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Basically I can't feel anything. Can't feel happy or sad. Can't feel guilty or satisfied. Can't feel anything at all. I'm just an empty shell. No soul or life in me. I have no conscience or empathy for anyone. I can't be humble or contrite before God. I feel nothing.

Been like this for 3 years.

I'm on several medications and I do have a psychiatrist who I tell my problems to. The problem is the medications are not really helping and nobody takes me seriously. I can't seem to get any help at all.

My mind has recovered to some degree to where I have better clarity of thought and my appetite has returned and food tastes good again. Does this mean I'm recovering?
 

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Basically I can't feel anything. Can't feel happy or sad. Can't feel guilty or satisfied. Can't feel anything at all. I'm just an empty shell. No soul or life in me. I have no conscience or empathy for anyone. I can't be humble or contrite before God. I feel nothing.

Been like this for 3 years.

I'm on several medications and I do have a psychiatrist who I tell my problems to. The problem is the medications are not really helping and nobody takes me seriously. I can't seem to get any help at all.

My mind has recovered to some degree to where I have better clarity of thought and my appetite has returned and food tastes good again. Does this mean I'm recovering?

Medications help some people .... some not ... sometimes they even can worsen a persons condition.

I'd recommend spending a lot of time in Gods Word and in prayer.

We ALL go through tribulations in this world and need to recognize them as such ... mental anguish of various sorts are tribulations we do experience.

The better remedy is drawing nearer to the Lord and staying near Him.

May the Lord bring you peace. Amen
 
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My mind has recovered to some degree to where I have better clarity of thought and my appetite has returned and food tastes good again. Does this mean I'm recovering?

This is always a good sign and a good thing no matter what. You're recovering from something, in some area at least. We know our mental fortitude and health is like a structure where one thing supports another. One thing crumbles, and another gets weak. But also when one thing gets stronger, it will support the weaker ones.

Take this small victory and embrace it, it's a good thing. We can thank God for these little things that often turn out to be bigger than they seem. Clarity, appetite, very good things. And if you enjoy the taste of food, you have tapped into enjoyment again. If you haven't enjoyed anything in years, this little thing here is actually a big thing. You are now able to enjoy at least something! Later on you could be enjoying some other things too. So many times the best things to enjoy are the simplest ones, the ones we tend to take for granted. But if we lose our ability to enjoy then, and then get it back - or at least some of it - then we know how precious they are and we can truly enjoy these things. It's like slowly getting some footing into good reality, with small steps, but these steps will make a good strong path in the long run.

It's common in depression to lose all enjoyment and even feeling, to feel like a dead person walking - if they're even able to walk, some depressed people are almost bedridden and can't seem to be able to function or to even perform basic trivial tasks. Most people still have this pressing sense of melancholy and sadness, so it's not very common to be absolutely emotionless, but everything's possible. Our brain is a strange thing. And yeah, some medication can make things worse. Out of all meds that I had for my depression, I didn't settle for the one that I felt helping me most, but for the one that bothered me the least. But who knows, perhaps something good came out of it. It's just so damn hard to tell when you're in the thick of it. When I was on a cocktail of many meds, I was like a drooling zombie at times. Just existing, and doing even that badly.

Will be praying for you brother. I hope your psychiatrist takes you seriously and doesn't just shove meds down your throat, and that you'd actually have some other ways to deal with this too. If you don't have emotion, don't worry about it, since you can't force it and it's not in your control. There's just something not clicking in your brain. We don't need emotion to go to God as we are, and we don't need feeling to love each other in truth and action. In many cases, such as mine, emotion is distracting, especially when I respond to fear and anxiety almost with a primordial force and it can be hard to handle. Anyway, you have a little victory here, it's a very good thing, and these little things are paving way for other things in time. God bless you and Christ be with you.
 
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Basically I can't feel anything. Can't feel happy or sad. Can't feel guilty or satisfied. Can't feel anything at all. I'm just an empty shell. No soul or life in me. I have no conscience or empathy for anyone. I can't be humble or contrite before God. I feel nothing.

Been like this for 3 years.

I'm on several medications and I do have a psychiatrist who I tell my problems to. The problem is the medications are not really helping and nobody takes me seriously. I can't seem to get any help at all.

My mind has recovered to some degree to where I have better clarity of thought and my appetite has returned and food tastes good again. Does this mean I'm recovering?

Yes i identify with you it has been like this for me for many years, i feel nothing most of the time or i feel really hot welling emotions that are so overpowering strong that i often can't recognise what emotion it is that i'm feeling when overcome. Especially my love i can't feel emotionally though i still love i can't feel it as an emotion.

It is called clinical depression and anti-depressants make it worse for me not better. i treat it with amino acid, vitamins and minerals but it only helps in part.

i found that knowing Scripture and loving God and neighbour is the best way to deal with the lack of having an emotional protection mechanisms. The more we internalise the truth of God's love the more we are protected from the cold deadness inside. See we can be dead emotionally but we can still decide to do good and be good and so we still grow in those areas of our lives. To actively care for people is the best way to challenge the deadness inside. Cultivating love is actively loving - true love is action not merely a good feeling.

So please be of good courage and heed the love of God in your life rather than the inner coldness of your psychological condition.

Peace.
 
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Medications help some people .... some not ... sometimes they even can worsen a persons condition.

I'd recommend spending a lot of time in Gods Word and in prayer.

We ALL go through tribulations in this world and need to recognize them as such ... mental anguish of various sorts are tribulations we do experience.

The better remedy is drawing nearer to the Lord and staying near Him.

May the Lord bring you peace. Amen

Thank you. I am working on getting closer to the Lord but it is hard with this emotional numbness.

This is always a good sign and a good thing no matter what. You're recovering from something, in some area at least. We know our mental fortitude and health is like a structure where one thing supports another. One thing crumbles, and another gets weak. But also when one thing gets stronger, it will support the weaker ones.

Take this small victory and embrace it, it's a good thing. We can thank God for these little things that often turn out to be bigger than they seem. Clarity, appetite, very good things. And if you enjoy the taste of food, you have tapped into enjoyment again. If you haven't enjoyed anything in years, this little thing here is actually a big thing. You are now able to enjoy at least something! Later on you could be enjoying some other things too. So many times the best things to enjoy are the simplest ones, the ones we tend to take for granted. But if we lose our ability to enjoy then, and then get it back - or at least some of it - then we know how precious they are and we can truly enjoy these things. It's like slowly getting some footing into good reality, with small steps, but these steps will make a good strong path in the long run.

It's common in depression to lose all enjoyment and even feeling, to feel like a dead person walking - if they're even able to walk, some depressed people are almost bedridden and can't seem to be able to function or to even perform basic trivial tasks. Most people still have this pressing sense of melancholy and sadness, so it's not very common to be absolutely emotionless, but everything's possible. Our brain is a strange thing. And yeah, some medication can make things worse. Out of all meds that I had for my depression, I didn't settle for the one that I felt helping me most, but for the one that bothered me the least. But who knows, perhaps something good came out of it. It's just so damn hard to tell when you're in the thick of it. When I was on a cocktail of many meds, I was like a drooling zombie at times. Just existing, and doing even that badly.

Will be praying for you brother. I hope your psychiatrist takes you seriously and doesn't just shove meds down your throat, and that you'd actually have some other ways to deal with this too. If you don't have emotion, don't worry about it, since you can't force it and it's not in your control. There's just something not clicking in your brain. We don't need emotion to go to God as we are, and we don't need feeling to love each other in truth and action. In many cases, such as mine, emotion is distracting, especially when I respond to fear and anxiety almost with a primordial force and it can be hard to handle. Anyway, you have a little victory here, it's a very good thing, and these little things are paving way for other things in time. God bless you and Christ be with you.

Yes as you said it's not common to feel emotionless. It is hard because most people can't relate to what I tell them about my condition. And yes I've been appreciating food so much now! I never remembered food tasting this good! I am enjoying this and valuing it so much more now.

About 6 months ago I was unable to get out of bed because I was so dead. I would just come online and look on this site or google my problem and then go back to bed. Now I can somewhat function and do things.
 
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Yes i identify with you it has been like this for me for many years, i feel nothing most of the time or i feel really hot welling emotions that are so overpowering strong that i often can't recognise what emotion it is that i'm feeling when overcome. Especially my love i can't feel emotionally though i still love i can't feel it as an emotion.

It is called clinical depression and anti-depressants make it worse for me not better. i treat it with amino acid, vitamins and minerals but it only helps in part.

i found that knowing Scripture and loving God and neighbour is the best way to deal with the lack of having an emotional protection mechanisms. The more we internalise the truth of God's love the more we are protected from the cold deadness inside. See we can be dead emotionally but we can still decide to do good and be good and so we still grow in those areas of our lives. To actively care for people is the best way to challenge the deadness inside. Cultivating love is actively loving - true love is action not merely a good feeling.

So please be of good courage and heed the love of God in your life rather than the inner coldness of your psychological condition.

Peace.

I am so glad(intellectually glad since I can't feel it) to have finally found someone who can relate to feeling nothing and being unable to feel love.

What you said about emotions being "safety protection mechanisms" is so true! I have to intellectually force myself to do the right thing every single day without it resonating with me on the inside. I don't feel good when I do good things and I don't feel bad if I sin or do something bad. I'm broken.

How long have you been like this? You say sometimes you DO have emotions?

I appreciate your advice. I will try to do the right thing and "love" God and my neighbor even though I cannot feel it.
 
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How long have you been like this? You say sometimes you DO have emotions?

i've been like this ever since my first major psychosis, 23 years ago. It has been a pitiful loss and it took me years to get over it. Yes sometimes i can feel emotions, usually when bad news, or shocking things have happened, my feelings trigger badly in such an amplified way that they seem more like over tightened piano strings than emotions. It hurts to feel like that, really badly, but i don't get it very often usually i feel little emotions. Though nowadays i do appreciated food and nature again and of course God's love over me is awesome though i can't respond back emotionally i can respond intellectually. Building a good living relationship with Him has prevented me from going of the rails not feeling guilt or shame.

He has been amazing to get to know on all fronts in my life.

Wishing you His nearness and friendship.


A Way Out Of Depression

How can we have meaning if we don't love?
everything else is but a clinging cymbal,
a sounding gong!
Of no importance in the scheme of things.
A loving faith takes us Home to Him!
He who is love Himself!
Hide in His love!
..and love His children,
and all Creation too!
and find a way out,
of this hell hole we've been in.
His love the way out of depression.
 
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I will try to do the right thing and "love" God and my neighbor even though I cannot feel it.

Excellent decision. We can work around our feelings, and we can also work around our lack of them. "Love others as yourself" is an easy concept to understand even without emotions. We do want and yearn for all kinds of comfort, joy, relief and love, we want that for ourselves. Even if we're emotionally dead or broken, that basic fundamental understanding of what love is, somehow remains.

Time for me to cook some food. You enjoy yours!
 
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I have a feeling that someone in this thread prayed for me because starting yesterday I felt a couple of emotions very dimly for the first time after 3 years! My mind feels a lot better too. I am still far away from recovering but I am starting to have hope.
 
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Basically I can't feel anything. Can't feel happy or sad. Can't feel guilty or satisfied. Can't feel anything at all. I'm just an empty shell. No soul or life in me. I have no conscience or empathy for anyone. I can't be humble or contrite before God. I feel nothing.

Been like this for 3 years.

I'm on several medications and I do have a psychiatrist who I tell my problems to. The problem is the medications are not really helping and nobody takes me seriously. I can't seem to get any help at all.

My mind has recovered to some degree to where I have better clarity of thought and my appetite has returned and food tastes good again. Does this mean I'm recovering?
If you are seeing a psychiatrist they should mostly be handling your medication.

I would be straight forward, maybe you need a different doctor if your does not take your needs seriously.

I would get very specific in how your feeling and spend some time writing it out before your next appointment.

Then ask if you can read it to him. But take your time and put all your thoughts down. But this should be about your overall condition over the past 3 years, not specific instances or struggles.

He may be picking up short term issues if you discuss them not realizing it is a long term pattern.

Pray about it and take a week and write it out.
 
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I have a feeling that someone in this thread prayed for me because starting yesterday I felt a couple of emotions very dimly for the first time after 3 years! My mind feels a lot better too. I am still far away from recovering but I am starting to have hope.

Many did. But that's great! Awesome! Thank Christ!

All sufferings and tribulations will, in time, strengthen our faith. It doesn't matter what they are. But that's not all. It enables us to comfort those who have suffered in the same way. So if the day comes when you know you are significantly better, and you see someone struggling like you did, you are in an excellent position to encourage them and you WANT to do it. It seems like God works like that, often. It would be enough for us if we get comforted and reassured, but it's not enough for Him. So often it will be a blessing for someone else, too. Before we felt like there was nothing in the cup, but later on the cup is overflowing.
 
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I have a feeling that someone in this thread prayed for me because starting yesterday I felt a couple of emotions very dimly for the first time after 3 years! My mind feels a lot better too. I am still far away from recovering but I am starting to have hope.
So
Awesome.

We all need to pray for you.

Group hug :groupray:
 
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I have a feeling that someone in this thread prayed for me because starting yesterday I felt a couple of emotions very dimly for the first time after 3 years! My mind feels a lot better too. I am still far away from recovering but I am starting to have hope.

That is how it works, faith in God's lover brings us hope and on such hope we can build securely. Be of very good courage.

Will keep praying as i know others are as well.

Peace

An invitation to The Chosen.

God's Love will not take or will
you to conform to rules or demand
which imprison, enslave, burn or kill you.

God's Love will not pervert what's Good
The Lord loves truthfully Wise and Good.
True Love was, is and always will be Good!

In God's Love you are free to be right!
In His love everything is good proper and kind.
He loves all who love good and true to rule!

His Love is caring, providing, and sharing.
His Love always enjoys and protects good life.
His love rules even when bad life has being in us!

Hear Jesus call - 'Come join up with us all!
Leave whatever ties you down and be free
loving good life with all God's own to be.'

To the rest in your heart God's asks
how long will you tarry in the darkness?
Please leave such bad existence within.

For life must not, no never should, or would, or could,
be forceful, rude, prideful, arrogant, selfish, lustful
or otherwise be untrue to God's loving truth.

Neither should life be hurting or ill,
hungry, oppressed, despised, hated
or otherwise have existence in wrong.

Please hand your Bad Life over to Jesus
Humbly ask for His Good Life back in return
and go love God, self and neighbour with Joy.

The Church knows that Jesus is coming soon
All bad life will be our shameful past then,
so please leave your bad life while you can!

Love
 
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Sorry for digging up this thread again but I just need to talk to someone. I have had nobody to talk to since I dropped out of college(due to my problem) and lost all contact(except for the occasional text or phone call) with my friends due to them being gone at college.

So the last month or so I've seen definite improvements in my mind. My mind is almost back to normal, I think.

I can feel a little bit of "emotions" now but not really. Basically I can feel reflex emotions where I can "react" to things. For example I can flinch if something unexpected happens. Like I am "surprised" or "frightened"... But not really. This is still a definite improvement since I didn't even have this for the last 3 years but this has returned within the last month. Plus my ability to enjoy things have somewhat increased. I am able to "enjoy" things to a certain degree. However I don't feel any emotional enjoyment. I just force myself to enjoy things by noticing the small things and thanking God for it and etc.

But for genuine emotions... No. I still can't feel love or anything. Can't even feel afraid. I don't really have a conscience because I don't emotionally react to anything. Makes me wonder if I still have the Holy Spirit or not. I was sinning when my emotions died and it makes me wonder if I did something unpardonable or if I have somehow inadvertently rejected Christ due to my sin and not thinking about Him.
 
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But for genuine emotions... No. I still can't feel love or anything. Can't even feel afraid. I don't really have a conscience because I don't emotionally react to anything. Makes me wonder if I still have the Holy Spirit or not. I was sinning when my emotions died and it makes me wonder if I did something unpardonable or if I have somehow inadvertently rejected Christ due to my sin and not thinking about Him.

We cannot throw Christ out inadvertently any more than we can inadvertently get Him in. We're idiots. God knows it. He sees us, knows absolutely well what a bunch of stumbling fools we are. He will not haphazardly throw the most important ball in all creation for us, just to see how long it takes until we drop it, because if that was the case, all of us would drop it and most of us right then and there. Christ didn't come as a reward for the righteousness of the people, He came because we were and are far from it. We have to believe He knows what He is doing. We don't even know what we're doing, we are constantly trying to figure ourselves out, but that is not the case with God. If something is important, He will not lose it. That's why we don't keep God in our hand or carry Christ on our shoulders, we are on His hand and His shoulders and He alone supports His own hand and His own shoulders.

The early congregations had to be constantly reminded of the Holy Spirit, what it does, and why they have it. Reminders, encouragement, exhortations. We are to assume that these people were healthy and normal in the way that they had their emotions, but they too needed assurance. And if you imagine a caricature of a God-hating atheist, even those who were Christians before and now against it with all their will, they too have their emotions intact.

I can feel a little bit of "emotions" now but not really. Basically I can feel reflex emotions where I can "react" to things. For example I can flinch if something unexpected happens. Like I am "surprised" or "frightened"... But not really. This is still a definite improvement since I didn't even have this for the last 3 years but this has returned within the last month. Plus my ability to enjoy things have somewhat increased. I am able to "enjoy" things to a certain degree. However I don't feel any emotional enjoyment. I just force myself to enjoy things by noticing the small things and thanking God for it and etc.

Reflexes kind of suggest passive awareness and functional readiness. Something is working. Good. Must be really damn strange if one doesn't even have working reflexes.

If you notice small things and you're thankful for them (even if you don't FEEL thankful), that's definitely a change for the better too. And you also enjoy food more now. How about music, movies? Games? Anything there and in things that normally make us react somehow?

How about your parents, relatives? If your friends are in college, I hope you don't shut other people out too much.
 
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Must be really damn strange if one doesn't even have working reflexes.

Oh you have no idea... I was so broken. It was driving me insane to the point where I was thinking about suicide.

If you notice small things and you're thankful for them (even if you don't FEEL thankful), that's definitely a change for the better too. And you also enjoy food more now. How about music, movies? Games? Anything there and in things that normally make us react somehow?

How about your parents, relatives? If your friends are in college, I hope you don't shut other people out too much.

I can enjoy movies to some degree. Like I can get zoned out by the story of whatever is going on and really just focus on it. Games are better now because I can reflex respond to things so I kind of enjoy it. But I still get bored after a while because of the lack of emotional investment. If a character dies, I don't feel anything. If I die in a video game, I don't feel mad or anything. So I can't stay too invested in anything.

I'm living with my parents at this time so I do get to spend a lot of time with them. They are getting old so I am appreciating my time with them since they won't be around forever(they're not THAT old but they're getting there). Other relatives not so much.

Thank you for your words of encouragement. I'm still extremely confused about my situation. Why would God let this happen to me? I know bad things happen to people but this has rendered me completely ineffective in life.
 
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Oh you have no idea... I was so broken. It was driving me insane to the point where I was thinking about suicide.

Yeah. Many of us here have gone to that point, whatever the issue. The amount of ways we can be broken is staggering. We can't feel each other's experience, only our own.


Thank you for your words of encouragement. I'm still extremely confused about my situation. Why would God let this happen to me? I know bad things happen to people but this has rendered me completely ineffective in life.

I don't know. Why was my aunt born with Down's syndrome and CP? I am not of the opinion that God throws miseries on us, even though I do believe He will have abundant glory for the miserable, suffering people - if not in this world, then certainly in the next. There are hard questions that I just cannot answer, and I don't even try to answer. Many try, but I just take it in a simple way: a lot of things just suck, and we're going to deal with it. And if someone is far worse than me, and I can make them feel at least a little better, I should go for it.

But hey, you are more effective now than a few months ago. Also, your body works. I know this sounds like a platitude. But I believe your body is physically healthy, you have some of your strength. You can perform tasks, at least to some extent. You are able to express yourself, at least in writing, that much is clear. Your mind isn't fully crippled and some of it seems to be coming around. It's easy to stare at what we don't have, I've often been guilty of it myself, but it can blind us to what we do have. Of course I realize this sounds like a platitude too. These "easy to say" things make me wary, because I think they need to be repeated, but at the same time I know how it can come across in a bad way.

Good to know you have your parents around you. They're a blessing, and you are to them, even if you didn't feel like you are. Christ be with you brother.
 
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Yeah. Many of us here have gone to that point, whatever the issue. The amount of ways we can be broken is staggering. We can't feel each other's experience, only our own.

I don't know. Why was my aunt born with Down's syndrome and CP? I am not of the opinion that God throws miseries on us, even though I do believe He will have abundant glory for the miserable, suffering people - if not in this world, then certainly in the next. There are hard questions that I just cannot answer, and I don't even try to answer. Many try, but I just take it in a simple way: a lot of things just suck, and we're going to deal with it. And if someone is far worse than me, and I can make them feel at least a little better, I should go for it.

But hey, you are more effective now than a few months ago. Also, your body works. I know this sounds like a platitude. But I believe your body is physically healthy, you have some of your strength. You can perform tasks, at least to some extent. You are able to express yourself, at least in writing, that much is clear. Your mind isn't fully crippled and some of it seems to be coming around. It's easy to stare at what we don't have, I've often been guilty of it myself, but it can blind us to what we do have. Of course I realize this sounds like a platitude too. These "easy to say" things make me wary, because I think they need to be repeated, but at the same time I know how it can come across in a bad way.

Good to know you have your parents around you. They're a blessing, and you are to them, even if you didn't feel like you are. Christ be with you brother.

Oh I understand that I have many blessings. God has given me far too much. My life was pretty much "easy mode" until this happened. Well I have had to deal with my deafness(I was born deaf) but other than that life has been really easy until now. I honestly would rather be deaf than emotionless. The emotion thing is a much bigger handicap. I'm basically not even human anymore.

Sometimes I wonder why God bothered saving me if this is the end.
 
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Sometimes I wonder why God bothered saving me if this is the end.

The end? Oh, this is not the end. Nothing here is the end. If anything here was the end, then there would be no need to save anyone. God does things out of His nature. If He sacrifices Himself in His Son for us, that's all I need to know about His nature. When Jesus Christ is praying for those who are killing Him, His nature comes through. We do the unspeakable against Him, but He prays for us. He takes the most wicked thing we could do to God, and turns it into most high grace. When everything else confuses me, I return to the cross and I take a really good look at what's happening.

We can't know about tomorrow, we have our cross for today. And if there is something encouraging in the past, like the small good changes you've seen recently, we take it and encourage ourselves with it. You are absolutely a human, you are a brother in Christ, and you are a child of God.
 
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