Hello everyone! I've only been on this site, once last year I believe.
I'm basically here today because I am genuinely lost in my faith. Last year, a series of very heartbreaking and difficult events happened, which essentially broke me. I was very depressed, and tried my best to seek out comfort in God during that time. It was hard, but eventually I kind of just accepted my circumstances and held onto God for hope for better things etc.
Recently I had been relying on God for different aspects of my life, things that I've been very anxious about and just decided to put my trust in Him, and pray believing that I will "receive." When I go to church, or watch sermons online, they talk about building up your faith and praying to God for things that you need. So that's what I've done. However it seems that for all of these big things in my life, last year and continued now, I always receive a "no" from God. Hearing "no" constantly is sort of wearing me down, and is causing me to be afraid to pray for things out of fear of being disappointed again. I know that not everything is in God's will, which is hard to accept sometimes but I am working on being obedient.
When do we pray? When do reach out to God when we need help, or comfort, etc.? Because right now it just honestly seems like I'm alone. God has been my only source of comfort when it seems like I'm alone here on earth, but He's the one place I can turn to because I thought he would be there for me. But right now, it seems like even He's not there, that He's not listening or just wants to continue to break me.
I know that this is a lot, I have a lot to say. Please be kind, I'm still working on my Journey with Christ.
I'm basically here today because I am genuinely lost in my faith. Last year, a series of very heartbreaking and difficult events happened, which essentially broke me. I was very depressed, and tried my best to seek out comfort in God during that time. It was hard, but eventually I kind of just accepted my circumstances and held onto God for hope for better things etc.
Recently I had been relying on God for different aspects of my life, things that I've been very anxious about and just decided to put my trust in Him, and pray believing that I will "receive." When I go to church, or watch sermons online, they talk about building up your faith and praying to God for things that you need. So that's what I've done. However it seems that for all of these big things in my life, last year and continued now, I always receive a "no" from God. Hearing "no" constantly is sort of wearing me down, and is causing me to be afraid to pray for things out of fear of being disappointed again. I know that not everything is in God's will, which is hard to accept sometimes but I am working on being obedient.
When do we pray? When do reach out to God when we need help, or comfort, etc.? Because right now it just honestly seems like I'm alone. God has been my only source of comfort when it seems like I'm alone here on earth, but He's the one place I can turn to because I thought he would be there for me. But right now, it seems like even He's not there, that He's not listening or just wants to continue to break me.
I know that this is a lot, I have a lot to say. Please be kind, I'm still working on my Journey with Christ.