I want to understand me in a thorough way.
A very different stance than that of Scripture which urges you to die to yourself (
Matthew 16:24-25), to decrease that Christ might increase in you. Understanding yourself requires focusing on yourself and that is always the first step toward spiritual disaster. In Scripture, we are urged instead to fix our eyes upon Christ (
Hebrews 12:1-3), to behold his glory (
2 Corinthians 3:18) and as we do, the Spirit of Christ, the Holy Spirit, transforms us into the likeness of our Saviour.
When I go long periods of time without sinning, my heart still longs for a long lost sibling I don't know if I have.
If you don't know you have a long-lost sibling, why do you long for him/her? Can you trust that, sibling or not, God has done, and will do, right in the course of the life He has set for you?
Maybe it is a spiritual bondage from a demonic force, but I think Christians use this as answer for things they don't understand, such as psychology.
Sometimes Christians may cry, "Demon!" when there is another problem entirely but, then again, such a cry is not
always mistaken. Assigning cause erroneously is not made only in one direction. Modern psychology denies the supernatural, attributing a person's inner struggles, not to things spiritual, but to psychological disease, or childhood trauma, or physiological problems - things fundamentally material and natural - and can never agree to the notion that there is a spiritual realm in which every person moves that influences, for good or ill, their thinking and behaviour. Such a naturalistic presupposition guarantees that psychology cannot get at the full truth of things. We are spiritual beings, made in the imago dei, the Bible says. Much of our inner distress stems from spiritual problems that cannot be resolved by the strategies and theories of a system that denies the spiritual and the God who made us to exist as spiritual beings.
Don't worry. I've had all the counseling including counseling that is against psychology, 'Nouthethic Counseling'. I don't discount that type of counseling. It is a method; I just never found success with someone trying to guilt me into submission since I came to them already feeling guilty.
I've heard of Nouthetic Counseling but I'm not urging you toward it. God says in His word that if you're one of His, He has already set you free from sin's power in Christ (
Romans 6). As you "reckon it so" (
Romans 6:11) from a life lived in submission to God moment-by-moment, the truth of Romans 6 more and more will become your daily reality. This has certainly been my experience over the many decades I have walked with God.
I'm not looking for a 'superior way to true spiritual freedom'. True spiritual freedom is a reality; but sometimes there are psychological barriers to that occurring.
After many years of discipling Christians, I've come to see that the "psychological barriers" people have to walking well with God are just distractions from, and symptoms of, the real core of the problem: God is not enthroned in one's heart. When He is - truly is - one's "psychological barriers" inevitably dissolve under His awesome truth and power.