man in God and that is Jesus. There is no calling down specific Angel's, there's no Mary and the rosary, Mary died after Christ rose from the dead. There's no talking to dead people who have passed away. Everyone is dead until Christs seconding coming. Satan disguises himself as the angel of light and he is the father of lies. Satan comes to steal, kill, and destroy. But Jesus came to give life. God offers eternal things. Satan offers worldly things and wants you to be self empowered by your own ego.

Bible say that many does what he doesn't want and a man is more attracted to the light.I think its true. Sometimes i feel attracted to read about Freemasons, Illuminati all this occultic groups,but then i get many bad thoughs. Like i say a person is attracted to evil.Like girls they know a bad guy ,but they feel attraction and at the end they know they gona get abused.

Really glad to see that you love Jesus and His Word. You've been offered some great advice. Since you like doing research, encouraging you to spend that time in Scripture. It's the only book I know that you can read and study a lifetime and still have a pending list of topics. We're not to be ignorant of the enemy's tactics (II Cor 2:11) and that's what some posts have pointed out. You're drawn to the supernatural so let the Bible be your resource. "The Holy Spirit is the spirit that quickeneth; the flesh profiteth nothing: the words that I speak unto you, they are spirit, and they are life..." John 6:63.

Have you decided which version(s) of The Bible you prefer? The Passion Translation is primarily what I use.

Urge you to study God's names, titles, and attributes with Scriptures listed so you can check them out. Of course, we can pray anytime. Prayer is an audience with our heavenly Father.

Jude1:3Contendforthefaith said:

Well, for me even just researching stuff has brought some negative side effects unfortunately.



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IDK I am the reverse. For some reason bad luck happens to me.I'm researching good stuff. As if I am being dragged back into the abyss by a claw

Nick Moser said:

IDK I am the reverse. For some reason bad luck happens to me.I'm researching good stuff. As if I am being dragged back into the abyss by a claw

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One of the things that has been negative for me is realizing how evil people really are when the veil is removed and you can see the "hidden" wicked things people are doing.

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