- Oct 18, 2014
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My husband died of cancer 1 week ago. What do I do now? He was only 57. We were married over 20 years, together almost 22 years.
I have found that God does hear all prayers and he responds to prayer...but not all the time and not necessarily in the way we, from our limited perspective, think is best. A Christian has to understand that God is not a celestial ATM machine who dispenses whatever and whenever, regardless of all everything else.Right now, Griefshare is just making me angry. I prayed for MONTHS about his health and about getting his VA disability claim approved. I'm 0 for 2. Where is God in all this? All that "ask and you shall receive" hooey is just that, hooey.
I walked out of church last sunday, just couldn't deal with it. Don't know if I'll ever go back.
I haven't bothered with church or my bible study group this week. My "official" excuse is that I've been sick (and I have been), but the truth is I hate going places alone that we used to go together, like church, the grocery store, just simple places. Its just too hard.
Not getting anywhere on the disability thing either. Still mad as heck about getting denied the benefits we both deserved. I have no medical insurance, nothing other than some savings. Waiting to see what happens with the malpractice suit that will be filed soon.