I would like Godly counsel in regards to dealing with a toxic parent. I know we are to honor our mother and father so that is first and foremost my goal. I do love her, but feel that this is a challenging situation that I need to handle carefully.
I will try to make this as short as possible. Tonight my mom and I were just talking and somehow got on the topic of the story of her entire life - she talked about how her mom never loved her, she was cheated on by everyone, and feels like my sister hates her. I said that I don’t think my sister hates her, but that she feels very judged by my mom because she has tattoos from head to toe pretty much and my mom hates tattoos...so I think my sister feels that she isn’t accepted. She flipped out at me saying “well maybe I should just buy a gun and kill myself because I’m a f*** up in every way”. She said that she’s entitled to her own opinion about tattoos and said “I hate them, they’re hideous, I don’t understand how anyone can do that to their body, it’s a desecration. I don’t like her tattoos, I don’t like your tattoos, I don’t like anyone’s tattoos”. I told her well yes you are entitled to your own opinion but don’t you think that maybe your reactions have come across judgmental? She escalated even more from there about things so I just let her talk and was silent at that point. I wasn’t being critical of her at all, I was just telling her how it may look from my sisters perspective. I mean it made me feel bad to have her say out loud to my face that she hates my tattoos!
We also got on the topic of the Bible a few times and disagreed about some things (she thinks that if you’re a Christian but later denounce your belief in Christ you’ll still go to heaven; we disagreed on some other things too) and she would just escalate to anger very easily instead of being able to have a simple conversation about it. She yelled at me saying “I’m NOT GOING TO DEBATE THE BIBLE WITH YOU”. I wasn’t trying o debate but I do like to have intellectual conversations. I realized that I can’t do that with her because if I say anything in opposition to her she will scream at me.
So do I just stick to very generic subjects with her from now on? Do I plan a sit down “intervention” to tell her how I feel? Do I quote scripture to her? I have no idea how to handle this. I can’t be myself around her or talk honestly about things. I’m often very ashamed of the way she speaks (she called my grandma a piece of sh** shortly after saying how she’s a Christian). I know none of us our perfect but it’s hard to be in that kind of company. I want to tell her you know that kind of talk is not very glorifying to God..but I’m afraid of what she would say back to me at this point. Any thoughts or suggestions are appreciated.
I will try to make this as short as possible. Tonight my mom and I were just talking and somehow got on the topic of the story of her entire life - she talked about how her mom never loved her, she was cheated on by everyone, and feels like my sister hates her. I said that I don’t think my sister hates her, but that she feels very judged by my mom because she has tattoos from head to toe pretty much and my mom hates tattoos...so I think my sister feels that she isn’t accepted. She flipped out at me saying “well maybe I should just buy a gun and kill myself because I’m a f*** up in every way”. She said that she’s entitled to her own opinion about tattoos and said “I hate them, they’re hideous, I don’t understand how anyone can do that to their body, it’s a desecration. I don’t like her tattoos, I don’t like your tattoos, I don’t like anyone’s tattoos”. I told her well yes you are entitled to your own opinion but don’t you think that maybe your reactions have come across judgmental? She escalated even more from there about things so I just let her talk and was silent at that point. I wasn’t being critical of her at all, I was just telling her how it may look from my sisters perspective. I mean it made me feel bad to have her say out loud to my face that she hates my tattoos!
We also got on the topic of the Bible a few times and disagreed about some things (she thinks that if you’re a Christian but later denounce your belief in Christ you’ll still go to heaven; we disagreed on some other things too) and she would just escalate to anger very easily instead of being able to have a simple conversation about it. She yelled at me saying “I’m NOT GOING TO DEBATE THE BIBLE WITH YOU”. I wasn’t trying o debate but I do like to have intellectual conversations. I realized that I can’t do that with her because if I say anything in opposition to her she will scream at me.
So do I just stick to very generic subjects with her from now on? Do I plan a sit down “intervention” to tell her how I feel? Do I quote scripture to her? I have no idea how to handle this. I can’t be myself around her or talk honestly about things. I’m often very ashamed of the way she speaks (she called my grandma a piece of sh** shortly after saying how she’s a Christian). I know none of us our perfect but it’s hard to be in that kind of company. I want to tell her you know that kind of talk is not very glorifying to God..but I’m afraid of what she would say back to me at this point. Any thoughts or suggestions are appreciated.