Okay, so this is going to be rather long, I apologize for the length but I've been considering this for well over a month now and I honestly don't know what to do.
Okay, so let me start from the beginning. Since I was about six months old I've had the talent of playing video games. I'm actually very good at playing them and have been for a REALLY long time. However, the video games that I've enjoyed/been good at playing throughout my life were definitely not "Godly" games. I've been playing RPGs since I was about three years old, shooters since I was about eight years old, and games like GTA from 16-27 or so. I've also massively enjoyed playing the Harvest Moon series ever since the first game came out on the SNES. Despite it's constant references to Alcoholism and sexuality (Especially Harvest Moon 64. It CONSTANTLY references alcoholism and sexuality).
I don't play GTA anymore, idk why it just convicts the hell out of me. Especially after I became a Christian. But I do still love to play RPGs (Especially JRPGs) and MMO's and occasionally shooter games. Games like that that are definitely NOT Godly and are clearly Satanic.
I've also from the age of about eight or so, have been extremely talented in computers. When I was around 10 years old I coded my own website (Which eventually got hacked because I used "password" as my password but hey! I was 10-11 years old! Ofc I was dumb like that." and I've been repairing and building computers ever since I was at a very young age.
So those basically, are the only two skills that God has given me. I can sometimes do math in my head but basic math like addition,subtraction, multiplication, and divison. When it comes to algebra and up, I literally can't comprehend that kind of math. I've completely flunked every algebra class I've ever taken in my life. I've also almost completely forgotten how you do fractions but I do remember I had a lot of difficulty learning fractions in 5th grade.
Anyway, my "skill" in math isn't really advanced enough for me to use it for the glory of God.
However, I've been feeling lead into playing more and more video games and using my computer talents more and more over the course of the last several months. After mostly giving them all up for 2-3 years because they were "sins against God" and "Not what God wants from me." But, I feel like God has lead me into starting to care about computers again. My wife and I just recently upgraded my rig which was in definite need of an upgrade because I last upgraded it basically back in 2013. I usually upgrade my rig every 3-4 years or so. So God provided me an upgraded rig. I also badly need to upgrade my wife's system because I bought her basically something weaker than a microwave oven but it was all I could afford when I bought it so, I provided it for her so that we could play video games together.
I believe he provided me that upgraded rig so that I can play various video games to do soul winning and charity on. My wife and I have been playing one particular game called World Of Warcraft that I've been playing pretty much ever since 2006 and she's being playing since 2014-15 or so.
We both really love the game and constantly come back to it. But, this particular leading of the "Holy Spirit" wants me to use World Of Warcraft as a game of soul winning and charity since I'm very talented at making gold for that game and you can pay for your subscription with gold on that game. So, I've been giving people free bags on that game, free game time, free gold for expenditures, just... whatever they need. I have a lot of gold on WoW and I can make millions and millions of gold very easily so it's charity that really isn't hard for me to do because I'm skilled in that area. All the while leading up to telling them about Christ. Since then God has blessed me with a Christian friend on there who saw one of my soul winning messages in trade chat and felt obligated to whisper me. We've been battle.net friends ever since. He also blessed me with this other friend who I believe he wants me to work on to bring to Christ. This friend has been helping my wife and I advance in the game every chance he can get so, he's a really good guy. He is however, an atheist so yay! Someone I can work on!
My wife and I met another good friend on another "satanic" game called Wizard 101 who grew up in a Christian family. This particular friend is very suicidal and depressed and has attempted suicide several times in the time since I've known him. But, he has come to me for advice numerous times about this particular problem and seems genuinely interested in what I have to say about Christ. So, I think eventually with much prodding from me, he will eventually come to Christ again "For real". Since, he was only a "christian" before because he grew up in a Christian home and then when one of his pastors raped him he stopped believing altogether because, how could God "allow" that to happen. Basically.
So God's been blessing me with multitudes of friends both Christian and non Christian. The only problem is, they're online. I literally have nobody to talk to IRL but my wife and occasionally my mom and dad. I'll talk to my sister like once a year.
But, I'm being either blessed by God or by Satan. If Satan was the one who gave me these two gifts than, he gave me gifts that give me fulfillment and joy in my life. And why would Satan want that? Satan just wants to devour me and to get me to lose my salvation. Which, just isn't possible. How do I know that? The entirety of the NT teaches that it is.
I know, when always coming to an important decision in your life like this you should always turn to scripture and prayer. Well, here's the thing scripture has verses both for this, and against this, and idk which ones to pick and go with.
Here are a few scriptures for it:
Ephesians 2:10, Exodus 35:10, James 1:17, 1 Corinthians 12:1-11, 1 Peter 4:10-11, Exodus 31:3-5, Matthew 5:14-16, Romans 12:6-7, 1 Timothy 4:4, Jeremiah 29:11.
and here a few against it:
Revelation 21:8, Leviticus 20:16, Revelation 22:15, Galatians 5:19-21, 1 John 4:1, 1 Corinthians 6:9-10.
As for prayer, I've been praying about this quite frequently ever since the "Holy Spirits" first leadings, opened up several topics dodging around this issue because quite frankly, I'm embarrassed that I'm even asking for advice on such an issue. I mean, several people are going to be for it and several people are going to be against it, so how do I know which one to choose? Eventually, I'm going to have to trust in either the "wrong" or "right" choice.
But you know what the stupidest thing is? I believe that God is going to bless me and desires for me to be playing these Satanic video games! Sure, a soul won to Christ is a soul won to Christ and the more people I get to bless, the better.
This also isn't stopping my IRL Charity work, it's just in addition to it.
But if the Holy Spirit is leading me this way than I should obey. However, how can one tell the difference between the leading of the Holy Spirit and the leading of Satan? But, here's one REALLY good question. Why would Satan want me to bring people TO Christ? Wouldn't he be trying to lead me and to get me to lead people AWAY from Christ? So this leading HAS to come from God! So, idk why I'm even being stupid! I should obey immediately! But, I just don't want to be tricked by Satan! Sure, I won't lose my salvation, bla bla bla. But, I WILL lose rewards if I listen to the devil and obey the devil rather than God. I want to live for GOD not the devil!
But you know what the REALLY weird part is? I came to Christ because of a Christian who constantly worked on me that I personally had met on World of Warcraft. I met him around November of 2009 and I converted from Atheism to Christianity and received the Holy Spirit sometime in the middle of November 2013. So, his efforts were not in vain and one of Christ's sheep found salvation because of a satanic video game. God turned something that was evil into something good. So... maybe it is God... idk...
