Thanks for the replies.
I don't know why but I just find don't want close contact with most people. I help others by giving to charities, I don't want much more involvement than that really at the moment.
there is something called social anxiety, a friend at church has it. Again the you version app has devotionals on anxiety, and I have been sending them. Here I will post one for today, not that you definately have anxiety, but it also works for anxiousness in general: (if you want I can DM you the rest of them if you like it, just DM me)
Prayer Is Your Lifeline
The first step in the journey to freedom from anxious thinking—and the most important step—is to grow your faith by spending time with God. Prayerlessness is a surefire way to keep yourself in bondage to fear. Until you realize that prayer is your lifeline in times of trouble, you will keep searching for other things to fill that void. And you will continue to be disappointed. The Bible calls the other things to which we turn for comfort or satisfaction idols. You need to cast down those idols when you recognize them, and if you cannot recognize them, you need to ask God to reveal the areas in your life in which you’re substituting something for Him.
Prayer is how we develop a relationship with the living God. Prayer is how we voice our struggles to God so He can take them and release us from them. So often we will pick up the phone to call a friend when we are worried, scroll through a newsfeed to get our minds off our problems, or seek advice from an unidentifiable group of “friends” on social media when God is right there ready to help. God needs to be our first call. We call on Him through prayer. When we call on anything else before Him, we flirt with idolatry.
Teach yourself this rhyme to avoid jumping to another defense mechanism before you consult with Christ: “When I fear, I need God here. Who needs to hear it? Holy Spirit.” Then drop to your knees, bow your head, or simply whisper, “Help me, Jesus.” You will be amazed at how fast He runs to you. You can feel good knowing you went to God first and avoided idolatry.
Prayer Focus: Spend time with God in prayer. Ask Him to reveal any idols that may be interfering with your relationship with Him.
